Canadian heartbreak (The stars book 1)

10: First kiss and Tyler snaps

 *Zayn*

 I groan as I wake to a pounding head and a tongue tasting like I have sucked on an old gym sock. What the hell did I drink last night ? Something with tequila in it I think. Blinking my eyes open and groaning again.

 Sitting up I grab my head. Holy s**t, I hadn't even felt drunk. But then.. what.. oh yeah Tyler proposed or kind of and I pulled her up to sing our song and.. oh f**k you bloody i***t, way to ruin everything. I even told Tyler how stupid he was to propose publicly, I know how uncomfortable things like that makes her and then I practically ups him one notch, declaring my love in front of everyone.. gosh she must hate me now.

 I drag myself out of bed, taking a shower and throwing on some clothes. Good thing I only have a short meeting and an appointment to have my hair done on set today and that isn’t before after lunch.

 It takes all my energy moving myself downstairs, scared of what I will find. Kicking myself mentally, wondering if I can kick myself physically, because I deserve it. I definitely blew it and it only makes it worse that I might have had a fair chance if I hadn't let my fear get the best of me. I panicked, thinking she might accept the proposal, thinking she needed to be sure of my feelings before deciding.

 Scuddling into the kitchen, I am relieved to see only Kitty there. At least I don't have to deal with Tyler just yet. "Morning Kitty.. I ..I hope you slept well ?"

 "Not really". She is focused on flipping pancakes. "There is aspirin on the top shelf in the third cabinet if you need it". 

 I open the cabinet and quickly down a couple of pills. She looks tense. Wearing fitted sweatpants and a hoodie, her hair in a messy bun. I take a deep breath. "I am so sorry Kitty. I totally messed up. I let my fear get the best of me".

 "You know the worst thing, Zayn ?" She turns around looking at me and I try to shrink through the floor. "I had actually made my decision.. I wanted to follow my heart, to give us a chance and then you pulled that stunt on me".

 The floor is definitely spinning. s**t I really blew it. I hang my head in defeat. "I am so sorry Kitty. I am going to go and pack my things and get a hotel room. I am so sorry for being such an ass".

 *Persephone*

 "Zayn !" I call out his name softly. And he turns to look at me. His eyes blurry. There is no doubt he regrets what he did. I walk slowly towards him. "You f****d up and I am annoyed with you, but I don't want you to leave".

 "You don't ?" He asks, looking at me like he doesn't believe it. "Are you sure it's a good idea ? Tyler already hated me being here, now it will be even worse. Maybe I better leave".

 I step up to him, grabbing the front of his T-shirt. "Zayn, I told you I had decided to follow my heart. My heart belongs to you. If you still want it".

 "You.. you forgive me ?" He asks looking utterly confused, making me nod. "Have you told Tyler about this yet ?"

 I shake my head. "No, he is still sleeping. It won't be easy and I fear he will get very angry. But I realised that I am not in love with him anymore. I held onto the memory and the idea of being a family".

 "Is Athena sleeping too ? I don't want her to hear her father yell or see things she shouldn't". He says and it warms my heart how he worries about her.

 I send him a soft smile. "No need to worry Zayn, she is with April. I knew that things could get heated, so I went over to April, asking if she could take her for the day".

 "Smart". He says. And then he seems to realise that I still have a hold on his shirt, standing as close as I can get to him. "So what now Kitty ?"

 "Well, now is when you finally kiss me". I say with a small smirk, and I don't need to say that twice, his lips finding mine. It is everything I ever dreamt it would be and so much more. His lips are soft and warm, he has a heavy stubble that is slightly scratching my cheek. He tastes sweet. And he makes the most adorable little sound, like a humming deep in his chest.

 And I give in, surrendering, body, heart and soul. Every bit of doubt swept away. This.. in his arms, with his lips on mine, is where I belong. I just have to deal with the fall out from my choice.

 I n****e on his soft bottom lip, hearing him moan. Opening his mouth slightly and I push my tongue inside. His instantly greeting it like an old friend. Twirling around mine, caressing it.

 When we finally break apart I am totally breathless. I can't remember when a kiss felt like that with Tyler to be honest, maybe it never did. 

 "I can't believe that finally happened". Zayn says softly, running his nose along my cheek. "And that it felt even more wonderful than I ever imagined".

 I giggle and lift my hand to run my thumb over his lips, making him kiss the tip of my finger. "It really was amazing".

 "Oh I bet it was". I hear Tyler's voice behind us. He is looking absolutely livid and I feel bad for doing it like this. "I knew you two were fooling around behind my back".

 I put a hand on Zayn's chest. "You better give us a bit of time alone. We have some things we need to talk through".

 "Are you sure Kitty ?" Zayn glances at Tyler, he is clearly nervous about how Tyler will react. I nod and he caresses my cheek softly. "If you need me just call and I will be here in a flash".

 Zayn walks out, but I can see he hates leaving me with Tyler. I look at Tyler when we are alone. "I am sorry, you weren't supposed to find out like this. I am sorry Tyler. I still love you, but we have grown apart. I am not in love with you anymore".

 "You are nothing but a cheap w***e". He hisses in a low voice. I have never seen Tyler this angry. "I knew there was something behind you wanting him here. Turns out you were missing your f**k buddy".

 "Tyler it wasn't like that". I say softly. I don't want him to feel that we planned this in any way. "We didn't mean to.. and nothing has happened. What you saw was literally our first kiss".

 His face is contorted with fury, making him look scary. "Oh like I am going to believe you. You kicked me out of my own bed to make room for him. Making me look like a fool in front of all our friends and me who wanted to marry you".

 "As I said, I am sorry Tyler. But it would never work out. I am not the right one for you and you are not the right one for me". I try my best to calm him. We have a kid together and I hope we can split on good terms.

 Suddenly he steps forward grabbing my throat in an iron grip. "Too bad you can't call for him now, you knight in shining armour".

 No, I can't yell for Zayn, I can't even breathe and I desperately pull at Tyler's hand. I can't believe he is doing this. He has never physically hurt me and I didn't think he was the type, apparently I was wrong, very wrong.

 "Too bad he can't see me squeeze the life out of you, knowing it is all his fault". He is spitting the words in my face and I am scared now, really scared.

 I can literally feel the life seeping out of me and all I can think of is Athena and Zayn, wondering if I will ever see them again.