IF YOU TELL ANYONE

Only a teen

I couldn't bare it anylonger.My heart was exploding.I needed to get out of there immediately,go into my room,lock the door, huddle in the corner and cry my sorrows out.It had became my norm.I seeked solace in my tears."Please excuse me."I eased my self off the table, slowly lest I knock myself down.All this while she was looking at me.Her well manicured long nails curled around the glass of red wine."Barrister...She suddenly looked pale,will she be alright?."Concerned Angie asked.I hurriedly went to my room,n started crying.It felt like knives were pierced through my heart.I felt stupid.Angie was the plan.I'd been planning that ever since I heard she would come.I had promised myself to spill the beens,tell her what barrister has been doing to me,but I couldn't.I was to endure it all over again.Its not as if I was enjoying it,but it felt as if my tongue had been plucked out to render me mute.I felt the magnitude of my loneliness.The hollowness of my heart.IThough life was a gift from God and I was supposed to cherish it...I hated it.I had prayed so much that i had lost hope on the way .I felt as if in the middle of my battles God had abandoned me.That pain was too much to handle.I was bitter.I never knew happiness.Nobody was there to shower me with love.It actually felt,as if I had built my own castle in hell.No friend,only me to endure the pain.I was too young to go through all that.Too weak.I was only 15.A teen.