Through The Fire

EPISODE 5 : Gail's POV - Continuation

It's already 1 o’clock in the morning when we decided to go to sleep. They agreed that we should just all sleep in the bedroom, so everyone starts to freshen up and change their clothes.

We are now in the bedroom getting ready for bed while Aki is still in the bathroom. Faye and Mich were already there on the floor, so it means Aki will sleep with us on the bed. The thought of that makes me feel nervous and excited. She has that kind of effect on me. I don't know why, but I want to be always close to her, it's as if my body is longing for her presence. Anne interrupted my thoughts by kissing me, I just look at her and smiled. We talk about her next schedule for a few minutes then she went to sleep after we said our good nights. I know I'm being so unfair to Anne, she doesn't deserve this. It's not fair to her that I'm having this kind of feelings for someone else and worst it's her friend. I know it's wrong, but I'm not sure if I have the power to stop myself from making a mistake. I don't want to hurt her, but I don't know what I'm feeling either. These different emotions are making me question my feelings for Anne. I don't know how to deal with this since this is the first time I felt this way towards someone.

Despite the amount of alcohol I consumed a while ago, I still had a hard time falling asleep. Aki's presence beside me is making me feel uneasy. I look at her direction and saw her peacefully sleeping. I have the chance to stare at her this time without being afraid of getting caught. I am so drawn to her, the first time I laid my eyes on her, she was able to ignite something inside me that I can't put a name on.

Before I even realize what I'm doing, my hand moves and made contact with her hand that is laying in between us. I caressed it with my fingers gently to not wake her up. That simple contact sent shivers down my spine. Aki moves a little, and she seems to be waking up. I got nervous and immediately close my eyes to pretend that I'm sleeping, but I was not able to remove my hand on top of hers. I know she's awake now, and she's looking at me. I'm not sure what's going on her mind, my heart is beating so fast right now. I felt her moved my hand a little to make sure that it won't wake me up. The thought of her thinking that I'm asleep is a relief for me. After a few minutes, I slowly opened my eyes and saw that her eyes were closed, but I'm not sure if she's sleeping already.

That brief incident thrilled me, I felt giddy like a child. I don't know where I get the courage, but I found myself doing it again. Maybe it's the alcohol. I can't control myself around her and in my state of intoxication, my mind is definitely not thinking straight. This time, I am slowly tracing patterns on her arm, her skin feels so soft. I kept my eyes shut and just savor the softness of her skin. Aki moves again, and I can feel her eyes on me. s**t. Good thing my eyes were shut or else I'm done. It took a few seconds though before she removed my hand again. I felt her moved her body away from me even more.

I waited for a few minutes before I opened my eyes and saw that she turned her back on me, I felt a little disappointed by that. s**t. I think she's really annoyed that I kept waking her up. The thought of her being pissed at me doesn't feel right, and I hardly got any sleep that night because of that.

Anne interrupted my thoughts when she planted a kiss on my cheek. I didn't realize that she's already awake as I was so deep in remembering everything that happened yesterday.

Good morning. She greets with a sweet smile.

Good morning. I warmly replied.

How's your sleep? She asked.

I wish I could be honest with her and say that I hardly get any sleep because of her friend, but instead, I gave her a simple and opposite response.

I sleep well. I got really drunk last night, so I passed out as soon as my body hit the bed. I lied.

You're such a lightweight. She teased while laughing.

After a few small talks, we head out of the room to join her friends and prepare some breakfast. I'm nervous to see Aki again after that incident last night. What if she's mad at me? What if she knows that I'm awake during those times? Now that the effect of alcohol wears off, all the courage that I had last night were completely gone and is now replaced with uncertainty and nervousness. I took a deep breath as Anne and I walk out of the bedroom.