The CEO

Chapter 8: Don't Know What to Do

Blaire's PoV:

"Owemji Congrats Cous! I'm sure matutuwa si Tito nyan dahil finally, may apo na sya. Ninang ako ha." Ash said to me. She's really happy and excited at the same time with the result.

"Ano kayang magiging reaction ng barkada? Akalain mo yun, mas nauna ka pang magbuntis kaysa kay Red na bagong kasal." Dagdag pa nya at ngumiti ng nakakaloko sa akin. I mentally curse and shot her with my famous death glare.

"f**k you Ashley Kray Jimenez!" Madiin kong saad.

She jokingly raised her two hands as if she's giving up. "Chill Cous. Stop na nga ako. Masamang ginagalit ang buntis." Saad nya na pinipigilan ang kanyang tawa.

Napailing na lang ako sa kawalan at hindi na sya pinansin pa. Hindi ko maintindihan kung anong mararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ko alam. I'm still in the state of shock simula pa kanina. And kanina pa rin ako binabati ni Ash. Kino-congrats to be exact.

Maraming tanong ang naglalaro sa aking isipan.

How can I be pregnant?

Wait, I mean alam ko kung paano. Two people must have a s****l i*********e in which me and Kenley probably did. Hindi ko na matandaan kung pinutok nya ba sa loob o sa labas. I don't get it. Isang beses lang naman nangyari pero paanong may nabuo agad?

Ganon ba sya kasharpshooter huh?

How can I explain this to my family and even to anyone?

I can't have my business associates to thinks that I'm careless and irresponsible. I don't want anyone to think that I'm a w***e. I repeat, I have a reputation to protect. Natatakot ako na baka mamaya madisappoint sa akin si Dad and Mom.

Ang isa pang nakakadagdag sa problema ko is I don't know how to raise a child. My own child. Argh. Clearly hindi ako mahilig sa bata. Ni hindi nga sumagi sa isipan ko ang magkaron ni isa.

I know I'm a successful businesswoman but that doesn't guaranteed me to be a successful mother too.

Naputol ang aking pag-iisip nang lumapit sa akin si Ash.

"Cous okay ka lang ba? Bakit parang hindi ka masaya?" She asked with full of concern. I shooked my head.

"Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko Ash." Nanlulumo kong saad.

"I understand. But please lang, wag na wag mong ipapalaglag ang bata. Kawawa naman ang unang pamangkin ko." She pleasingly said.

"Of course not! I won't do it! Kahit ganto ako, hindi maatim ng konsensya ko na pumatay ng walang kamuwang-muwang sa mundo." Mabilis kong saad. Ash felt relieved. I don't have the guts to kill an innocent baby.

"That's good. Andito naman kami if ever you want some help with parenting. Speaking of, kelan mo nga pala ipapaalam kay Tito?"

"Mamaya pag-uwi ko sa bahay." I said. Napag isip-isip ko na hindi na dapat ito patagalin pa. Mas maaga, mas maganda.

Napatango-tango naman si Ash sa kanyang narinig. There's a long pause between us nang basagin nya itong muli.

"Kung hindi mo naman mamasamain cous, Uhm... Who's the father?" She asked curiously.

"I don't think it's important at this moment." Saad ko. Hindi pa ako ready na sabihin sa kanya.

"Anong ibig mong sabihin? Of course importante yun. Duh, alangan namang himalang may nabuo dyan sa loob mo." Ma-attitude nitong saad. Naningkit ang aking mga mata. Ako lang dapat ang pwedeng magtaray dito.

Anyways, I'm battling with my inner self kung sasabihin ko ba o hindi. Napagdesisyunan ko na lang na sabihin kung ano ang totoo. At nagtitiwala ako sa kanya.

"Argh fine! It was Kenley." Sumusuko kong saad. "Kenley what? Sino don? Buoin mo naman cous. Ano? Pasuspense ang gusto mo?" Reklamo nya.

"Kenley Jewel Cohen. Our Fund Manager. Happy?" Naasar kong saad. Inaantay ko ang kanyang magiging reaction. But she just laughed crazily.

"Wala bang joke o kaya naman it's a prank dyan? Tapos na ang April Fools Cous kaya wag mo kong ginogoodtime." Natatawa nitong saad. Damn. Mukha bang ginogoodtime ko sya huh?

"Pfft-- Okay, okay. I get it. You have a crush on her kaya ka nagkakaganyan. Imposibleng sya ang ama dahil unang-una babae sya at walang lawit." Dagdag pa nya.

"Hindi ako nagpapatawa kaya wag kang tumawa. Kung ayaw mong maniwala edi wag." I said with finality in my voice. Madali lang naman akong kausap.

Napamaang si Ash and looked at me with disbelief. "Seryoso?! Pano nangyari yun? Wait, don't tell me transgender sya?" Ekstrahada nya.

I rolled my eyes. I can't blame her. "I don't know! Pero hindi sya transgender. She's clearly a she!"

"Oh shoot! Wait. Remember diba dati nahilig ako sa human anatomy? May naalala akong may nabasa akong ganyang condition. She's an intersex person."

I look at her with curiosity. "Huh? Intersex?" Clearly, wala akong kaide-ideya dahil ngayon ko lang narinig ang salitang yun.

"Well Cous, it's a condition of a person having the same s****l organ. Pero kung ang features mo is pambabae then you can call youself as a woman. About 5-7% lang ang intersex person so basically, rare si Kenley." She explains. Napatango-tango ako. So that answer all of my question.

"Tell me, kamusta ang first time? Masarap ba? Is Kenley good in bed? Mahaba ba yung ano?" Sunod-sunod nyang tanong. Naramdaman kong nag-init bigla ang aking pisngi.

"Shut up! Umalis ka nga dito!" Masungit kong saad to hide my embarassment. Gosh.

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I arrived in our home past 7pm. Tinapos ko agad ang aking trabaho para makauwi ng maaga. I composed myself. I gathered all my strength and courage bago tuluyang maglakad sa living room. Nakita ko si Mom and Dad doon na nanonood ng TV.

"Hey Mom, Dad." Bati ko and kissed both of their cheek.

"Anak kamusta? Ang aga mo atang umuwi." Saad ni Mom. Ngumiti na ako bilang sagot. "Nagbago na ba ang desisyon mo sweetheart? C'mmon te---" Pinutol ko ang sasabihin ni Dad.

"No Dad. I u-uh may gusto lang kasi akong sasabihin." I said. Damn. Mas lalo akong kinabahan.

"Sit down sweetheart. Ano ba yun at parang kinakabahan ka?" Dad asked while giggling. "Uhm, ano kase..."

"Anak you can tell us everything. Hindi kami magagalit." Mom said and gave me a reassuring smile. Medyo na relax ako bigla.

"Mom, Dad I'm pregnant." I said and bowed down my head. Hindi ko kayang makita ang mga mukha nila.

Naging tahimik bigla ang lahat. f**k. I'm scared. Ready na ako sa kung ano mang magiging reaksyon nila. Suddenly, I felt a pair of arms hugged me tightly.

"Congrats Anak! I'm really happy. That's a great news. Finally, magkaka-apo na rin tayo Honey!" Mom said habang pumapalakpak pa.

"I'm really excited sweetheart! Kailangan na ba nating mamili ng mga gamit? Do you want to take a break on the company?" Hindi nga halatang excited si Dad.

I was lost with words. Hindi ko ito ineexpect. f**k. Parang maiiyak ako.

"Hindi kayo galit?" I asked.

"What? Bakit naman kami magagalit anak?" Mom said. "Atsaka blessing yan. Gusto ko nang alagaan ang anak mo sweetheart. I can't wait to meet her." Dagdag pa ni Dad.

I'm really happy with their reaction. Nawala lahat ng kaba at takot ko. Maya maya pa ay biglang mag tanong si Dad.

"So who's the father of your child?"

"Uhm it's a she actually." I answered. I can feel the tension is starting to build again on me. My hands are trembling. Bumalik ang kabang nararamdaman ko.

They looked surprise and went quite. I mean sino nga bang hindi diba?

"Okay, okay. I won't ask for more but can you tell me what's her name?" He asked seriously. Oh s**t. Baka mamaya, may gawing masama si Dad kay Kenley.

"Uhm.. Kenley Jewel Cohen was her name Dad." I said in defeat.

"I will talk to her as soon as possible to settle this things." I was about to protest nang magsalita ulit si Dad.

"Kailangan nyang panagutan ang nangyari."