It was hard to believe! I would have always thought it would be her who would mourn my loss, had even made life insurance in her name for that situation, and had left everything prepared in the bank so that she never lacked money to live with dignity, and it turns out that ...
Luckily the community helped me with everything, in preparing the farewell ceremony and everything else, I did not want to deal with anything, I just sat next to my wife's armchair, where only a few hours ago she was quietly sitting in it.
Days and weeks passed, and I barely got up from there, only to go to bed and return to the armchair again. Nothing seemed to comfort me in this time of unease. No military training served me at that time, not even those aimed at enduring the pain.
So many things to say, I could
