The Vampires Pet

Chapter 8: Admitting you need help

I woke up to the smell of cooked food and noticed Amdis was gone. Sitting up, I yawned when I heard him call up to me. “Miss Hansley, your breakfast is ready!”

“Ok!” I called back.

I pulled on simple black leggings and chose a baby blue t-shirt, he had already seen my scars, so it didn’t matter now.

I headed down the stairs and wondered if I was wrong, he looked at my scars, but he kept his face perfectly cold and blank, I couldn’t tell what he was thinking. I sat down at the table and started eating when my left wrist started hurting, I was left handed and using the fork was making it act up, Zedric had broken it twice and every so often I’d get these painful spasms? Aching joints? I didn’t know, I just knew it hurt.

I put the fork down and rubbed my wrist. Amdis noticed and asked, “what’s wrong with your wrist?”

“Oh, it just hurts sometimes, Zedric broke it a few times and every so often it acts up.”

He looked at me with concern and coming over he gently stroked my hair. “I am sorry you had to experience the very worst of a vampire.”

“It’s not your fault, I’ll be ok.” I proved that wasn’t true when the postman posted something through the letterbox. I jumped so hard I almost fell out of my chair.

“Please, will you get yourself some help?” Amdis asked.

I shook my head, and he growled under his breath in frustration. He took a breath before he could calmly look at me and said, “you need more shopping, get ready, and we will go.”

I got up and went to get ready. I hadn’t bothered to make a single effort since I’d been back, but I decided I would today, I tried to tell myself I wanted to make myself feel good, but really I just wanted to try and look pretty for Amdis. He had gotten me new clothes too, to fit my new skinny frame, I had been on the heavier side before I’d been taken, but now I was as slim and delicate as a doll, it was strange to me.

I wondered if a subconscious part of me knew I’d want to look nice for Amdis at some point because I found a red dress I had chosen. It was very low cut and made my b.reasts look amazing, but the scars were noticeable too, the dress stopped just before my knees and I pulled on black tights to hide the scars on my legs. I had always been really good at makeup, I had enjoyed spending hours applying it and trying new things, learning new things, and I was pretty sure I had the right makeup to hide my scars on my chest and neck.

They were barely visible by the time I was done. I worked on my face next, I applied a foundation I had found that was perfect for my skin, it hid every blemish and gave an airbrushed look, expensive but worth it. I did my contour, mascara, eyeliner to give a cat eye to my more doe eyed shaped eyes, I kept my eyeshadow a light dusky pink shade and applied some dark red lipstick.

My hair was thick, and I had mostly kept it tied in a low ponytail, today I let my hair free, it was thick and black with golden brown and honey blonde tones running through it, it had grown to my waist and I decided to leave it down today. Looking in the mirror, I looked really good, I think, my makeup was perfect and my hair anyway, but I had no idea what Amdis thought beautiful was.

I was used to looking plain and scruffy and right now, I looked so done up I felt overdone, maybe I was, I was debating taking all the makeup off when Amdis knocked on the door. “Are you ready?”

“Uh, I’m not sure, I might change clothes or maybe take my makeup off.”

He opened the bedroom door and looked down at me where I was sat at my dresser. He rose an eyebrow and trailed his gaze over me. “Why would you change? You look breathtakingly beautiful, miss Hansley.”

I smiled at him, but it would have sounded so much better and more genuine if he had used my first name, calling me miss Hansley just made it sound like some polite compliment he had to give to make me feel better.

I got up and heading downstairs I tried putting on some flat shoes I had, but it hurt my feet, all the scarring and damage from the glass caused my feet pain, so I had to put on my shoe trainers instead.

Amdis had some of his own clothes here seeing as he was basically living with me right now, and he was dressed so normal and casual no one would be able to tell he was a vampire unless he showed them his fangs, he would never pass for human as he was too beautiful and perfect looking, but people would be wondering what kind of supernatural he is. Like I mentioned before, he didn’t dress like the typical vampire, the closest I’d seen was when he wore the leather trousers and his black trench coat, but today he was wearing jeans tucked into black ankle combat boots, and he wore an olive green muscle fit t-shirt that showed off all his lovely perfect muscular body, but he pulled on a navy-blue hoodie, it still showed off that he was in good shape, but it was more loose than the t-shirt, so it wasn’t as obvious just how well built he was.

“You dress very casual for a vampire,” I said.

“We are going shopping, I prefer to dress down as much as I can to go by more unnoticed.”

“I don’t think you’d ever go by unnoticed,” I laughed.

He rolled his eyes at me and replied, “as unnoticed as I can be then, come on.”

He opened the door and walked towards his car. He opened the passenger side door for me and I sat down, he closed it and made his way to the driver’s side.

It was cloudy and dark, but it wasn’t raining yet, when we reached the supermarket, Amdis parked up in their car park, and then we grabbed a trolley and went inside. I had butterflies in my tummy as we walked around together, it was stupid, but I couldn’t help feel like we were a couple right now, people probably thought we were, and I loved that, I wished it could be true, but I knew it never would be after what he had told me about never wanting to fall in love or settle down, still, I had fun roleplaying it in my head.

Every single female in the whole damn place stared at him, he was beautiful why wouldn’t they, even some men did too. The females gave me dirty looks like they hated me and couldn’t understand why he would choose to be with me. I kept looking down at my chest every so often, I was paranoid the makeup would wear off and someone would notice the scars, but it looked good.

I followed Amdis around the shop choosing out bread, cereal, milk, the usual things people shopped for. I kept getting distracted by the more childish things like sweets and cakes, and then we walked by a toy section and I noticed this really cute fluffy bunny, I went over to it while Amdis was looking in the cold section for meats.

I picked the fluffy teddy up and stroked it, it was so soft, I wanted it so bad, but I had no money, it was beyond generous of Amdis to be taking care of me with his own money, he didn’t have to, but then again, he wouldn’t allow me to find work either, he didn’t think I was ready yet, and he also didn’t like the idea of me being alone at work without him.

I was still holding it when I heard his voice directly behind me. “Don’t wonder off like that, you need to stay by my side at all times.”

I jumped hard and quickly threw the bunny back on the shelf. “Sorry!” I walked off quickly, super embarrassed that he had caught me looking in the kids section.

“Miss Hansley don’t rush off again!” He called out, sounding annoyed. I slowed down and really hoped he couldn’t feel my feelings through our bond, I didn’t like him calling me by my last name and I saw one or two women smile with relief when they heard him, it confirmed to them we were not a couple after all. He caught up to me, and we carried on with the shopping, but I wasn’t having as much fun with it now.

When we got to the till, we put the shopping up ready to be scanned, but I was surprised when I saw the fluffy bunny up there with the rest of the shopping. Frowning in confusion, I looked at Amdis. “I swear I put that back.”

“You wanted it, right?”

“Yes but—”

“Then it is yours.” He interrupted, matter of factly.

“Thank you,” I mumbled.

I couldn’t help feeling guilty, and he must have heard it in my voice because he said, “you are welcome, you are allowed to want things.” He passed me the bunny, I did get some funny looks, but screw it, I’d been through worse than people giving me judging looks, and so I hugged the bunny. The cashier lady tried to flirt with Amdis but it went badly, she tried sounding sincere when she asked, “are you her carer?”

He frowned at her and asked, “why would you think that?”

“Oh, well, I just assumed you bought her the teddy because she has the mental age of a child.”

His voice grew ice cold when he replied, “then might I suggest you do not just assume things in future, is there a certain age one must stop enjoying their comforts?”

The lady was blushing hotly as she scanned the rest of the shopping, I was cringing for her, Amdis definitely didn’t seem to care, he paid her and then we left.

Maybe it was stupid of me to still like teddies, I felt ashamed and was trying not to cry as we walked out, did I really think I could hope for Amdis to ever be attracted to me when I acted like a big kid at the age of twenty seven?

Amdis never missed anything, and he noticed I was struggling. He touched my shoulder and said, “do not let the words of others get you down miss Hansley, you have every right to enjoy what you enjoy.”

“Stop calling me miss Hansley,” I sulked.

“I told you—”

“Yes, I know you like to keep it professional, but I hate it!” I snapped and walked away and got into the car, slamming the door. I started crying, and I wasn’t even sure why, I wasn’t sure why I snapped at him either, ok, maybe I did, I had ever growing feelings for him and I hated hearing him use my last name in such a formal way, like I was nothing but a client to him, it was silly of me, I was his client after all, but I thought perhaps a friendship could grow between us at the very least, I thought being his pet now might make us a little less formal with one another.

He put the shopping into the car and I quickly tried wiping my face before he got into the driver’s seat. Of course, he noticed I had been crying. His gaze traveled over my face and I turned my head trying to hide my tears, he gently cupped my chin and made me look at him. In a somewhat soft voice, he said, “I am sorry I made you cry, if it bothers you that much then I shall call you Rochelle from now on.”

When I didn’t answer, he said, “ok?”

I nodded sniffling, and he gently stroked a strand of my curly hair away from my face before sitting back against his seat and starting the engine.

Before we went home, he parked up at a petrol station to get more petrol. He made me go in the shop with him and I followed meekly behind him. The sound of people laughing and talking made me jump, it was nearing evening now and was really dark, it was the start of winter and the wind had picked up, whipping my curls around my face.

Someone came running up behind me and slapped my butt playfully. “Jessica!” The girl laughed. I spun to face the young blonde girl and fell away from her in terror, I landed on my backside hard and scuttled away from her.

“Oh my God, I’m so sorry I thought you were my friend, I’m really sorry,” the girl both laughed nervously and tried to help me up, but I screamed when she touched my shoulder, she jumped back in shock and Amdis came out of the shop and found me on the floor. Standing in front of me protectively he said, “leave her alone, I appreciate you trying to help her, but she doesn’t like to be touched by anyone, I will take care of her.”

The girl nodded, looking at him wide eyed and then at me like I was a crazy person.

She quickly walked away from us and Amdis bent down in front of me. I was shaking and rocking myself back and forth mumbling it would be alright to myself over and over again, it was what I always did before Zedric had his females play with me.

Amdis spoke softly to me, “Rochelle, shall we go home?”

I didn’t answer and he very slowly and gently took my hand in his, my hand was shaking uncontrollably, and he placed his other hand on top of it. “Rochelle, my dear, you are safe.”

I felt a warm feeling of safety and love wash over me and I came out of my trance and looked at Amdis. “Are you using the bond?” I whispered.

He nodded, “don’t worry, I’m not reading your thoughts or feelings, I’m just sending you my comfort, you are safe with me and I will take care of you, I promise. Are you ready to go home?”

I nodded and taking my other hand he helped me to my feet. “Your hands feel a little cold,” I said.

He gave me a small smile and replied, “yes, I will need to feed soon.”

He guided me back to the car and even put my seatbelt on for me. He drove us home and I helped him unpack and put away all the shopping.

“Will you please seek therapy,” he asked, turning to look at me when he’d put the last of the food away.

Sighing, I nodded, he was right, I did need some help. He looked both surprised and pleased to hear me say that and said, “I will make you an appointment with a good one I know.”

“You have a therapist?” I asked.

He laughed and replied, “no, not for myself, but if my clients need a therapist I send them to her, she is very good at her job.”

I nodded and asked, “will you sleep with me again?”

“Yes.”

He came with me, and like he had for the last few days, he sat beside me while I lay in bed. Like the other night when I felt a night terror coming on, Amdis started to softly stroke my hair waking me gently enough I was able to fall back to sleep peacefully.