Noah; I hope she doesn't hate me.
I was outside getting drinks with the guys. I wasn’t myself. Why did I even agree to come to this stupid party? I felt uncomfortable. These were my old friends, but trying to reconnect with them wasn’t something I planned in maybe twenty years. I didn’t need anyone prying into my life. I didn’t deserve to be happy. I didn’t deserve to be loved. As far as I’m concerned, Zara is the only reason I’m even trying to be better.
Once we got back into the party house, there was a fire alarm and people were rushing out. My heart skipped. Students were pouring out from every corner but… I couldn’t see Zara anywhere. Then I spotted Riley running out with Mark.
“Where the heck is Zara?” I snapped. They both stared at me like I had grown two heads.
“Dude, she isn’t
