Lance cannot remember the time wherein he has put himself first before others. Ever since he was a kid, the parents he grew up to always remind him that he is not a priority. He is constantly behind Stephen and Amanda has always been overindulged among the three of them. He is always the last, sometimes never even thought of.
The last to have a new set of clothes, the last to take food from the platter, last for everything. But he is grateful for what he has. At a young age, he understood that no matter how much you want for someone else’s affection, there is no assurance that they could return the same feeling. It would have been nice if he does not feel anything at all. Because even if he is able to stomach everything in, his father's anger at him and her mother's neglect certainly has
