Chapter 4: Lines You Can’t Uncross
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Ava’s POV:
“You never actually mean that.”
Julian’s voice came through the line calm and unhurried, as if he were stating a fact rather than challenging me. The certainty in it made my grip tighten around the phone.
“I mean it every time,” I said.
“No,” he replied evenly. “You mean you wish you did.”
I closed my eyes, pressing my forehead lightly against the wall. “Stop psychoanalyzing me and hang up.”
“If I hang up,” he said, “you go back to pretending nothing is wrong.”
“That’s none of your business.”
“It became my business the moment you answered.”
Silence pressed in around us. I could hear my own breathing, shallow and uneven, each inhale sounding louder than it should have in the quiet room.
“You shouldn’t be calling me,” I said again, slower this time, each word deliberate. “You are crossing a line.”
Julian hummed softly, as if considering something amusing. “Tell me something, Ava. Whose line?”
Mine.
His.
Theodore’s.
I said nothing.
“That’s what I thought,” Julian continued. “You don’t even know where your lines are anymore.”
“You don’t know me.”
“I know enough,” he replied. “Enough to hear when someone is lying to themselves.”
My legs weakened and I slid onto the edge of the bed, the mattress dipping beneath my weight. “What do you want from me?”
“I already told you.”
“No,” I said sharply. “You keep saying things without actually saying anything.”
There was a pause. Longer than the others. The kind that felt deliberate.
“I want you to stop acting like you’re invisible,” Julian said.
My throat tightened. “I’m not acting.”
“You’re surviving,” he corrected. “There’s a difference.”
“You have no right to say that.”
“You’re right,” he said easily. “I don’t have the right. I just have the nerve.”
A breath escaped me that almost sounded like a laugh. “You’re unbelievable.”
“You keep saying that,” he replied. “Yet here we are.”
My gaze flicked instinctively to the door. The habit was automatic now. A check I performed without thinking.
Julian noticed. Of course he did.
“You’re checking the door,” he said.
“Stop doing that.”
“Doing what?”
“Seeing things you’re not supposed to see.”
His voice lowered slightly. “You shouldn’t have to be afraid in your own room.”
“I’m not afraid.”
“You hesitated,” he replied. “That counts.”
I swallowed hard. “You don’t get to rewrite my reality.”
“I’m not rewriting it,” he said. “I’m pointing at it.”
“You like pushing.”
“Yes,” he admitted. “Especially when something pushes back.”
“That’s not flattering.”
“I’m not trying to flatter you.”
“Then why me?” I demanded. “Why are you so interested?”
His answer came slower this time, as if he were choosing each word carefully.
“Because you’re not weak,” Julian said. “And everyone around you keeps treating you like you are.”
My chest tightened painfully. “You don’t know what they treat me like.”
“I know what Theodore treats you like,” he replied. “And I know what you allow.”
Anger flared sudden and sharp. “You don’t get to say his name like that.”
“Why?” Julian asked calmly. “Does it bother you because it’s true?”
“You don’t know my marriage.”
“I know control when I see it,” he said. “I grew up around men who confuse ownership with loyalty.”
I stood abruptly, pacing the room, the carpet soft beneath my feet. “This is not your business.”
“Then stop answering,” he said.
I stopped moving.
“You could hang up right now,” he continued. “You could block my number. You could pretend this conversation never happened.”
My silence stretched.
Julian exhaled quietly. “There it is.”
“There is what?” I snapped.
“Choice,” he said. “You’re not as trapped as you think.”
I laughed, bitter and hollow. “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“I know leverage,” he replied. “And I know fear. Yours isn’t about me.”
I pressed my fingers into my temple. “You’re exhausting.”
“And yet,” he said, “you’re still listening.”
“Say what you need to say,” I muttered. “Then leave me alone.”
“I can’t do both.”
My heart skipped violently. “What does that mean?”
“It means this doesn’t end with one call,” Julian said. “And you already know that.”
“I won’t sneak around,” I said quickly. “I won’t play games.”
“Good,” he replied. “Neither will I.”
“Then what is this?” I asked quietly.
“A warning.”
My breath caught. “You said last time it wasn’t.”
“This one is,” Julian replied. “Someone’s going to get hurt if you keep pretending everything is fine.”
“Who?” I whispered.
There was another pause. Longer than any before.
“You,” he said finally. “Or him. Possibly both.”
My stomach dropped. “You’re threatening Theodore now?”
“No,” Julian said immediately. “I’m acknowledging reality.”
“You sound very sure of yourself.”
“I am,” he replied. “Because men like Theodore don’t like losing control.”
“You’re trying to turn me against him.”
“No,” Julian said softly. “I’m trying to get you to see him clearly.”
“You don’t care about me,” I said. “You barely know me.”
“I care enough not to lie to you,” he replied. “That already puts me ahead of most people in your life.”
The words hit harder than I expected. They settled somewhere deep and uncomfortable.
“You should stop,” I said, my voice quieter now. “This is dangerous.”
“Yes,” Julian agreed. “It is.”
“Then why continue?”
“Because you’re already in danger,” he replied. “The only question is whether you notice before it costs you something you can’t get back.”
My fingers curled into the fabric of my dress. “You talk like you know how this ends.”
“I know how it begins,” he said. “With someone realizing they deserve agency.”
Silence filled the line again. It felt heavier this time, weighted with things neither of us said.
“I’m not asking you to trust me,” Julian continued. “I’m asking you to pay attention.”
“To what?”
“To the way your life is shrinking,” he said. “One rule at a time.”
I swallowed hard, the truth of it settling uncomfortably in my chest.
“You shouldn’t be calling me,” I said again, the protest weaker now.
“You shouldn’t be answering,” he replied gently.
We both knew neither of us was stopping tonight.
“I have to go,” I said finally.
“I know.”
“Please stop calling me.”
“No,” he said honestly.
I closed my eyes. “You’re impossible.”
“That’s what you said the first time,” he replied. “And yet you remembered my name.”
My pulse jumped.
“Good night, Ava.”
“Good night,” I whispered.
The call ended.
I stared at my phone for a long moment before setting it down on the bed. My chest felt tight. My thoughts felt too loud, circling without rest.
Somewhere across the house, a door closed softly.
I froze, listening.
Then my phone buzzed once more.
One message.
You don’t have to choose tonight. Just don’t lie to yourself tomorrow.
I turned the screen face down.
And for the first time since the gala, I wondered if pretending was more dangerous than the truth.
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