'Why exactly was I feeling the way that I was?' I intoned internally as I continued to pace the room. How was I going to heal from the heartbreak if the only thing that clouded my thoughts was Luke, Luke, Luke?
I was supposed to be thinking about him in this kind of way. I had to find a way to distract myself from him if I actually wanted to heal. I went to the door and locked it, in case Diana had any plans of coming back.
I made my way back to the bed and sat on it, still clutching my phone in my hands. I was holding back hot tears that were making my eyes burn. I intentionally allowed them to cascade down my cheeks and later wiped them away.
"I hate you so much, Luke." Was the only thing I could say, "I hate you so much for making me feel this way. I hate you so damn much." I said and threw my phone onto the bed.
Deep down, I was expecting him to call me and tell me that this was all a prank but I had to quit being delusional.
I reached for my phone and turned it on, I was going to do what I always did whenever I felt depressed; scroll through social media. I went to one of the platforms and tried to scroll through it, but the thoughts of Luke still came swirling through my head.
I grunted in frustration while still scrolling until something caught my attention, it was a post about some kind of invitation to a party, and there was a link below the post. The lady who had posted it looked very familiar and I was starting to recall where I had seen her before. I didn't know why I had clicked the link, but I guess I did that out of curiosity to find out who the woman truly was.
Wherever the link was supposed to take me to took a lot of time to load. It was only seconds since I opened the link, but it felt as if it had been hours. I was about to throw my phone back onto the bed when the page opened.
"Finally!" I said flatly while rolling my eyes into the back of my head. The post was a really long one so I scrolled the part I wanted to see, who was the woman that was getting married. If there was a way I could announce to every woman in different parts of the world that men are not who we think they are, and they're just lying scrums, I would have done that.
"What the hell?!" I exclaimed, my eyes bulging in disbelief as I stared down at the pictures on the post.
"No, no this can't be." I blurted out and got from the chair. "This can't be happening!"
Now I know where I had recognized the woman from, I had found pictures of her in Luke's phone when our marriage was still a bed of roses, and when I had confronted him about it, he only told me that she was his ex and the pictures had been taken years back when they were still in a relationship and they have nothing to with each other anymore.
I believed him then, but I was too blind and stupid at the same time to figure out if he was lying to me or not which he clearly was.
And now here he was, getting married to the woman he had claimed to his ex, the same person he had told me that he had nothing to do with anymore.
For a moment, I was stunned as I continued to stare down at the pictures, I didn't know whether to look away or to continue looking and allow the pieces of the puzzle to come together.
Forcefully, I closed my eyes and pulled the phone away from my face, and turned it off. "I hate you so much, Luke," I said and another round of tears started to stream down my cheeks.
"And I'm so going to make you pay for every pain you've caused me and for every dime you took from me," I swore.
From the look of the pre wedding photos, it seemed the wedding was going to be an elaborate one, and knew that Luke had no money to sponsor the wedding, he had just started his new job I had gotten for him barely a month before the divorce and I knew fully well that the wedding was being sponsored a greater percentage with my own money.
That bloody snake, I'm so going to ruin his wedding, I turned my phone back on and took down the date of the wedding with a smile on my face, Luke thought he could use me and divorce me as it pleased him but I was going to show him that I was not one to be messed with.
I was going to attend his wedding as a normal guest. I smiled at the real reason I was going there, I had just the perfect person in mind to execute the plan and I had to get prepared immediately. I stopped sulking immediately and walked into the bathroom to take my bath.
If Luke thought that he could ruin my happiness without fearing the repercussions, I was going to prove to him on the day of his wedding that he was dead wrong for thinking in that direction.