Chapter 15
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''Dad, I can't get it off right?'' I asked while staring at my brand and having a glass of blood.
''You mother and I never found a way. We were going to see one of the most powerful witches there is, but she disappeared before we could go'' he said looking at the swirls in his drink.
''So, that means there is still a chance?'' I asked hopeful like a light bulb had just come on when I was stuck in a dark tunnel. Maybe now, I could find my way.
He looked at me and I could tell he was thinking the same thing but I could also sense that he had been through a lot and he didn't feel like hope existed and I understood that, he did not want to be disappointed.
"Yeah sweetie, there is still a chance. I will have to set up an appointment though, so we will leave tomorrow. Are you going to spend the night here, I think it is safer'' he said with comfort and concern.
''Dad, it is better if I go back home. June will be worried and your place may have more protection but the person who did this to me will probably expect me to stay here and I'll be vulnerable.'' I said arguing because I didn't want to stay here.
''They broke into your home, you can't say that it is safe'' he replied firmly but that didn't stop me from replying,
''Neither is this place. I know that where I stay is not safe but it is safer than here'' I said. I didn't want to stay here.
''You have to'' he said sitting down like that was the end of the conversation but it wasn't for me.
''Dad, you can't force me to stay here. Whenever I'm here I feel trapped. You and Maia are the only reasons I come here, it is because I love you both. I only sleep over to make you guys happy. This building only reminds me that I am a vampire and that I am stuck this way. This building is just a reminder that vampirism has no cure. Being a vampire took away a fun childhood from me. You tried to make me feel better as my dad, but hanging out with you is not the same as hanging out with people my age. I never knew what that felt like that because I had to control my urges. I had to deal with the fact that whenever I was around a kid my age, I had to hear their heart beat I had to be attracted to their veins. I wanted to rip their neck apart and feed on them. I felt guilty about it and I couldn't have friends. People admire me because I am popular but I admire the nerds or even the less popular people because they get to live a truly normal life. I can't stay feeling trapped in this house, escpecially if I am going to die. I can't. I'm sorry if I hurt you by what I'm saying but it is the truth. I love you but I don't need a reminder. My hunger and need for blood reminds me, my lack of friends reminds me, the fact that our lives are always at risk reminds me and I don't need something as permanent as this building made out of stone to remind me of it as well. I can't live here dad, I can't even sleep here without feeling insecure and afraid. I know you had to lead the vampires and prevent an apocolypse but I don't have to and even if I do...not now, I am not ready. The people here don't show me love and you don't always have time for me, I love the people here but I cannot live in something that makes me afraid, that gives me nightmares, that makes me feel bad about myself and reminds me of the monster I am, the monster I supress, the monster that I hide so that I don't become and even bigger monster. I have demons dad, and staying with more demons is just going to make it worse. To slay my demons, I have to be somewhere where it makes me feel the opposite. Somewhere I feel safe, happy, normal or even extraordinary in a good way. That place isn't here, it has to be where I feel I belong.'' I say with passion and tears brimming in my eyes. It was the truth, this place was a nightmare and if I was going to die, I want to die and I want it to be in a place that I know I was happy in. My dad had to accept it. My eyes burned with the tears that were about to fall, my chest rose up and fell with passion and I felt a tingling in my body from the passion I had telling him that. I looked at my dad, expecting him to have something to say, a remark or at least a reason that I should stay. I saw him look at me and his eyes were filled with love. I could see the glassy expression in his eyes that told me he had tears in them. I felt loved, I always knew he loved me but we were not always raw with each other. He dropped his drink on the table and rose up. He walked towards me and smiled which was not what I expected but it was comforting. He held my hand and spoke in a sweet and tender voice to me,
''You know I love you right and that I always will?''
''I know dad'' I whispered looking down but he used his finger to lift my chin up while still holding my hands so that our eyes met. A tear had rolled down his cheek and that made me feel so soft and happy in a way. He loved me and I had no reason to doubt it. Tears rolled down both my cheeks as I stared into his mesmerizing hazel colored eyes that reminded me a fall.
''Then you should understand that you are my number one priority. You are my daughter and I am a fathere before I am king. If you ever need me you can talk to me. If you ever want to go any where with me, tell me. If you ever feel alone and that you need some company then tell me. Do you understand?'' he asked and I could hear the sincerity and love in his voice.
''I understand dad'' I said starting to smile
''I understand that you didn't want to tell me before because you thought you would hurt my feelings or because you felt that I wouldn't understand you. I am happy that you told me what you felt. I needed to hear every single detail and next time, can you be more open with me?'' he asked me.
''Of course dad. Thanks'' I said and hugged him. He put his arms around me and then whispered,
''No need to thank me, it is my job and it is one of the best in the world, to be your dad. We have a lot of hugs today which makes me feel like a teddy bear but I like it.''
I giggled and then commented, "You are my teddy''
And then we both burst out laughing in our position of embrace.
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