Heartbreak Story

Chapter 36: Forgive and Forget

ANNA'S P.O.V

I woke up to the sound of someone shouting. My head hurt so bad, I looked around and realized that I was in Kelsey's room.

"I told you you can't see her" I heard Kelsey said outside the room.

"Kelsey please don't be like this, I need to explain to her" this time I heard Nathan said.

I tried to remember what had happened earlier. I remembered Nick shouted at Nathan, telling him how he made me cry and stuff.

"You can't tell me what to do, Kels!" Nathan snapped.

"Lower your voice, Nath, she's asleep!" Kelsey spat before slamming the door, making me jump a little.

I closed my eyes again, pretending to sleep as I heard footsteps coming closer.

"Who the hell did he think he is to do that?" I heard Kelsey said.

"He needs to learn from his mistake" Carrie said.

"It's very late, let's just go to sleep" this time Nareesha said.

The girls crawled on the bed beside me as I heard snores from them, they are fast asleep. My head was still pounding so I closed my eyes to finally sleep again.

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When I woke up, it was only 8 in the morning. I turned to see the girls were still fast asleep. I have had enough sleep last night so I got up, making my way straight to the kitchen to make myself a cuppa.

Once I got there, Nathan was already there, sitting on the kitchen counter whilst covering his face with his hands. He looked stressed. I didn't know what to do, I wasn't ready to meet him. Nathan must sensed me because then he looked up to see me. I could see sadness in his eyes, his eyes looked very tired which I assumed he didn't sleep last night.

"Hey" his stuttered. As much as it hurt me to see him like this, I needed to be stronger. He kissed that girl.

I looked at the other way and started making a cuppa, ignoring him behind me.

"Anna I-"

"Don't. Don't say anything. Just don't" I cut his words. I grabbed the cup of tea, avoiding eyes contact with Nathan.

"I just want to apologize. For everything. I was being a jerk to you, I know that. And about that kiss.. I-I'm so sorry. I was drunk and-"

"Stop! I told you not to say anything, what part of 'don't say anything' that you don't understand?!" this time I snapped at him.

He looked surprised to see my outburst but I could careless. I was still hurt and betrayed.

He gulp. "I-I just want to apologize. I just.. I don't want to lose you, Anna. I'm so sorry"

I sighed and turned to him. "Look, I don't understand the thing between us. Something happened and it ruined us. We fight, we keep arguing, you being distance to me, everything. It's confusing and stressing. I think it's the best if we.. take a break" I lower my voice to say the last part.

I don't need to see that Nathan already looked so shocked. "We what?"

"Take a break. For a while. Until everything has settled down" I looked down at my cuppa, not wanting to meet his gaze.

"No, no, please don't do that. Y-you can't do that to me, please.. I lo-"

"It's for the best, Nathan" I cut his words, looked up to see him. "We both are messed up. We need to take a break to cool down. We need it"

He sighed. You can see disappointed in his eyes. Sadness, disappointment, betrayed. But what can I do? We both are messed up. We need to cool down.

"I hope you understand. And don't worry, I forgave you" I gave him a small smile before turning around to go back to Kelsey's room.

Just before I stepped on the first stair, I heard Nathan spoke. "Just so you know, Anna." he said, making me stopped. "I will always love you no matter what, and I will wait for you. I'm not going anywhere" his tone of voice showed at how broken he is now. Tears are now on my eyes.

"Thank you" I said without looking back and kept on going upstairs.

NATHAN'S P.O.V

My heart shattered as soon as she told me she wanted to take a break. You know what that means? You won't be near her again, you won't be calling her 'babe', you won't be sleeping with her and wake up beside her, you won't be able to kiss her, hug her, cuddle with her, hold her in your arms, having her as yours.

It's just the same with break-up, only this time it was a break which will be temporary. But that 'temporary' could be 'permanent' if things won't work out. I could lose her forever if I didn't make it up to her. I could lose the love of my life if I kept making things worse. I had to do something. I won't let her go. I don't want to lose her.

I won't.

-the next day-

It's been the whole day since I last saw her, the last time I talked to her. She stayed in Jay's room last night. She refused to sleep with me, and I understood that she needed time to heal. And to say that I'm not stressed is an understatement. Being away with her is torturing. I have missed her. I have missed holding her in my arms. I'm so f****d up. Everything is f****d up. I just hope that tomorrow she would talk to me again.

-3 days later-

3 days later and everything is still the same. I haven't seen her since our last talk. She would leave with the girls earlier and came back when I'm already in my room. I have gone crazy. I have missed her terribly.

"No, no vodka in the house" I heard Kelsey said. Then the boys groaned.

"Why can't we have vodka?" Max asked this time.

"Who would take care of the mess you boys cause later if you're drunk?" This time, the familiar voice said. I have missed her voice, I have missed hearing her talking to me.

I was curious what they were doing so I walked out of the room to find Max, Tom, Kelsey, and Anna talking in the balcony. When I looked at Anna, I couldn't help but my heart raced so fast. I haven't seen her for 3 days and seeing her again now made me really happy.

"I won't be drinking later, I promise" Max said.

Kelsey squinted her eyes on him. "You? Not drinking? Those 2 words can never be in the same sentence"

That made Anna laugh. God how I have missed her laugh. Mostly, I have missed her so much.

"Nathan why are you standing there?" Tom asked, snapping me out from my thoughts.

Anna looked at me for a second before looking the other way, avoiding me. I sighed, I wish thing would never as hard as it is right now.

ANNA'S P.O.V

- 4 days later -

The party in The Wanted's house has just begun. It's not a big party, just a crew gathering because the guest were basically the tour crews, management (Scooter wasn't here because he was busy), some relatives of the boys's families, and close friends. I invited Nick but he couldn't come because he needed to take care of his mother (not my mother but his adoptive mother) who's ill.

So I invited Thyme, yeah I haven't seen him since the premiere weeks ago. I have missed him actually, he's one of my greatest brothers.

"Boo!" someone tapped my shoulder, making me jump in shock. I turned around to find a giggling Thyme.

"You just scared the s**t out of me" I pouted, rubbing my chest.

"Well your fault that you're so lost on your thoughts" he giggled.

"Whatever" I rolled my eyes sarcastically, walking back inside the house to grab a drink for me and Thyme.

The music was so loud, you had to scream from your deepest lungs to talk to someone here. I could feel my heart beats so fast because of the sound system. I handed Thyme the drink and he took it. I then took his hand and lead him outside the house to the swimming pool.

"Let's talk here, I'm almost deaf inside that house" I spoke as we sat down on the grass.

"Yeah me too" he chuckled. "So how's life so far?"

"Well.." I just sighed. A lot of things happened and I couldn't be more stressed.

"Oh no, this doesn't sound good to me"

"What?"

"You. You seem not happy. In fact, you are upset" he turned to look at me.

"How do you know that?"

"You didn't look like 'you'. You are not Anna that I know. That 'Anna' is very cheerful, always has her smile stick on her beautiful face, she will all go crazy talking about random things and won't shut her mouth" he explained, making me chuckled to hear his description of me.

Thyme has always been a good friend and brother for me. He always knows how to put my smile back and make me happy. He is much exactly like Nick.

"I just.. I'm not feeling the best for the last couple of days" I looked down, remembering about that day when Nathan and I took a break.

"You can tell me everything, Anna. I'm all ears, and of course I'll keep it secret" he gave a smile as I looked up to meet his gaze.

"Well.." I sighed before telling him about the things between me and Nathan. He listened to me, sometimes gave me advice. He is a very good listener.

One time I glanced to see Nathan from a far. He was with Ariana, but his eyes are on me. I looked at the other way and focused on telling Thyme everything.

"So yeah that's it" I said once again and looked down.

"Well Nathan sure will regret everything. I mean, look at him now. He is such a mess. He f****d up" he giggled. I looked over Nathan but he wasn't there anymore. I sighed. I have missed him so much. 4 days of not talking to him was hard. But I doubted if he forgave me though, I broke his heart. He sure won't forgive me.

"I think he hates me so much right now" I frowned, laid my back on the grass. Thyme looked at me confused then laid his back too.

We went silent and watched the sky. There were stars everywhere. I remembered when I did this with Edward, back to 4 years ago. A year of his death had past, soon I'm going to join him when my time has come.

"You know, there are a lot of guys out there who can make you happier than he made you be"

"What do you mean?" I asked. This time, he was the one looking at me.

"I like you, Anna. Like.. like you a lot" he said. That made me sat up in shock.

Thyme likes me? Like.. more than friends?

"The first time we met, I had this crush on you. Remember when you laughed so hard when I told you my name?" he asked, making me chuckle to remember that day. "When I saw your smile, gosh I swear that was the most beautiful smile I've ever seen in my life. I couldn't stop looking at you. You are so beautiful, Anna. When you came to our house, and had sleepover for 2 days, I was bloody happy. You brought happiness to the house, we're all happy to have you. I can't help, Anna, I fall for you"

I was so surprised when he said that. I don't know what to say, I didn't expect this would happen. Thyme loves me.

"So.. What do you say?" He slowly looked at my eyes, as if he was hoping for a good answer.

"Thyme I-I don't know. It's all so confusing. I do love you, Ty, as bestfriend. You are a very lovely and a great guy. You made me happy and cheered me up when I was at my lowest point. I do love you, Ty, but.. You know at how much I love Nathan" I felt bad for turning him down.

He had this sad smile on his face. I felt so guilty. Thyme has been the kindest guy I have ever met, he never once made me sad or mad at him. He always has his way to make sure I'm always happy.

"I hope you understand. I'm so sorry" I avoided his gaze, afraid that he would be mad at me.

"It's fine. I understand that. I know at how much you love that guy. I just want you to know that if you really love him, fight for him to get him back. I will never get a place in your heart like he did but I'll always be here for you" he smiled at me, taking my hand in his.

"You're wrong, Ty. You did get a place in my heart. Bestfriend. And you know bestfriend stays forever" I smiled at him.

"Thank you. And I'm sorry for saying those things"

"No it's fine, it's beautiful. You sure did make me feel so much better, you always know how to make me happy"

"That's my job as your bestfriend" he winked at me, making me giggled.

We spent like an hour talking and laughing at his joke. His confession to me won't tear us apart, it makes me us even closer. I'm glad I met someone like him. Someone who has a big impact on me. Someone who will always be here for me.

"Anna" someone called my name. I turned around to find Ariana standing behind us.

"Oh hey Ari, meet Thyme. Thyme, this is Ariana Grande" I said as I introduced them both.

"Oh my God, pleasure to meet you, Ariana! I'm a huge fan" he extended his hand. Ariana just giggled and took his hand.

"Me too. I love your acting in the movie" she has a cute american accent.

"You watched my movie? Wow, it's such an honor" he smiled.

I don't want to bother their conversation so I just kinda left them both alone. I said goodbye to them and went back inside the house. The music was still so loud. Everyone began to dance, drink, laugh, chill, everything. I'm not a party girl so I just went straight to my room.

Once I was outside my room, I heard moaning. I opened the door to find Jay and a girl.. you know.

"Jeez, oh God my eyes" I closed my eyes and closed the door back. I sure hell won't sleep on that bed again, ever.

I had no idea where else to go so I walked to the back of the house where there was small garden there. I closed the glass door and sat on the grass, watching the view of the hill.

I wish things would never be in this way. About my relationship with Nathan. I still love him though, hell he is the love of my life. But if he kept acting like that, I couldn't stand him. I thought taking a break would make us better but no it just turned to get worse. We were not getting better. We had this cold war. He avoided me, I avoided him. He didn't say a thing to me, so did I.

I was so lost on my thoughts when someone sat next to me. Turned out it was Nathan. I was surprised with his presence.

"Hi" he said softly.

"Hey" I said, almost like a whisper.

Silence between us. None of us dared to speak. I looked at the other way, he did too. But for once, I'm glad he was here. I have missed him so much.

"I've missed you, Anna"

I turned to see him. He gave me a weak smile. I paid more attention to him. He looked a mess. His eyes bags clearly appeared, showing that he hadn't had good sleeps. His pink lips turned into a pale pink. I hate seeing him like this, especially that I was the cause of him being like this.

"4 days not being with you was.. depressing. I barely had sleep. I had no spirit to do anything. I was not myself, I was so lost. I messed up for God knows how many times. I kept thinking about how s**t I am as a boyfriend," he sighed and ran his hands through his hair. "I-I can't do this, being away from you. Not be able to hold you in my arms. I've missed you like crazy. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything" his voice cracked.

He sounded so broken, that made me upset too. So I finally leaned in to hug him and buried my head on the crook of his neck. He tensed at first but soon relaxed when he realized that I hugged him.

"Gosh I've missed you so much, babe" he said, hugging me back.

"I've missed you too, Nathan"

We pulled away, Nathan looked at me in the eyes before leaned in to kiss me. Of course I kissed back. 4 days seemed longer than I thought. We messed up, we did mistakes but that's what we are. We are human, we make mistakes. The kiss began hungrier, I haven't tasted his lips for God knows how long so of course I missed him.

NATHAN'S P.O.V

I have missed her like crazy. 4 days not be able to kiss her and have her in my arms was just depressing. The whole party I kept looking at her. How she talked to that Thyme guy, laughed with him, laid on the grass with him. I couldn't help but being so jealous.

After I confessed everything to her, I was in tears. Yeah men can cry too. She hugged me which surprised me but soon I hugged her back. We pulled away and I leaned in to kiss her soft lips. She kissed me back and the kiss began hungrier.

"Does that mean you forgave me?" I asked as we pulled away.

"Nath, I've forgiven you since 4 days ago" she smiled at me.

"Thank you. Now can we just go back inside to spend the time together? I've missed you so much"

"Yeah sure but erm.. Can we not go to our room? I kinda saw Jay and a girl erm you know.. in our bed" she scratched the back of her neck as if she was embarrassed.

"THEY HAD s*x IN OUR BED?!" I almost shouted.

"Ssshhh quiet, Nath!" she closed my mouth with her hand.

"How dare they did that! Well there's an extra room beside our room, we can sleep there tonight"

"Yeah sure" she smiled and I took her by the hand to the extra room.

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WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT!!

Things had escalated quickly where we began to undress each other. Our kiss never broke. She jumped and wrapped her legs around my waist as I walked us to the bed, placing her gently as I was hovering over her. She opened her legs just so I could position myself in between her legs. I looked into her eyes once more.

"Are you ready baby?" I asked.

"More than you'll ever know" she giggled.

I then slowly pushed myself in her entrance, she closed her eyes and hissed in pain. It was our second time to make love and I know she is still not used to do this.

"I'm sorry, baby" I kissed her cheek as I let her to adjust.

She opened her eyes and caressed my cheek, telling me to keep going. I began to thrust in slow motion, feeling her around me. She closed her eyes and moaned, that turned me on even more. After a while, I speed up. I pinned her hands down on the mattress, trying to hold my weight not to press her too hard. She kept moaning and it got me so hard.

"Oh baby that's good" she moaned in each thrusts.

I let go off her hands and she ran her hands through my hair. I kissed her deeply and she moaned between the kiss. Then she ran her hands down to my back and dig her nails when I picked up the speed. She moaned so loud, thanks to the loud music that covered her moan or else people would hear us.

"Nathan" she began to tighten her walls, she's close.

"Wait for me, I'm almost there" I kept thrusting her.

Our sweaty bodies moved together. The feeling of her soft skin rubbed mine.

"I'm there" I said as I released in her. She was shaking, I held her in my arms.

Once we caught our breath, I pulled out and laid beside her. Staring at the ceiling, we were breathless.

"That was amazing" I was the first one to say.

"Yes" she giggled.

She then turned to my side, put her head on my chest as I wrapped my arms on her protectively.

"I love you Nathan" she smiled at me.

"I love you more than you'll ever know" I sang and leaned in to kiss her forehead. "Goodnight my angel"

"Goodnight my love" she said then closed her eyes as we finally fell asleep in both arms.

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