If I Loved Him

Good-Bye My Love

  I decided to go on vacation. ( a get away ) I went to go visit my grandparents that live in Florida. I needed to let go of him, I needed to forget him. They moved in together they were a family now. I finally came back home to New Jersey 3 months later, I saw a message from him saying he wanted to see me at least one last time.( maybe his friend told him when I was back ) I agreed we went to the park, I love the swings so he swung me just like the old times. 

  something he told me that I would never forget was " why didn't I meet you sooner, we could have been so happy, now I know its you that I want. With tears in my eyes I told him its to late you have a family now and if you wanted to be with me you shouldn't have got her pregnant. ( I thought maybe blaming him wouldn't make me feel so sad, maybe blaming him for the reason why I would never be able to be with him again would make me feel alittle better, but it didnt It hurt so bad to not see him or talk to him again. Dispite this whole situation he was also a friend. I would always tell him my problems and he some how always knew the right words to say.) 

  We left the park because he had to go to work. We said bye and I gave him a huge tight hug and he kissed my head and I left. I turned around and he was their still standing just looking at me. Some how we both ran to each other he carried me and kissed me one last time with tears in ower eyes we knew this was the last time this was really ower last time. I told him I didn't want to let him go but it was best for the both of us. He told me that this wasn't a goodbye maybe one day destiny would reunite us. If I knew that was going to be the last time I saw him I would have hugged him more longer. If I only had that moment to tell you how much I love you I would tell you I love you and I would never forget you.

                          Good-Bye my love.....