The Lycan Queen

Chapter 22

Nathans POV.

My office is torn to pieces after we shifted in here. My desk is broken, my bar shattered and my heart broken. Jeremiah is pissed at me and I'm pissed at me too. Why the hell didn't I just tell Vanessa to f**k off?! Why did I let her take her clothes off?! My head is pounding as my mind plays it through again.

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20 minutes before.

I'm reading some papers in my office, when a knock pulls my mind away. Maybe it's Lea? I haven't spoken to her in days now, not since I hurt her. I keep thinking about her wounds and bruises and the guilt that washed over me. I hate myself for hurting her. I hear another knock and I decide to face her. I unlock the door and to my big surprise, Vanessa walks in.

"Oh Nathan, finally" She squawks and kiss my cheek.

'What the f**k is she doing here?' Jeremiah snarls in my mind.

"Vanessa, what are you doing here?" I ask her, pretty confused. She gives me a big smile and bash her eyelashes at me.

"I'm here with my father and I know you want my company. Just like old days." She grins, and I'm about to puke.

"Vanessa I'm not interested, please get out." I tell her with a firm voice.

"Oh come on, Nathan. I will let you play with me, like I'm your private toy. You used to love me and my pussy." She smirks. I walk closer to her.

"Get out. Now." I growl and she moans.

"Just a quicki?" She takes off the rope around her body and reveals her naked body. I look away instantly with fury in my eyes.

"Are you not even looking? Not even a sneak peak?" She giggles and walks closer to me. I'm about to tell her to f**k off when Lea suddenly walks through the door looking at her phone.

"Nathan can we please move on from the little incident?" She looks up and see Vanessa's naked body right next to me. s**t! The room gets filled with her rage immediately.

"Vanessa get the f**k out, NOW!" I yell at her but that stupid b***h won't listen to me.

"Who are you? Get the f**k out!" Vanessa screams at her.

"Vanessa I will snap your neck myself if you don't get our wrinkled ass out, right now!!" I roar at her, making her jump. I'm panicking here. I mind link Damon and Alpha Blade.

'Get in my office now!' I growl through the link. 'Yes King.' They reply simultaneously. I see Lea's claws coming out and her canines expands in her mouth. She growls and snarls at Vanessa and me.

"Nathan, get her out before I kill her." Her voice is low and hard to hear because of her growls. I'm at her side in a second and touch her cheek, hoping she will calm down but it doesn't work. I see Damon and Alpha Blade storm in and Damon drags a screaming Vanessa out of my office. Alpha Blade tries to calm her too but then I hear her bones snapping out of place and fur sprawling up her arms and legs.

She shifts and her wolf is magnificent. She's baby blue with silver eyes and absolutely breathtaking. She looks at me and her snarls and growls makes me nervous. I pace back and forth, trying to figure out what will calm her.

'Let me out, Nathan. I can calm her.' Jeremiah says. I trust him and decide to shift. Jeremiah faces Blade and she bares her teeth at us. Jeremiah whimpers and lie down on the floor. Blade tilts her head to the right. She lays down next to him and licks his face. I mind link Alpha Blade.

'You can go now, thanks for the help.' I tell him. He nods and walks out the door. We lie still a long time before she shifts back. I shift back too. Before I have a chance to explain, she turn around, heading for the door.

"Lea, please wait!" I beg, I grab her wrist but she shakes me off. She turns around and gives me a fist in my face. Damn, she can hit.

"You haven't spoken to me or touched me in days so excuse me, if I got a little mad seeing you together with that.. Girl!" She yells in my face and I don't blame her, I'm embarrassed right now.

"I'm sorry, please just let me explain." I look in her eyes, they are still black with silver swirling inside.

"You don't have to. I was just another easy f**k, wasn't I?" She growls at me and I look away. I'm f*****g screwed right now!

"You know what, don't answer that. I will travel back to my pack today and then you can f**k that girl all you want without me interrupting." She turns on her hells and run out of my room. I run after her but Jeremiah stops me.

'Give her some time, Nathan. She will come around.' He sighs. 'Are you sure?' I'm so afraid I just lost her.'

And now I'm standing here, trying to fix my office. I will give her a few hours before I go talk to her. Maybe Jeremiah is right, if she's my mate she will hopefully forgive me. I really hope she is, I can't wait for tomorrow.

I walk down in the kitchen to grab some breakfast. I kill some time before I decide to go to her room. I run up the stairs, eager to talk to her and explain why Vanessa was in my room. I knock on her door but of course she refuses to answer. I turn the doorhandle and it's unlocked, great! I go through the door and look around, she's not in here. Her bed is made, the curtains open and when I look at her closet, my heart breaks.

"S-she's gone." I say under a heavy breath. She's gone. But why and why wasn't I informed?! My heart aches in pain, I lost her. I freaking lost her.

'We lost her because of her. Because of that slut, Vanessa.' Jeremiah roars in my head, it gives me a headache. I starts panting, gasping for air. I mind link Damon.

'Where the f**k is Lea?!' I snarl through the link. He can feel every single emotions that's running through my body at the moment. Damon comes running to Lea room and find me having a panic attack.

"Nathan, calm down. Please." He tries to calm me but Jeremiah is about to take over my body.

"She left a couple of hours ago, she ordered a car to the airport. I'm so sorry Nathan." His voice is shaken, he's sorry for him self too, he just lost his future Luna. Jeremiah has full control over me now and I'm pushed to the back of my mind.

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I wake up in the middle of the forest. I look around but all I see is darkness.

'What the hell happened?!' I yell at my stupid wolf. 'What did you do?' I can't remember anything. 'I lost control, Nathan. Please forgive me.' He whimpers. f**k, what the hell did he do? I mind link Damon but I can't get through. I run to his room and kick down the door, Damon jumps out of his bed, naked and confused.

"What the hell, Nathan. Can't you knock?" He yells while taking on some shorts. I walk over to him and gives him a hug.

"f**k, I thought Jer killed you. The last thing I remember is you in Leas room." I pants. Everything comes back to me now. She left me.

'We lost our little kitten.' Jeremiah whines.

Damon breaks free of my embrace and look at me with sadness and compassion.

"Jeremiah took over and you jumped out the window, shifted mid-air and no one have heard from you in hours. It's 4 am, Nate." He sighs. I look down my body and I'm covered in blood. I just don't know whose. My heart starts beating faster. I miss her, I miss her touch and her smile. Why didn't I just talk to her days ago, why the hell did I have to isolate me from her. I hate myself right now.

"Come one, lets get a beer." Damons suggests. He tosses me some shorts and drag me down the corridor and down to the kitchen. He opens the fridge and takes out a cold beer. I take a sip, the coldness feels good. My hands is trembling.

"I can't believe I lost her." I whisper. Damon don't say a word, he only observes me.

After a beer and then another one, we call it a night. I walk to my room and take a shower to erase all the blood from my body. I lie down on my bed, and look up in the ceiling, trying to sleep but I can't. All I can think about is her. I close my eyes and all I see is her. I keep my eyes shut and at some point I fell asleep.

I dream about her. Her long, curly hair is braided down her body. Her beautiful, navy eyes looks at me with admiration. She's a bit older, maybe a year or two, her face has changed a little. We are in a garden, I walk over to her and embrace her. She looks at something in the forest and I follow her eyes. Two, small toddlers run around in the edge of the forest. It's twins, a boy and a girl. The boy looks just like me with his black, curly hair and the girl. Wow, she looks just like Lea. She has the same eyes and the same brown, curly hair. This doesn't feel like a dream, it feels real. She looks at me and squeals. She runs over to me and jump up in my arms, I hold her tight, she smells like Lea, like home.