my thoughts

what I think how love is suppose to be

See the thing about love is you can't stop the feelings you have for them no matter what they say. they can say I just want to be friends.the feelings you have for him or her will always be in your heart and every time you look at her or him you die inside because you was to scared to be a man instead you wanted to be a kid and party and do drugs.he did the right thing by letting her go so she can be with a real man. let me tell you don't settle for a person because of there personality or because there sweet and caring. Don't settle for a person for the fear of being single. When you are ready to Settle down for a person ask you're self...

do they make your heart beat faster by the minute when your talking to them on the phone.

do they make you feel like you can tell them everything.

When you look at them do you become speechless. Do you want to drop everything for them just so you can be by there side when they need you the most.

do they make you go damn I'm one lucky man or woman.

Can you see your future with them. Can you see you and your partner growing old together side by side watching the sun go down. Can you go one day or night with out seeing or talking to him or her.

Do you get up every morning and the first thing on your mind is the person you love. will you take a bullet for them. And last but not least if y'all argued about something would you go to bed angry at her or would you hold her close and say im sorry.

My theory is if you think all of these things or do these thing's that's your soulmate don't let him or her go because if you do you will regret it all of your life. Me I just want a man that won't lay his hands on me unless we are making love at night. I want someone that tells me everyday how much I mean to them. I want someone that accepts me for me. I want a man that will drop everything he's doing just to make sure I'm ok. I want someone who will understand what I been through and won't bring it up in my face just because I make them mad. I don't care if they are big or skinny or good looking if I loved you and have you as my man I take you for you not because of your looks but because of the way you treat me, hold me, talk to me. I want someone there for me when I'm down in my dark place, when I cry all night because of ptsd, when I have nightmares and anxiety attacks. I want a man that doesn't just want s*x he wants commitment. that's why I take it slow one day at a time when I'm with someone so I can see if the are lying about who they are. If i feel like something isn't right I do tests to see if I can bring your true colors out. I might fall for you fast and end up hurting myself because I went with what my brain says instead of my heart.