How did it come to my mind to break one of the first rules of espionage? Never reveal our identity and never say the mission that is being fulfilled!
I don't know what I was thinking! If I had known about the suffering it would cause I would not have done it, even my wife came to consider leaving me, but strangely the community rabbi stopped her from doing it.
Today all that seems so distant to me, that sometimes I get the feeling that it was someone else's life, how could I have been so wrong? How blind I was then! If I had known what I know now, everything would have been different .
But now, the past does not matter to me, every day seems the same as the previous one, and the previous one, and only when someone comes to pick me up to attend a celebration, is when I remember what date
