Conflict with Cassian has turned into a daily reunion ritual. Yes, I'm afraid for my life that my husband has finally forgotten everything that makes me who I am. I find it terrible that our meetings are limited to meaningless platitudes. Other than battling for s*x and attempting to survive, there is nothing between us. I should never have fallen in love the way that I did because now, if I do die, my soul will not go to sleep and rest. It saddens me that I now have to come and adjust other aspects of my life to my favor so that I may continue living. The only person who can save me at this moment is a deity who has been aiding Cassian, but it will be reconnected to the fires of death, and I will be annihilated without a word. Despite how much I love her, my eldest daughter has written me
