Born to Sin

Chapter Eight

I laid in bed and cried. I cried until dehydration kicked in.

‘Are you okay?’ The voice asked with a surprising amount of sincerity in her voice. I didn’t answer though all I could manage was a small nod. ‘Look I know this is hard for you but it’s all for good reason.’ She went silent for a few moments, I'm assuming she was waiting for my outburst from her statement. ‘My name is Abaddon but you can call me Abby.’ She said in a fake chipper tone. ‘Who’s Matt?’ She asked. The question somewhat surprised me, but I still refused to speak to her. ‘Was he your boyfriend before you found Ryder? I know it can be upsetting to let someone go once you find your mate but…’

“Ryder is not my mate.” I spoke out loud in a harsh tone. Abby went silent at my outburst.

“Matt is…was my mate.”

‘I think you’re mixed up darling. Ryder is our mate, his demon Modeus, and I are destined mates.”

“I don’t care what he is to you, but he is nothing to me and I will not act like he is just for your sake.” I yelled out loud. My voice bouncing off of the bare walls.

“Well to late for that kitten.” The door swung open and there stood a very upset looking Ryder. Not a sad upset either more on the lines of angry or livid. “I marked you, you bare the proof on your neck. That means you are mine.” He growled.

“No. I’m. Not.” I stated back.

He stalked over to me, eyes ablaze with anger. “Who is Matt?” When I didn’t answer he grabbed my shoulders and jerked me up.

“Owe! Stop!” I yelled

“Who is he?!” He retaliated.

‘Some pathetic man, probably human.’ The voice stated with disgust.

“He’s not pathetic! And he’s not human!” I yelled tears streaming down my face from the pain under Ryder’s strong grip.

“Where is he? Does he live near by?” His eyes as black as the void itself. His teeth now sharp fangs and his fingernails claws digging into my skin.

“Let go of me!” I used all of my strength and brought my arm up to punch him in the chest, then again and again. I yelled through the pain of moving and the pain from my heart. When I finally gave out seeing as how my punches where wasted. I slumped into his chest and let the tears flow. “It doesn’t matter...I’m dead to him now.” I whispered to myself mostly, but loud enough for Ryder to hear. “You ruined my life.” I sobbed.

“I ruined your life? Look at your neck! He scared you! Tried to take what wasn’t his to begin with!” Ryder yelled back in frustration. He took a big breath, his shoulders relaxed with the exhale.

“Abby, can you give Blue her body for a little while? I want to take her somewhere.” Ryder said in a sad tone. I heard a sigh in my head then the pain from Ryders touch washed away in an instant. The look on my face was more then shocked to say the least.

“You?...you did this to me?” I said, anger boiling back into my stomach.

‘Yes, if you don’t play nice with mate then I won’t play nice with you.’

“Abby it’s going to take a while for her to get used to the thought. Try to be understanding of her situation.” He said in a soft tone.

“A few hours ago Abby didn’t even exist, let alone know anything about me. Before her I was perfectly content with Noah and Marshall!”

‘Oh yeah I forgot to explain that part.’ Abby giggled. ‘When Ryder marked you he joined your two sides together creating me.’

“So it’s Ryders fault, now that makes more sense.” I said irritated. “I should have never went into that pub. My life was fine before you stepped in.” I raised my hand to hit Ryder again knowing I had my full strength back. The pain shot back through my body and I fell to the floor screaming in agony.

‘Don’t hit mate! He has done nothing but help you!’ Abby yelled at me.

Ryder slowly lifted me off the ground and back into his lap. “Just kill me.” I cried. “I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to be punished for my own feelings for something I never wanted.”

“Abby chill for a while.” Ryder said in a stern voice. “Blue let’s get you some clothes we are going out.”

“Why what’s the point?”

“Because you can’t go out dressed like that.”

I looked down, my entire torso exposed from Rivers torment. I’d cover myself up but I currently can’t move my body thanks to my dreadful new inner demon.

Ryder chucked and slipped his shirt off with one hand. His body was muscular and god those v lines were so deep. My eyes traced the tattoo on his chest, a demon wearing the head of a wolf like a hat was painted in black ink on his chest. It covered the majority of his chest all except a portion over his heart. I snapped out of my thoughts when Ryder slipped the opening of his shirt over my head. I whimpered through the pain of his touch and received his shirt.

“I’m not thanking you.” I said.

“That’s fine, it was my fault you went through that anyway.”

“Are you trying to tug at my heart strings thinking I’m going to fall for you just because you admitted it?” I said in the most condescending tone I could muster.

“No, now get ready we are leaving.” Ryder sat me back on the bed and stood up to leave. “You two play nice, Abby I won’t let Modeus communicate with you for 3 days if I hear Blue screaming from pain.” He said smiling before he walked out of the room.

‘No fair! What if she starts it?!’ Abby cried.

‘You sound like a child not some scary demon.’ I heard Abby scoff at me before she went completely silent. I cautiously got up from the bed assuming it would hurt to move, but it didn’t this time. ‘If I could just get her to stay like this for a while I could get out of here and away from Ryder.’ I thought quietly to myself so she wouldn’t over hear. ‘How am I supposed to get ready? This room is practically empty.’ I ran my fingers through my hair in an attempt to tame it. Then quietly walked out the door. I don’t even know where my shoes are. I continued to walk down the hallway and to the top of the stairs, when an intrusive thought crossed my mind. ‘If I throw myself down the hard wood stairs...could it kill me? Would I just need to aim my head just right?

The familiar pain shot up my legs and made my knees buckle beneath me. I held back my screams the best I could as I fell to the floor. ‘I could punish you too ya know?’

‘Oh? Would it be worse then being trapped in your own body?’

‘I don’t know. How would you feel about having only me to talk to for 3 days?’ I smirked.

‘Such a cry baby.’

I rolled my eyes and stood back up on my wobbly legs, when I looked back down the stairs Ryder was standing at the bottom with a frustrated look written all over his face.

“I stumbled a bit, I’m fine.” I giggled trying to play off my blatant lie.

He wiggled two fingers indicating for me to come to him. I slowly made my way down the stairs, stumbling a few times until I fell forward, head first down the last couple of steps. Ryders big arms wrapped around me to brace my fall.

“Careful kitten.” He said in a worried voice.

I shoved his chest away from me. “Where are my shoes?”

“Just wear a pair of mine for now kitten, like I said we are going out.”

I scoffed while looking at his feet then back to his eyes. “You want me to wear your clown shoes? I can barley walk as it is with your pet controlling every move I make, now you want me to try, in your fe-fi-fo-fum shoes?”

He chuckled and tossed a pair at my feet. “Just put them on kitten.”

I cursed him under my breath while slipping his shoes on my feet. ‘This is ridiculous. The first chance I get I’m out of this place and as far away as I can get.’

‘Keep thinking like that and I’ll make your life harder.’ Abby growled.

‘Like you don’t already.’ I rolled my eyes. ‘Just leave me and my thoughts alone.’ Ryder was standing by the elevator door smiling down at me. ‘Disgusting.’ I fell to my knees in an instant, tears welling in my eyes. ‘Stop it!’

‘I wouldn’t have to do this if you would just be nice!’ Abby yelled.

‘I hate you! I’d rather die then play your mind games!’

“Both of you knock it off!” Ryder yelled back. “Abby stop hurting Blue. Blue just...just give me a chance...please.” Ryder pressed the button to the elevator. “Now let’s go.” He said sternly.

I got off my knees with shaking legs and my head hung down in embarrassment. We walked into the elevator and Ryder pressed the basement button. The ride down was silent, and I could feel his eyes on me every now and then.