Alexzander

Voices

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"I can't believe this, he killed my mother. His wife who he was suppose to love forever right? Then I found out he is not my real father he killed him also!?" I said to myself as I hugged My knees under my chin, my hair was covering my face like a sun hat. My thought ran rapid within my head, I could hear voices in the back of my mind. I guess I am going crazy now, finally finding out the truth to what really happened and how it took place and why it came to how it is now. I felt hot tears ran down my redden cheeks, I heard the door opening. My skin started to crawl with goosebumps, my breath became quicker. My heart pounded in my ear drums, I started to shake with fear. Because I knew who it was, it was the man who kidnapped me. Who made me watch part of the show of Logan's death. His dark hazel green orbs found mine, his eyes soften once they saw what state I was in, my hands went up to my head. I can't take these voices in my mind anymore. All the voices are yelling at me, making me want to cry out in pain! "DO IT, DO IT, DO IT,!" They kept saying over and over again. I finally screamed out the words. "DO f*****g WHAT? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME! STOP IT, STOP IT, STOP IT, PLEASE JUST STOP!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, Alexzander stood frozen in the door way, his eyes widen with fear. I saw his mouth moving, but I didn't hear any words coming from his lips. I lightly said in my horash voice. "I cant hear you." After my words left my mouth, I calmly got off the bed and made my way to the bathroom. I tried to shut the door but he stopped it with his large hand, his mouth kept opening and closing, yet I still couldn't hear a damn thing he was saying to me. All I could hear are the voices that plagued In my head.

"KILL YOURSELF, YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. NO MORE WORRIES or PAIN. DO IT, DO IT. DO IT FOR us SKYLA." The voices said. I slightly spoke. " You're right, I won't feel no more pain. I'll do it." I spoke lowly.

I felt someone grab my hand, I followed the tattooed hand up the persons arm and saw his beautiful face. I finally heard his voice, the deep worry laced within his honey silk voice.

"Do what Skyla?, Who are you talking to. What are the voices telling you to do, talk to me please!" He said with a worried expression. I lightly chuckled to myself and spoke back to him.

"Silly, don't you remember Logan wished me to be dead? You,Logan and half of the world has caused me pain. I can't take it anymore, I need a way out. You won't let me go free, so the voices said I can leave another way. They said they're be no more pain, no more heartache no more shattered pieces of my soul." I said with a broken voice, as tears poured down my face. He didn't noticed the razor I had in my hand, that I grabbed off of the sink before he gripped my arm. I slowly popped one of the blades out of the socket that was holding it in, his orbs followed my hand moments and they widen with fear and anger. I could see guilt playing in his eyes, do I really want to do this?" I thought.

"YES, YOU WILL SEE YOU'RE MOTHER."

the voices spoke in my head once more. I snatched my arm out of his grip and moved back from him, he took a step forward and I took another back. He opened his mouth to speak, but I didn't give him a chance to say a f*****g word. I can't take this, I can't stay here and be held captive in this godforsaken house. "Rex please." I spoke softly trying to make him understand, or maybe it wasn't him it was me? I thought.

"YOU MUST BE OUT OF YOUR GODFORSAKEN DAMN MIND IF YOU THINK I am GOING TO WATCH YOU KILL YOURSELF SKYLA, NO. HELL f*****g NO, I LOVE YOU SKYLA, AND I am SO SO VERY SORRY-" I heard his words and they made me want to put down the blade, before he could finish. I did it, I slit my left wrist in front of him. His eyes went wide and I fell onto my knees crying at what I have just done, at what I really truly didn't want to do. Why, why did I just do it. I heard Alexzander curse loudly and called the doctor and yelled for Max as well. I felt his large hands around my waist, the smell of blood on his shirt filled my nose. I felt cold, I started to shake and I knew I was losing to much blood. "SKYLA, DONT CLOSE YOUR EYES. PLEASE BABY KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN." As Alexzander yelled as he ran down the hall and through a door, I felt my eyes closing on their own. His words dying out of my head,

"Sky-" then everything went blank, I couldn't move, but I felt my body being moved. I heard other people's voices around me and noticed it was Max, Rex and I think Draven?

"I What to know!" I heard Draven ask with pain in his voice.

"i just walked into my room and saw she was hugging herself, next thing I know she screamed at the voices to stop playing in her mind. Then she just walked to the bathroom and I didn't even see the razor she picked up, I didn't even know man. But I gripped her arm and asked her what she was talking about. Next thing that I know, this all happened so fast, but she slit her wrist because of Logan and us." I heard Rex spoke, a deep pain hit me in the heart.

"The doctor just came back and told me, that she will be fine. But is in a coma. He doesn't know how long she be in for? Could be 2 weeks or 2 years. He said from the PTSD from her step father and all of us has made her psyche crumble down, she has had a total mental break down and all we can do now is just play the waiting game." Draven spoke lightly before exiting the room. Im in a coma? I thought to myself.

"Are you happy now brother, you got what you f*****g wanted now, tell me how it feels huh?" I heard Max yell In anger. It made my heart pound faster in my chest, and I heard the heart monitor going off. They both gasp. I heard there foot steps getting closer to my bed.

"I never wanted this Max, I never wanted to hurt her. Yes I may have said I did but, I would have never made her fully watch that brother, and Skyla my love. Please come back to me, I am sorry for what I have done to you. Please, please just wake up and I can promise you the world." He spoke with a deep voice, which has gotten me to wonder. How long have I truly been out? I thought, I guess he thought the same as me since he answered that question.

"You've been out for almost a month." He spoke with such sorrow I felt my heart pounding even harder and faster then before.

"Skyla do not be afraid, we are here with you. I got you little sister, please just come back to us. I know you can hear Rex and I talking to you, so I know there is hope so I, and Rex won't give up, so you can't give up okay?" Max said as he placed a kiss on my forehead and walked out of the room, but not before speaking to Rex.

"Brother or not. Alexzander, I will kill you next time if you ever break her like this again. Next time I'll become your worst fear that you have drilled into our men and myself. If you ever break her again Alex I'll take her from you and make her mine so you can no longer hurt her, brother, even if she is a sister to me. I'll make sure she'd be mine if you ever and I mean this Lex. This is your last chance to change for her."

I was dumbfounded at Max's words and so was Rex. I heard him take a deep breath before speaking to Max.

"If that day ever comes, which it won't by the way. But if it does, I'll be ready to fight for her and lay down my own life for her mental health. I would accept death like a gift just for Skyla, brother, but I will not and I don't ever let that happen, you will not have her if I f**k up again. She will never choose you Maxwell, because she loves me and not you brother, I will ruin her body so it will only know my touch, she will crave only my touch. She will know, no other man's touch on her perfect curvy body." He spoke before kissing my lips. I heard Max laugh and spoke lightly. "I guess you are right, she does love you. But how much will her love go for you, if you keep on hurting and breaking her? I never want Skyla like you do Rex, but if it means to save her life and soul from the devil himself then so be it brother. But just know I'll be waiting, because once you f**k up and we all know you will, but when you do Alex, I'll be waiting for her with open arms and soothing her broken heart and soul. I'll be there with open arms to pick up the pieces, but once she sees how much love I can give her without breaking her, she'll soon love me just as much as she did you Lex. All I am saying brother is, just don't f**k up and that won't ever have to happen. Please don't hurt her again." Max spoke, my heart went ramped in my chest and I heard Max laughing and Rex growled in anger.

"No little one, not until my ediot brother f***s up." He said laughing walking out of the room.

I felt Rex's hot breath on my face and I felt my face heating up, I knew I was blushing like a mad dog. I can't even move my hands even if I wanted to damnit. I thought.

"I'll show just how much love I do have for you, but you can't really agree to it. So I'll just take your silence as a yes." He said while removing the blanket from my body, I felt his hands moving the hospital gown up my body. What is he doing, is he really going to take my vcard while I'm in a f*****g coma? What the f**k! I yelled in my head. His large hands gripped my panties and pulled them down slowly, my heart once again went rapid in my chest. I heard his deep voice breaking my train of thought. "Oh don't worry baby, I'm not going to f**k you. I'm just going to make you feel very good." His deep voice filled the room, pushed my legs apart, his thumb played with my c**t, I felt my body shutter. His booming laugh filled my head, I felt his finger being replaced with his tongue, my breath hitched in my lungs. I wanted to moan but I couldn't. I wanted to scream and I can't, this is not fun at all. I want out damnit!

His expert tongue claimed my c**t over and over again, I felt myself coming undone. His fingers pumping deep within my core, I am about to come undone. I felt my body shutter once more before I came. I heard him slurping my juices, but he didnt stop. His fingers is going the same speed it was before I came, his tongue still swirling around my c**t like a f*****g lollipop. His voice filled my ears and I felt myself close to coming once more.

"You taste so sweet baby girl, but the first time wasn't enough for me. I wanted to taste you again." Rex said in a deep husky voice. I felt my walls closing in around his fingers, my body shuttered on it's own once more, his tongue doing some many wonderful things to me. Once his lips sucked on my c**t, I came undone. I filt his tongue lapping up the rest he missed, he pulled his fingers out of my core and I heard sucking sounds.

Rex pulled my panties back up and the blanket back over me, he grabbed my hands and spoke softly in my ear.

"I'll never hurt you again, I love you to much to see you like this. I don't think I could handle this a second time, and I can't see you with my brother. That would crush me into pieces knowing I failed you, not once but twice, I can't allow to ever happen again Skyla." He spoke with such love and regret in his voice.