I had been running on very little sleep for several weeks. Lily did not sleep. She woke every hour or less, all hours of the night. During the day, she was often colicky and inconsolable. I spent most of my days bouncing her, rocking her, trying every piece of advice anyone and the internet had ever given me, and listening to her cry in her swing while I tried to pump.
Breastfeeding still wasn't going well. She wouldn't latch, and if she did, it was very painful. It felt like a million needles going into my n****e and I writhed in pain the entire time. Many trips to the lactation consultant proved useless. When we were there, we did well. With the lactation consultants help, I got her latched and eating from the breast for a long time. However, as soon as we left there, it was like the
