Dazzle Me

That one notification email

Life hasn't always been smooth sailing. We have to encounter difficult times and rough patches to grow and learn. That is why I still choose to keep going even though I feel like everything's falling apart.

I haven't really been doing good with my studies. Oh and I don't think If I really wanted this course anyway. I was an overachiever. People often tell me I was too smart. My GPA spoke for itself tho. But now? I don't know. I mean I did pass 2 semesters of first year college but my GPA was not that good, I must admit. It didn't satisfy me. I have no idea what's wrong with me. I only exerted the bare minimum effort of doing school work and stuff. Smart kid burnout s**t? probably. Online classes is suffocating and exhausting the hell out of me.

This is probably the course of equating my self worth to the grades I get. I easily feel down and disappointed with myself. Lol but yeah, I still have to keep on going. I can do this.

Scrolling through my social media accounts, I found an advertisement about online job specially virtual assistant. It intrigued me. Why not find myself a job this summer? Something for me to kill the time while earning money at it's best. I have nothing to do anyways. My summer would definitely be boring. My friends live far away, and I don't have a boyfriend. I have no one to hang around with.So yeah, I shoot my shot. I made my resume and submitted it immediately to different companies. I kept my hope's high.

For days I constantly checked my phone waiting for that acceptance email but to no avail. Until my phone beeped. It was an email notification. Not from the companies I applied to, but from one person whom I tried to forget.

It was an email from someone I used to hate. Someone whom I used to love and care for. My ex.