CONRAD
I’m not an addict.
Despite what Dani thinks, I am not addicted to cocaine and I know it’s the first thing addicts always say but when I watched her flush the powder down the toilet I felt like I was losing my crutches instead of my oxygen.
If I was an addict, it’d feel like I was losing my oxygen and I didn’t till I realized I was losing my wife and kids, that’s when the oxygen started to disappear so maybe I am an addict because I don’t think I can live without them.
Its my final day of the 14day program and the last activity is to write the people we’ve hurt with our habits a letter.
When she asked me to choose, drugs or our family I realized how bad things had become and I didn’t miss a beat.
No 3seconds of euphoria are worth a lifetime without little CJ or baby Char, n
