Heartbreak Story

Chapter 9: Forgiving Nathan

ANNA'S P.O.V

I never thought falling asleep next to someone would be this warm and nice. I was still trapped in between Nathan's arm, he never let go off me when he slept. And I know this sounds ridiculous but I think I like to be in his arms. My back was facing him, still having his arms wrapped protectively around me.

Last night Nathan kept mumbling about me not to leave him. This guy may be an asshole but I could tell you he is lonely. He acts like an asshole just to hide the pain. Probably.

I glanced to see the watch, it was only 6 in the morning. Nathan was still fast asleep behind me, and I could hear his soft snores, I can't help but smiling. I tried to pull away from him, but the more I pulled away, the more his grip tightened.

"Don't go" he groaned.

Shit, is he awake?

Then I heard snores again so I let out a relief sigh. Truthfully I really don't want to go yet, whoever much I like to be in his arms. What is this feeling? Why am I like this? I waited another minutes then I fell asleep again.

When I woke up, the first thing I saw those green eyes already staring at me. And I realized that our faces were just inch closer. I gasped and immediately got off the bed.

Shit, s**t, s**t, he is awake now, he is going to kill me!

"I'm sorry, please d-don't hurt me" I startled as I took a step backward away from him.

He looked at me concern. "Anna, I would never hurt you"

He got off the bed and stood up, I took another step backward. "D-don't come closer!"

"Anna, calm down. Just tell me what happened" his voice remained calm.

"I just.. it's just.. You were drunk last night and I-I stayed the night with you be-because you asked me to. And-and then I fell asleep and you wouldn't like it, y-you hate me" I took a step back again but unfortunately I was met by wall.

He took a step closer to me and reached my hand. "Please, don't be afraid of me"

He took my hands in his and I swear there was this surge of electric I felt. He took a step closer and closed a gap between, just an inch apart. Then our eyes met. Those green eyes, they told different stories. They were not dark like when I first met him. Those eyes were different, they have changed.

Nathan was looking at me in the eyes and I couldn't help but my hearts racing so fast, I could even feel it pounding. Then his eyes looked at my lips.

"Na-Nathan"

"I've always wanted to try this" he said and the next thing I know, I felt his lips on mine.

I was surprised, reallysurprised. The guy who hates all my guts just f*****g kissed me!

Realizing I didn't kiss back, he opened his eyes, looking at me with pleading eyes. I trust those eyes. Those innocent eyes. So I finally gave in and kissed him back. He sighed of relief as he closed his eyes again, kissing me softly. The way he caressed my cheek, the way his lips massaged mine, the way he made me feel safe. I closed my eyes as I was joined to this feeling. I wrapped my arms around him, deepening the kiss.

I might regret to say this, but.. I like it. I like the kiss. I enjoyed it. I ran my hands through his hair. He rested one hand behind my neck, pulling me closer as the kiss began hungrier. This is so wrong, yet so good. We hated each other but we fit like puzzle pieces.

As we continued our heated make out session. A flash of Nick hit me. I immediately pulled away from the kiss. Nathan was surprised with my sudden action. This is so wrong of me. I have Nick, he is my boyfriend, and I just kissed another guy behind him. I just cheated on him. This so low of me.

"I-I can't do this, this is so wrong" I ran my hands through my hair.

How could I be so stupid and careless? How would Nick feel when he finds out that I kissed another guy behind him? I'm so f****d up.

I looked over Nathan and saw a disappointment in his eyes. As much as I love the kiss, I can't do it. I can't kiss Nathan like that. It's so unfair for Nick. "I'm sorry, I can't do this"

He sighed then took my hand again. I looked at the floor, but he lift my chin up so I was met by his stare. "I'm sorry"

I frowned. Why did he apologize? I kissed him back, it wasn't his fault.

I watched as he sat back to his bed, he sighed and ran his hands through his hair. I didn't know what to do, so I just stood, waiting for him to talk.

"I'm gonna be honest with you. I don't know what happened to me" he began. "You probably always wonder why I was always being a jerk to you. I ruined your life. I hurt you. I was a complete jerk, I know that. But I want to apologize, I want to apologize for everything I've done to hurt your feelings. I don't deserve any forgiveness but.. I'm really sorry" his voice cracked.

I sighed. Watching him in this state broke me so much. He might ruined my uni life, but not enough to make me hold a grudge againts him. This boy is in pain. And he sounded geniune when he apologized to me, so why not forgive him?

"Okay, I forgive you"

He looked up at me, clearly surprised. "You do?"

I nodded. "Yeah. I mean, it's not healthy to hold a grudge, isn't it?"

He smiled. "Thank you"

NATHAN'S P.O.V

After the kiss, everything went way much better. She forgave me, after all I did to her. She is honestly so kind and humble. I would have never imagine she would forgive me, at least not so fast. But she did. And I'm so grateful for that.

I couldn't help but remember the time we kissed. Her soft lips on mine, I'm dying to kiss her again. What surprised me more is that she kissed me back. She didn't even slap me for kissing her.

"So erm, what crazy things I said last night?" I asked as we just sat on my bed, watching TV.

"Well, you told me to stay and unfortunately I did" she joked, making me chuckle. "And, you were calling your mom when you slept" she continued.

"I did what?" I asked which she responded with nodding. I immediately turned so red. "Oh God that's embarrassing" I hide my face with my hands.

She laughed. "It's fine. Your secret is safe with me"

I smiled. "Thanks. And thank you again, for taking care of me last night"

"You're welcome. You were a mess last night" she giggled.

"I guess I was"

We continued watching TV. Honestly, I didn't pay much attention to the screen as I was focused on this beautiful human beside me.

"So erm, you and Nick eh?"

Why did I even say that?

She looked at me. "Yeah. Crazy huh? He was my bestfriend, and we are in love"

I just smiled, deep down I was heartbroken. As much as I'm happy to see her happy with that guy, I was jealous. Jay was right, I think I'm in love with Anna. Karma is a b***h yeah. But she doesn't need to know that I love her.

"What's wrong"

"Nothing erm congrats anyway, you and him look good together"

Fuck, that even came out so hurt from me.

She smiled. "Thanks. And how are you and Leah?"

"We broke up" I said, looking at the other way. I broke up with Leah like 2 days ago, she slapped me right on my cheek but I don't care. I never loved her anyway.

"Awh, I'm sorry to hear that"

"It's fine, honestly. So erm can we.. start it over again? No more yelling at each other, no more fighting, no more hates, yeah?" I said, changing the topic.

This is probably the dumbest idea.

"Agreed" she smiled.

"Great! Okay let's start.. Hi, I'm Nathan Sykes, you can call me Nathan" I said, making her giggled.

"I'm Anna, nice to meet you Nathan" she shook my hand.

We spent the next hour talking about ourselves. Surprisingly she agreed to be friends with me. We are now civil. No more hatred.

But from now.. We're just friends. Yes, friends.

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