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What a joke i had become!

What do you mean you cant make it. Alot of things started to cross my mind. "did she cancel because she regretted it or what"i got so gloomy all of a sudden and really wished i could get home soon.

I took the fastest means home, took a shower amd sat at dinner waiting for Ciarah to atleast explain why she cancelled me out.

Three days passed but still no response. I neither saw her at school and even Nina didnt know of her where abouts. I started getting worried.Where was she ? ? I went to her department and caught up with kisha, her deskmate. I asked her of her where abouts and she said, "im not sure but i think i heard her talk to her man yesterday . I thinks shes at Vaynoise Villa"

I slowly turned and walked out tears almost dropping down my cheeks. What was i expecting though. It was bound to happen.I was just dumb and foolish for letting her mess with me. I just felt so bored and worn out. I decided to skip classes and head home. I think i waited to be alone because when i got to my room i couldnt help but cry. I couldnt even control myself anymore. Why did she kiss me that madly if she already had a man.

I ended up sleeping my pain away. The next morning i went to school refreshed aand convinced that i wouldnt care. I attended my classes as usual and went with Nina for lunch . She asked me whether i had spoken to ciarah but i just brushed it off and continued enjoying my meal.

"Hey, over here,, "Nina suddenly shouted.

I turned to look at wwho she was gesturing at only to see my worst nightmare. Ciarah and some tall boy. They walked towards our table in smiles while i barely even managed to take in air. They sat across the table and order there lunch.

"Hey Kai, longtime. "she said to me grabbing my hand for a greeting.

How dare she ! I thought to myself forcing a smile out .

"i know you havent met him, this is Zain, my bf. Weve been together like for 6months now.I hope you two get along. "she said.

I couldnt help but wonder if she truly didnt think that whatever she did hurt me or she purposely did it. I watched her link her arms with him, straighten his hair , kiss his cheeks and even feed me. I felt my blood boil. I even started to think maybe she had a personality disorder because why would she do that to me.

I excused myself with the excuse that i had unfinished assignment and walked out.

I forced my tears back in for i would have felt like a fool for crying because of such an undeserving scumbag . I walked as fast as i could to class and sat on my seat, my head down. Suddenly a rash feelinghit me and i couldnt help but let the tears flow. I thought of every reason she might have had but it all just hurt more thinking about it.

I attended my last class and stood up to go home. Suddenly i saw Ciarah at my windw, "hey kai, can we talk. "

"i really think we have nothing to talk about and im really tired, can we not please . "i said

"just one second. "

I followed her to the stairs where we had our first kiss, our first mistake.

She suddenly grabbed and pulled me for a kiss.

I pushed her back , "wtf are yyou doing? Do you think im a joke. You just told me you had a boyfriend so whats this,? "i yelled

"hey, why are you angry. Hes just my boyfriend but i want you. Why do you even mind. Dont you want me? "she answered

What a joke i had become. I thought to myself. I walked out on her and headed straight home. I really wanted to be home.