Leonor I am all over the place with my emotions, Orion says he understands and will take it at my pace. I know he's made for me; but I can't help that voice in my head. I have mentally schooled myself to be strong, I can't help it with my childhood. Two weeks after my mother had died was the first time my father hurt me, as a five-year-old who couldn't understand why my mummy wasn't here anymore. I watched as my father grew into a monster and after that I very rarely saw anyone unless it was necessary, my father told everyone I couldn't cope with seeing people. The pack saw him as a doting father, but that was so far from the truth. As a child I would pray that the moon goddess would save me, and she would hear my prayers. I guess in a way she did, she gave me Jewel early. Once I became

