If I Loved Him

The Big Secret

  We both had off the same day it was a Wednesday we decided to finally see each other again, he said he was going to take me somewhere, I decided to call a cab to meet him were he had in mind because I was running late getting ready took to much time. ( preparing myself if just in case it was about to go down.) I meet him at a deli store he went for some beers and I told him if we were almost their he told me yes ( not wanting to tell him where are we going to go.) Were here he said it was a hotel.

Ower room was on the second floor we got inside the room, Their was a table and two chairs. So he sits down and says "don't put to much mind were we are I just wanted to get to know you more and I wanted to talk in private and nothing is going to happen if you don't want it to happen". ( oh I WANT IT TO HAPPEN i told myself ) I say oh yeah dont worry about it its ok I want to get to know you better also, so we talked,  laughed and I dont know what happened but I think he wanted to kiss me and all he said was I dont know what you did to me but I have strong feelings towards you, I told him omg I feel the same way for you. And he tells me theirs something you need to know ( thats it that was my feeling, tha'ts what I was so afraid of, I felt that same shiver I felt at my job.) He said I have a girlfriend.......

I told him I knew someone cute like you wasn't going to be single and silly me told him that I didn't care I wanted  to be with him. ( thats were it happened I gave myself to him because I wanted to, he never forced me, I felt like I needed him and wanted to know how it felt to finally kiss him, hold him, and its not what you saw in movies we made love, not ruff no he was gentle kissing my lips then my neck and he said it he said I really like you. ( Kinda preferred an I love you but that will do.) It was time to finally head home he called me a cab and kissed me good bye. From the car window I saw him turn on his phone (do you really want to be the side girl, if he does this to his girlfriend what the hell is he going to do to you, I told myself yes I just didn't give my body to someone and just walkout like nothing, im not that kind of person if  I did it with someone I want to be with that person or at least see what happens next.