I woke up sweating like crazy, panting hard. I feel like there is no air and sucking the life out of me. I touched my face and realize i am crying.
I remember him again.
I saw his face again.
I suffered a lot because of him. And i am so done blaming everything on him.
I made some crazy and unforgivable things in the past and that is on me. I did it. My life was shitty and i let it get through me.
No more running. This is the real me now. I will not act as someone's shadow anymore. That was long gone. No more trying to be someone i am not.
I was in the dark for so long. But someone acted like a lighthouse for me. I saw her when i am in a storm. She saved me.
I finally decided to quit modeling. It is not really for me. I liked it before because it is like the only thing i knew. Pla
