Lost In Her Shell

Chapter 2

The sight of my school starts to appears and damn there are so many people. Man I hate crowd, I remember when my anxiety would always reach its peak whenever I was in public. I was younger and my episodes where terrible back then. Well thankfully I am a lot better now and it's all thanks to Lucy. What would I have done without her. We are getting closer to the school as the view becomes clearer. Troy high school is a pretty big school. A school of class or elegance they say. One of those schools that only the rich can attend. I see some of my ex class mates gather in a group at one corner next to a SUV and mehn I love the the feeling of calling them ex hahaha. I hate the sight of them together. Ahhhh they look so pathetic. As the vehicle moves slowly past them, their faces becomes more vivid and there is Casey, the one girl I hate the most. She practically made it her job to try and make me miserable. Her face reminds me of my reason for keeping to myself and also why I hate everyone, well everyone except for Lucy of course. I feel a sudden grasp of my hand and I look to my side. She's crying again. Why is she so emotional today.

"I'll miss you" she says suddenly. What's gotten into her

"Whatttt!!! But I'm right here" why the hell would she miss me. Maybe she's talking about me leaving for college. But that's like in a few months time.

"Aunt Lucyyyy, come on, you'll ruin your makeup" she grasps my hand tighter. Is something wrong? I have a feeling something is wrong but how do I ask. I'm not good with this type of conversation so I always avoid them but how do I avoid her right now. The car stops.

" We are here. Let's go." I'm about to open the door but she hold me back.

"Here, have this. It's cold outside" she says while handing me a black jacket. It's not even that cold but I collect it anyways.

"Ummm thanks. Are you OK? Cos you were being super weird and emotional a second ago and I don't know what to do or how to react. If this is about college , which I don't think it is, we still have a few month to spend together before I leave. I know Switzerland is far away and you are not used to being apart from me but" I sigh "I will be fine Lucy, I'm 18 and quite capable of taking care of myself. And besides you wanted this too. It was your suggestion to go to Switzerland anyways so plsss Lucyyyy stop being a cry baby. It's exhausting watching you this way. "

She just sits there staring at me. Why isn't she saying anything. I mean this is my first time speaking openly and she's just gonna stare at me not saying a word. Ughhh!!!

"Listen Emma, I won't always be there for you, you know that right" I'm getting bored.

"Look at you all grown up." She says smiling and squeezes me in in a hug.

"Come on let's go" I say letting go off her hug and we both step out of the vehicle. The chauffeur standing right next to the door bows as we step out.

Okay Emma you can do this. So many crowd. Lucy pats me on the back and walks right ahead of me. Her beauty is irresistible. A queen I must say. Damn she is definitely stealing the spotlight today. She looks soo beautiful wearing this sleek long sleeve white dress with low draped back.It's really fitting plus her curves just makes everything perfect. I love the way her long braids falls on her exposed back. Everything looks perfect and just like I assumed, everyone is staring.

"Aunt Lucy wait up" I yell as I increase my pace to catch up with hers.

As we both head to the auditorium for the ceremony, we take our separate paths. I head to the stage while she sits with the audience. As I take my sit I notice my ex classmates staring. The hell are they staring at.

" Is that Emma" I hear someone whisper and I look around to see who it is. I mean I won't be surprised if no one recognizes me cause even I couldn't recognize myself. This black sleeveless gown i have on really fit. It has some sort of designs on it and its really pretty. I guess I find it pretty cause its black. I pick up my phone and I'm about to plug in my ear piece when a figure appears next to me.

"Sorry, is this seat taken?" I hear the figure say and I just nod. Clearly no one is sitting there. It's a male and I'm guessing it's Aiden. He always tries to talk to me and its annoying.

"EMMA Hi, I'm Aiden from our class. Ummm congratulations on your graduation" he says. He sounds soo nervous.

"Ummm thanks. You too" I reply not even sparing him a glance.

"Thank you" I can almost swear I heard him chuckle. People keep swarming in but that won't be a problem since the auditorium is pretty huge. I look at Lucy sitting amongst the crowd with such elegance. Oh how she always stands out where ever she goes. She waves at me and I wave back. I wanna leave. I'm bored already. All these people stink. I steal a glance at Aidan and notice him staring deeply at his phone and I watch as his Expression changes when he immediately drops his phone. The f**k does does be look so nervous about. He seems to have noticed me staring as he quickly adjust himself on his seat. Deciding to ignore him, I stare at my phone and just open a bunch of apps. How I wish time could just fly right now.

Its been more than an hour since the ceremony started and they were already presenting awards. "How much longer is this gonna take" I muster and almost immediately I hear my name called and people cheering. Ahh thank God. I was almost dozing off. I'm presented with my award and head back to my sit. Lucy is super excited as she claps and biggest smile appears on her face. I think she is my purpose for living. I would have killed myself a long time ago if it weren't for her. I love her soo much. I've never told her this but I really mean it. I look at the certificate in my hand and smile a little. I use my forefinger to gently trace the words boldly written on it. A certificate of excellence indeed. I must admit that I am really proud of myself for coming this far. I might not care about a lot of things but I never joke with my education. The two things I never joke with are my studies and Ofcourse Lucy. The sound of movements brings me back to reality.

"Ahhhh it's over". The ceremony is finally over and now I have no reason to ever step foot in this school. I'm soo happy. I head out of the auditorium and start searching for Lucy. Where is she? I pick up my phone to call her but I suddenly hear my name. I turn around hoping it's Lucy but it's not. I feel disappointed as Aiden appears instead running towards me.

"Emma you left your jacket" Aiden says out of breath "I Was looking looking allover for you. Here you go" he hand it over to me.

"Thank you" I tell him and collect the jacket

"You are welcome" he smiles. I nod and walk away from him to continue my search for aunt Lucy but I can tell that Something is definitely off with Aiden, I can tell from his forced smile that something is wrong.I hear footsteps really close to me. Is he following me?

"Ummmm can you like stop following me. You already gave me my jacket" i tell him but he just stands there staring at me emotionless. This is new, I've never seen this look on him before. He looks almost sad " Emma just know that no matter what happens you will be fine, okay" he says as he stares at me for a brief second before walking right past me. What was that? Where'd the smiley face go? I watch in shock as he walks away and try to process what just happened. Why did he say that? The vibration I feel on my hand snaps me out of my thinking and I look at the screen "it's her calling".

"Hello, where are ..." I suddenly see a hand waving at my direction. Ohh thank god. My anxiety was slowly starting to increase. She's waving and walking up to me. Her smile instantly makes me feel better. "Lucy where the hell were you? I was looking everywhere."

"Oh come on Emma, I wasn't even away for up to five minutes. You really can't live without me can you?" She says on the on the phone as she keeps walking towards me.

"Ofcourse I can't live without you Lucy. And it was more than five minutes, seven to be precise" I laugh on the phone as she gets closer to me. She has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I think this is the right time to tell her. The word that I always thought was so hard to comprehend, that I love her? I watch as she strides slowly towards me and I smile. Imma tell her over the phone and I'm definitely not repeating it.

"Ummm Lucy I..." Gosh why is this so hard.

"You what Emma?" she chuckles. I have to do this or I might never get the courage to again.

"I love you aunt Lucy"