Episode 3: First kiss

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Clinton Four and a half years has flown by past me since the day I met Raine. I'm sitting in class watching her talk and giggle with that i***t. What the hell is going on with her? I have never seen her acting like this with anyone. I don't know what she sees in him. What is wrong with me? I can't recall ever feeling this way about anyone nor failing this hard with a girl before. I remember the day she walked into class for the first time in high-school, I was still joking around with Max, my best friend, when the teacher introduced her. My heart started beating erratically fast as I just stared at her, she was and still is the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes upon. Her long platinum hair falling along her body with curves in all the right places. And then she smiled and our eyes met. It felt as if my world came to a stop, like it was only the two of us that existed. I felt the strangest pull towards the majestic girl standing in front of me, but she looked away and went to sit somewhere else. And now even after all these years, I am still watching her just from a distance. Even when this pull in my heart gets stronger by the day, she doesn't even notice me. Not the way she has been noticing him. And it makes my blood boil. I can't take seeing her with him. He doesn't deserve a goddess like Raine. Does she really not feel this connection between us? Or am I just deluded? The whole lecture through I can't seem to stop watching her, for the past 3 weeks I have seen them together every day. He even hangs with her and her friends at lunch now. So the rumours have been going wild about them dating. I can't hear them, it feels like an unknown rage is building up inside of me whenever I do. Somewhere inside of me I know, she belongs to me. It is strange I know, but since that day when our eyes met I have felt it. Me and her will make some kind of epic love story, but each time she ignores me flat out. I just know we have something unique and special and I need to let her know how I feel before it is too late. After classes I head over to her house, she only lives a block from me. I can't keep feeling this way. I drive up to the building where I know she lives and check up which floor and apartment her last name is at. Penthouse hmm, I knew they were rich but never knew this rich. To be fair, most of the kids in our school's parents are well off. Unfortunately many of the kids knows they have money and they show it. I enter the penthouse's number and the gates opens up. I go up all the way to the top standing in front of her door for the first time ever. Isabella "Mom, dad, I'm home." I call out when entering the apartment. But I am greeted with silence, no answer at all. Guess they are out on business. I see a note on the kitchen counter which confirms my suspicion. I quickly go grab a shower, as I wrap the towel around my body I feel a weird pull, like my body is being sucked in by an invisible magnet. I walk into the living room as I hear the knock on the front door. Who will be here at this time of the day? "Be there in a minute." I yell out, quickly running to dress myself throwing on underwear and a sundress and running to the front door. The weird pull still lingering in my body. I open the door, and there he stands, leaning against the door frame, his hand in his gorgeous blond hair with that irresistible smirk on his face, his ocean blue eyes finding my silver one's immediately. His black button up shirt, which is not buttoned up completely as I can see his chiseled chest and his tattoos covering half of it beneath it. Just imagining what lays beneath makes my mouth water. I press my thighs tightly against each other as images of his naked chest and my hands and tongue tracing every line of his tattoo pops into my head. F*ck what is this guy doing to me?? "Raine," His husky voice comes through, but he almost seem at a loss for words as he looks down at me, "I know this is unexpected." He breathes out. But I honestly am so lost in this moment that he can probably say anything and I will just nod as if I am under some kind of spell. I feel his fingers run over my cheek and that pulls me back to reality. Without even realizing it I was leaning into his touch, I see the smirk on his face getting bigger as he notice me realizing what I just did. My eyes growing as big as saucers as my face turns a dark shade of pink. "What are you doing here DeMarco?" I say as I try to back away from him as much as possible. "I need to speak with you," He looks to the ground, looking almost sad, "before it is too late." He adds and confuse me completely. "Too late for what DeMarco?" I look up at him, but he does not meet my gaze. He stares at the ground, sighing, "Are the rumours true? Are you dating him?" His eyes find mine again and I see his facial expression change, it almost looks like he is hurting. Why would that be hurting him? There isn't anything between us, or can it be that he feels this strange pull between us too? No that can't be, impossible. If that were the case, this means trouble, big big trouble. I bite my lip as I stare up at him, "Not yet, but I am sure.." His hand cups my face and I feel his warm soft lips on mine before I can finish what I was saying. His lips are moving over mine, and I give in, kissing him back with all the passion I have, all these years of pent up feelings for him just come pouring out of me. This is what I have been longing to feel for so long. Soft, faint sparks tingle where our lips meet and his hands are on my face, this is surreal, I never thought this is how my first kiss would feel like. I can get lost in this feeling, this intense feeling he is giving me, I do not ever want it to stop... We finally break free, catching our breath and a wave of panic sets overs me, reality hitting me square in the face. What the hell did I just do?? "W-what? No.." I trace my fingers over my lips and I see his confused and hurt face. I shouldn't of let this happen. No. I can't give into this. I need my twin, I have to find her. No distractions or I will never get her. My mind starts racing all over and I feel hot tears sting my skin. No no, the prophecy, the prophecy needs to come true. I need her, I need my twin! "I'm sorry, I shouldn't," I press into the door and turn inside so fast, slamming it as I feel my tears run down my face, a sob escaped my mouth as I slide down the door, "I shouldn't have done that." "Raine, please don't do this!" I hear Clinton yelling on the other side of the door. His voice is breaking, "Please Raine, please." I put my hand over my mouth trying to muffle my sobs as I can't hold them back any longer. This has been what I wanted since I met him, since my eyes landed on his that very first day. But it wasn't meant to be, I am not meant to be with him. Because I will only end up hurting him. There is no other way, no way me and him can be together. Even if I now know what he will become to me, the sparks confirmed it. My mission in life is to get Arabella back and I can only accomplish that with Kean. I hear him sit down on the other side of the door, "I know you feel the connection between us too Raine, please. Don't tell me this is all in my head." He goes quiet and I feel the tug at my heart, he feels this too? How, how can he feel this way too? Why did this have to happen? It would've been so much easier if we never met and I could just focus on Kean. But I can't, I never could and I know after that kiss I would not be able to get Clinton out of my mind. "Please leave," I choke out, "this was a mistake." My tears stream down my face as my heart breaks. But I know I need to do this, I need him to stay away from me. I hear him get up and leave. Clinton Raine slams the door in my face and I feel like my world just shattered around me. In an instant the high I was just on from the most earth shuttering kiss I have ever had instantly gone. What did I do wrong? She kissed me back, I felt her enjoy the kiss. The way she kissed me back told me everything, she wanted this too, she felt our connection too. So why, why is she pushing me away again? "Raine, please don't do this!" I yell out, my voice starting to break, "Please Raine, please." I feel my throat constrict as I try to swallow a sob, why is this hurting so much? Why does she have such a major impact on me? I don't understand this, I have never cried over a girl in my life before. Is this was heart break feels like? But I know, I know she felt it too. I slide down the door, sitting down with my hands covering my face. Does she love him? Is this why she is pushing me away? She is choosing him over me, I didn't even get to tell her how I feel. "I know you feel the connection between us too Raine, please. Don't tell me this is all in my head." I say leaning my head back against the door. Why is this tugging in my heart only getting stronger? What is it about her that makes me want to stay? I could swear I felt literal sparks on my skin when I was kissing her, nothing like any kiss I've ever had before. How am I suppose to just walk away from her and just move on. I can't, I never will. A long silence passes between us before I hear her soft voice, "Please leave," and my chest feels like someone is squeezing it so tightly I can't breath. No Raine please I need you, "this was a mistake." she breathes out and I can hear she is crying. A mistake, I was a mistake. It keeps repeating in my head, her words seem to be on a loop. I get up and leave, I can't stay here, I need to get away. Away from her and away from everything. But I realize something as I leave her apartment building. "I love you Raine." I say as I walk away for good.
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