The Alpha King's Cursed Breeder

DOUBT

Kael POV

Ten years of loyalty should have been enough to silence one stranger's suspicion.

It wasn't.

Lyra had known Ronan for less than ten minutes, yet I couldn't stop wondering if she'd seen something I'd spent a decade refusing to see.

That bothered me more than it should have. I'd spent ten years learning to trust my own instincts over anyone else's. I didn't know why I was suddenly weighing hers against them. I told myself it was because of what happened at the gate. Because whatever moved through me when our hands touched had left something behind that hadn't settled yet. That was the easier explanation, and I didn't fully believe it either. The harder explanation was simpler and far less comfortable — that she'd looked at Ronan for less time than it took to cross a room and seen something I'd spent a decade failing to.

I found Ronan in the armory, running an inventory he didn't need to run himself. He glanced up when I entered, easy smile already in place, the same smile he'd worn through every crisis I could remember — the border wars, the succession disputes, even the night my Luna died, when I couldn't bring myself to speak to anyone else in this territory for a week. He'd been there through all of it, steady in a way nothing else in my life had been.

"My king." He set down the ledger. "I heard the new arrival isn't fond of me."

"She has no reason to be."

"None that she's said out loud." He studied me a beat too long. "You believe her."

"I didn't say that."

"You didn't have to." He crossed his arms, unbothered, wearing the same calm he'd carried through every crisis this kingdom had survived. "I've served you since before either of us had grey in our hair, Kael. If a stranger's instincts outweigh that, I'd like to know what changed."

He wasn't wrong to ask. That was the problem. Everything he said made sense, and none of it settled the unease sitting low in my chest since the moment Lyra's face went pale at the sound of his name. Ten years of loyalty didn't erase in an instant. I knew that. I also knew that ten years was exactly the kind of trust a patient man could exploit, if he'd been planning to.

"Nothing's changed," I said. "I'm being careful. That's all."

"Careful." He picked the ledger back up, unhurried. "You've never needed to be careful with me before."

I didn't have an answer for that, and the silence between us stretched a beat too long before I turned and left.

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I spent the rest of the day the way I usually did — reports, disputes, a border skirmish two territories over that wasn't mine to solve but would be if I ignored it long enough. There was also a merchant dispute that Ronan would normally have handled without troubling me at all. I found myself watching him hand it off to a junior officer, something I couldn't remember him doing before.

None of it held my attention the way it should have.

I kept thinking about her hands shaking around a bandage cloth she wouldn't explain. About the way she'd gone cold and certain the second Ronan's name left my mouth, the same certainty she'd had standing in my forest telling me she hadn't killed anyone.

I'd believed her then too, before I had a single reason to.

By the time the sun started sinking, I found myself standing outside her door for the second time that day, hand raised, unable to decide whether I was there as her king or something I hadn't given myself permission to name yet. It was a strange thing, hesitating outside a door in my own keep. I couldn't remember the last time I'd done it.

I knocked instead of deciding.

She opened it dressed for nothing in particular, hair loose, eyes rimmed with the kind of exhaustion that came from thinking too hard instead of sleeping. She looked at me like she was bracing for something.

"It's not tonight yet," she said. "Is it?"

"No." I hadn't meant to come here at all, and I still wasn't entirely sure what had brought my feet to this door instead of anywhere else in the keep. "I wanted to ask you something."

"About Ronan."

"About Ronan." I studied her face, looking for the tell that would let me dismiss this as fear instead of instinct. I didn't find one. "You said you don't have proof. I want to know what you do have. Even if it's nothing but a feeling."

She hesitated, and for a moment I thought she'd shut the door on me the way she had every reason to.

"He gave me a cloth for a cut on my arm," she said instead. "There was old blood on it already. Dried. Days old, maybe longer. Not mine."

Something cold moved through my chest.

"Show me."

She stepped back to let me in, and I watched her cross to the bed, kneel, and pull a folded scrap of fabric out from beneath the mattress like something she'd been guarding with her life. She'd let me into her room before she'd trusted me with this.

She held it out. I took it, turned it toward the firelight, and went very still.

I knew that mark.

A small crescent moon stitched into the corner seam.

The thread wasn't ordinary indigo. It had been dyed with crushed silverleaf root, a dye my healer guarded like a family secret. She stitched that crescent into every bandage herself and counted every roll that left her workshop.

Which meant Ronan hadn't handed Lyra a spare cloth.

He'd given her something that had already been used. Recently. On someone else. Someone who'd bled enough that a simple scratch wouldn't explain the stain. And whoever that was, they hadn't come through my healer's door for it, because I'd have known.

"Kael." Lyra's voice, careful. "What is it?"

I didn't answer right away, because the only honest answer I had was one I wasn't ready to say out loud — that somewhere in my own territory, someone had bled onto this exact stitch pattern not long ago, and I had absolutely no idea who, or why my most trusted man had been the one carrying it around instead of turning it in. Ten years of trusting a man completely, and I couldn't say with certainty anymore that I knew everything he did in the hours I wasn't watching.

"I'll find out who this belongs to," I said. "Quietly. Say nothing to anyone until I do — not to a servant, not to a guard, not to Ronan himself if he comes to your door again."

"And if you find out it's nothing?"

"Then I'll have wasted an evening." I met her eyes, and for the first time since the fire in the forest, I didn't try to hide what was underneath the words. "And if I find out it's something, you'll have been right about him before I was willing to admit it."

"So tonight still happens." Her voice was flat, testing the words before she trusted them.

"Tonight still happens." I folded the cloth once and slid it into my coat. "This doesn't change the bargain. It changes who I have watching my back while I keep it." Somewhere beneath the words was a promise I hadn't fully decided to make yet — that whatever this cloth turned out to mean, I wasn't going to let it be the thing that undid what little trust had started building between us.

She didn't say anything, but something in her shoulders eased, just slightly, like she'd been braced for me to call her a liar and hadn't quite believed I wouldn't. I understood that particular flinch better than I wanted to. I'd spent most of my own life braced for the same thing, from people who'd claimed to be on my side right up until the moment it cost them something to prove it.

I left before either of us had to name what that meant.