DARK DAYS WITHOUT YOU

CHAPTER 3: New Beginnings

I'm alone now, no one to talk too. Just staying right here at my Dad's grave. Rain is pourin' but I don't care, I won't be bothered, all I want is to be with him all day long. Drops of tears flows down into my face as the raindrops fell. I don't know what to say, mixed emotions and all I know is that you are not coming back at all. You won't be here for a lifetime. Wind blows became stronger and the way is getting dark too that's when I realized I need to go home or else he will get mad at me.

Walking in the middle of the rain 'til I reached our home. It is very dark, no one is around except me. As I open the door and turn the lights on, everything went back to me. No one cooks food, I don't feel starve at all, I just want to go to sleep. I saw my Dad's picture, I kept on staring at it while crying until I fell asleep.

Morning comes, sun shines like the way it used to be. Birds are flying around and singing everyday just what it used to do, and here I am...lying on the floor of my room staring at my window. Wondering how it feels to take back the way it used to be just like how everything that surrounds me didn't change.

First day without the most important person in my life. There's no one I can lean on. I felt like everyone just left me without my concern. I don't want to move in my position, I just wanna stay Iike that for the whole day. It's almost lunch time, still, I'm lying in my room , I'm really hungry that's the time I went to the kitchen and cook on my own. There's nothing to be found inside my fridge aside from chicken. I remember my Dad's favorite chicken curry, I started to cry again. With full of sadness I started to cook chicken curry for lunch. In the middle of our table, I'm alone eating in silence. The laughter in the dining table begun since the day my father left me. I'm planning to go back to school next week, I need to continue my life and stop being miserable. My mind keep on telling me that everything has a reason but, my heart is breaking everyday.

Days past I'm still doing the same thing, waking up full of sorrow and crying for how many times in a day. Tomorrow, I'm going to school again, few months I'll be graduating in Senior Highschool. Sadly, my Dad won't be there to put on my awards. He's been waiting for that day but he didn't wait for that time. I'm going solo in that memorable day of mine. Now, I finally understand how difficult life is without him beside me. Maybe, I'm meant to be alone for the rest of my life. I'm still hoping that it's just a nightmare and woke up... everything is back to normal again.