If I Loved Him

The Big Reveal

We continued to talked and see each other until one day I recive a call. It was her she was suspicious we had something going on. She said whats going on with my man, I said we were just friends, I got myself into this mess so if I accepted to be with him I had to deny everything. After the whole girlfriend situation, we still saw each other but one day I couldn't take it anymore I told him to leave her and to be with me. I love you I told him, He said he was trying to leave her but she didn't want them to break up and he wanted to be with me. ( I know some of you are saying why would you let it go that far, why would you agree to be the side chick are you that dumb and yes I continued being with him, I felt bad because nobody deserves to get cheated on but I loved him.) 

  Time passed I became distant with Aaron I had another feeling one were I decided to go outside my job and smoke a cigarette, I had a feeling arrons girlfriend was pregnant. I decided to call him and I told him straight up tell me if she's pregnant he said yes, ( that was my breaking point I felt like if I was a glass cup and broke into very tiny pieces, I wanted to leave work and find a place to cry but sucked in my feeling.) Aaron I'm sorry I caint go on like this anymore, thankyou for making me the most happiest girl in the world but this changes everything, you said you were going to break up yet you get her pregnant what happened to me. He didn't have much to say and just responded with " if thats your decision I caint do anything about it I never wanted to hurt you, your special you know how to give it all in a relationship and if I caint be that person I hope someone else can love you the way your supposed to. I hanged up (I felt stupid for putting all my love in the hands of someone who has always been confused if he loved me or her, I felt so hurt because I actually thought he really wanted to be with me. I couldnt blame him I knew he had a girl and I continued to be with him. I finally understood a side chicks point of view they can fall in love, because I was one, She fell in love with all the fake promises , she fell in love and gave it her all, here I was shamming them for separating a relationship.)