Naalimpungatan ako nang dahan-dahang inaalis ni Oliver ang pagkakatanday ng isa niyang binti sa mga paa ko at pagtanggal niya sa kanyang kamay na nakayakap sa akin at nakasapo sa isa kong dibdib. Nasanay na talaga ako sa pagiging tactile niya. Dati, his fixation to touching me everywhere when we sleep made me uncomfortable. Ngayon, hinahanap-hanap ko na. I can’t be beside him these days and not have him touch me. Lalo na ngayong nabibilang na lang ang mga araw that I can indulge in his touch.
We are not going to think about that, mariing sabi ng utak ko. I’m in denial but I deserve this respite, don’t I? I reined in my errant mind to think about just the here and the now. From now on, I’m going to take each day as it comes.
I continued pretending to sleep habang pinapakiramdaman ko ang m
