Back To You

Chapter 6: Last

2 weeks after the wedding

~Alexandra

It's been two weeks after the incident. We're still in the hospital. My mom is getting frail and her hair is starting to fall one by one. She'll wake up for only 30 minutes and will turn to sleeping again for how many hours.

I still can't believe that she's sick and that the doctor says she doesn't have much longer to stay. I asked my mom when she woke up the second day we're here.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

She smiled faintly and captured my hand with her both hands.

"I just knew about it last month. It was a busy month for you cause you've been preparing for the...... for the wedding. I don't wanna ruin your happiness so I kept it. I'm sorry Alex...but I just wanna see you happy even to my last days here in this world.... but I think I just made it worst." I cried silently as well as my mom. I hugged her and told her how truly sorry I am.

"I'm so sorry mom. I forgot you these past few months because of this wedding. I should have...I should have seen the signs if only I've given you at least a little attention. I just don't want you to leave me mom. I don't know what I'll do without you. Please mom."

My mom's hand dried my tears and kissed my cheeks. "Stop crying" she said.

But every night I kept crying

Crying for my mom's situation and crying for my lost love.

Drake's parents have been coming to the hospital since then. His brother and sister also came but I never talked to them. I don't know what to say to them, I wanna lashed out at them and make them feel what I'm feeling but I cant.

It's been two weeks, but still no Drake. He never came back and I think he'll never come back. He never called to explain, even his parents can't reach him. His phone was turned off since the wedding day that it's hard to be traced. Even though I don't talk to his family, they still told me the updates about him. And every time I heard them saying that they can't still find him,I ask myself.

Did he know that I'm hurting? I thought he doesn't want me to feel pain anymore since my father's death?

I hate him. I hate Drake. I wanted to yell at him and that all these things are his fault. But I cant. Just like what he said in the letter. I can't... because it's not his fault. But maybe it's mine.

I was taken away from my thoughts when I heard the beeping sound in the machine attached to my mom. I run to her side along with the doctor and nurses who might have heard the emergency sound.

"Miss please stay at the side so we can check up on her." a nurse said and helped me stand on the side.

"Mom. Mom.......Mom. Mom. Please don't go"

I kept chanting as they tend to my mom.

I took a deep breath when the beeping is back to normal. The doctor came to me and said.

"I think this is it. Her body wants to give up, Alex. Just stay with her side and be strong."

He squeezed my shoulder before he went outside the room. I went to the bed where my Mom is and held her hand. I saw her awake and smiling at me. My tears can't stop falling and I just cried loudly on her side. She just rubbed my back and shush me.

"No matter what happens and no matter where I am, I'll still love you. Me and your father will always be by your side. Just stay strong, hon. They say that there's always a rainbow after the rain. Face the world with your head held high... but also learn to forgive and forget. Start anew. Okay? I love you so much Alex. You're the best thing that came into our lives. Take care and don't fill your heart with hatred."

And that was the last thing my mom said to me. The day after that she didn't wake up. I tried to shake her, I even yelled at her but to no avail. She still didn't wake up.......

and she never will.

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