ZENA - LIFE AFTER DESTRUCTION

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 2

INTERDUCTION.

I HAVE BEEN HERE IN THIS HOUSE FOR ALMOST A YEAR EVEN THOUGH IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER AND STILL TRYING TO FIGURE ALL THIS STUFF OUT.

THERE IS THOMAS THE HEAD OFF THE HOUSE AND HE IS 62 YEARS OFF AGE, HIS FIRST WIFE SARAH WICH IS 58 YEARS AND THERE SON TOM WHOM IS 18 YEARS OLD, RETA SECOND WIFE SHES 46 YEARS AND HER DAUGHTER RIA SHES 15 YEARS OLD, MY AUNT BRENDA HIS THIRD WIFE SHE IS 40 AND HER DAUGHTER SAMANTHA AND SHE IS 10YEARS OLD, I KNOW WEIRD SETUP I SAY WEIRD.

I SOMETIMES FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MY AUNT IS HERE, HOW SHE FITS IN HERE AND WHY! SHE SEEMS TO BE SO DIFFERENT THAN ALL THE OTHERS, SHE TRIES HER VERY BEST TO FITT IN AND GETS A LOT OFF GRIEF FROM ALL THE OTHERS BUT CAN REALLY SEE SHE TRIES VERY HARD, SHE SEEMS CONTEMPT BEING HERE. I HAVE ALSO NOTICED THAT THOMAS BEHAVES DIFFERENT TOWARDS MY AUNT WHICH MAKES IT EASIER FOR HER AND YES THE OTHER WIVES DOES NOTICES IT BUT THOMAS HAS A WAY TO CONTROLL HIS WIVES.

THIS LIFESTYLE I THOUGHT FEELING A TEAR RUNNING DOWN MY CHEECK! YOU DONE I HEARD MY AUNTS VOICE AS SHE PUTTS M

HER HAND ON MY SHOULDER, YES BRENDA I SAID WITH MY ANNOYED ATTITUDE VOICE AGAIN! NOT MENT TO AS SHES ALWAYS BEEN VERY NICE TOWARDS ME AND BEEN THERE FOR ME AND KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME THERES NO SECRETS BETWEEN US STUFF THAT IS CONCIDERD EVIL AND NOT ALLOWED, SORRY I SAID I DID NOT MEAN TO BE DISRESPECTFULL, HER SOFT HAND WIPING AWAY A TEAR FROM MY CHEECK, ITS OK MY GIRL I UNDERSTAND FEELING LIKE HELPING ME WITH THE LAUNDRY, MY DUTY FOR THE DAY SHE SAID WITH A SMILE ON HER FACE. AND THAT CHEERED ME UP SHE ATLEAST STILL HAD A SENSE OFF HUMOR, LAUGHING AND HUMOR NOT A REGULAR THING IN THESE HOMES, OFFCOURSE I SAID I WILL HELP YOU ANYTIME MEANING IT AS THERES BEEN SO MANY TIMES THAT MY AUNT HAS COVERED FOR ME OR HELPED ME OUT. GETTING CLOSER TO THE LAUNDREY LINES I STARTED REGRETTING MY OFFER, YOU WASHED ALL THIS TODAY I ASKED LOOKING SURPRISED YET I KNEW THIS WAS WHAT THE LINES LOOKED LIKE EVERYDAY, AND BY HAND I ASKED ME LOOKING AT THE 4 LINES OFF CLOTHING ALL LOOKING SIMILAR AND A SINGLE ROW OFF MY CLOSE AND IT MADE ME SMILE ATLEAST MINE AND SOME CARACTER TO THE LINE I LAUGED AT MY AUNT, GUEST WICH IS MINE I JOKED AT MY AUNT. MY AUNT GIVING ME A SMILE, LETS GET STARTED. YOU KNOW MY GIRL WE ALL HAVE OUR DUTIES AND WE MUST DO IT TO THE BEST OFF OUR ABBILITIES YOU WILL GET USED TO IT MY GIRL SHE SAID NOT LOOKING TO CONVINCING I THOUGHT. BRENDA MAY I ASK YOU SOMETHING OFFCOURSE ZENA SORRY I MENT BREA,, PLEASE CALL ME ZENA I BEGGED AT THER, MAKE YOU A DEAL ZENA WHEN WE ARE ALONE I WILL PROMISE BUT INFRONT OFF OTHERS YOU KNOW I HAVE TO CALL YOU BREA, WHATS THE QUESTION SHE ASKED? HOW DO YOU FIT IN HERE I KNOW WE ONLY STARTED TO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER SINCE I HAVE MOVED HERE, YOUR SO DIFFERENT FROM MY MOTHER HOW DID YOU END UP HERE? LOOKING AT ME WITH HER EYES GETTING GLASSY I SAW I WAS NOT GOING TO GET ALL MY ANSWERS AS I WANTED THEM SO DESPARETLLY. MY SWEET ZENA THERES A LOT YOU DO NOT KNOW AND DUMPING ALL ON YOU AT ONCE WILL BE TO MUCH FOR YOU AT THIS STAGE I WILL TELL YOU ALL IN GOOD TIME AS YOU GET MORE READY TO EXCEPT EVERYTHING, BUT I NEED TO TELL YOU THIS HOWEVER, THIS USED TO BE YOUR MOMS LIFE TO BEFORE YOUR BIRTH, WHAT IS SAID! BEING SO CONFUSSED, HOW THE HELL!!!! YES MY SWEET ZENA BEFORE ALL THE BAD, AGAIN I ASKED SURPRISED WHAT HAPPED? HOW WHY DID I END UP HERE I RAMMBLED THE QUESTION OUT OFF ME AS WE FINISHED THE LAUNDREY, STOP ZENA TO MAY QUESTIONS AT ONCE ALL IN GOOD TIME, PROMISE MY AUNT SAID AS WE WERE HEADING TOWARDS THE HOME WE HAVE TO MOVE IT ITS STARTING TO GET DARK WE STILL HAVE TO LIGHT THE LAMPS, OOO s**t YES I SAID NOT MEANING FOR THAT TO SLIP OUT BUT VERY PRIMATIVE NO ELECTRICITY HERE, BRENDA JUST LAUGHED, I REALY ENJOYED THE TIMES WE GET TO SPEND TOGHTER AS ITS NOT VERY OFTEN SHE REMINDS ME SO MUCH OFF MY OWN MOTHER.

NEEDING A SMOKE I ASKED SARAH IF I COULD GO FOR A QUICK WALK IN THE WOODS BEHIND THE HOUSE, NOT FOR LONG SHE SAID IN HER OLD BOSSY TONE ITS YOUR TURN TO SET THE TABLE, f**k THE SMOKE I NEED A JOINT INSTEAD I LIT UP AS I WALKED INTO THE WOODS, ATLEAST HERE IS SILENCE PRIVACIE, O MY GOD I JUST RELIZED O FORGOT TOW VERY MPORTANT THINGS THIS AFTER NON,,,I NEEDED TO SEE SEAN TO CHARGE MY POWER PACK AND TO GET SORTED ON MY DOPE SIDE, s**t I SAID LOOKING AT THE TWO LEFT ,, f**k f**k HOW AM I GONA SLEEP TONINGHT s**t STUPID GIRL I UTTERED TO MYSELF, FINNISHING OFF HEADING TOWARDS THE HOUSE I HEARD THE DINNER BELL RINGING,,, OOOO MY GOD I WAS LATE SETTING THE TABLE I COULD ONLY HEAR SARAHS VOICE AGAIN SO I RUSHED BACK ATLEAST I AM STONED SO f**k HER,,,I RUSHED INSIDE THE HOUSE TOWARDS THE DINNING ROOM ENTERING I SAW EVERYBODY WAS SEATED AT THERE USSUAL PLACES. BRENDA QUICKLY SAYING, THANK YOU BREA FOR SETTING THE TABLE, ME KNOWING IMMEDIATELY SHE HAS YET AGAIN COVERED FOR ME, AFTER THANKING AND EATING IT WAS RIAS AND SAMATHAS TURN TO CLEAN UP, I OFFERED TO HELP AS I KNEW MY ASS WAS COVERED JUST KNOW, BUT IT ALL HAPPENED IN THE SLINCE AGAIN NO ONE UTTERED A WORD OR EVEN LOOKED AT EACH OTHER.

SARAHS VOICE CALLING AS EVERY NIGHT FROM THE LOUNGE INFORMING ITS TIME FOR BIBLE, EVERYBODY HAD TO SIT AROUND THOMAS READING OUT OF SCRIPTURE FOLLOWED BY SOME SINGING AND PRAYER, EVERYONE HAS GETTING A CHANCE TO BUT EVERYNIGHT I FELT SO QUILTY AS I NEVER MENT THE EMPTY WORDS I UTTERED, I MUST BE HONEST A HAVE NEVER EVEN BOTHERED TO LISTEN TO A WORD THOMAS READ MY MIND ALWAYS SEEMED TO BE WONDERING OFF TO SOME PLACE I RAHTER WOULD BE.

MY ROOM BEING THE ONLY BEDROOM WITH ITS OWN BATHROOM AND ON THE TOP FLOOR I VERY THANKFULL FOR THAT TO GET SOME PRIVACY, AS I POURED FEELING THE WARM WATER I UTTERD THANK GOODNESS TOM REMEMBERD TO START THE FIRE FIRE EARLY SO WE CAN HAVE WARM WATER, LAST NIGHTS WAS COLD AS HE FORGOT HE SAID HE WAS TO BUSSY BUT I KNOW HE JUST SIMPLY FORGOT, PRIMATIVE PEOPLE I THOUGHT TO MYSELF AGAIN. WHILE I WAS POURING SOME BUBBLE BATH INTO THE WATER I THOUHGT TO MYSELF I WAS GOING TO ENJOY THIS BATH, LAUGHING AS I WAS THINKING SARAH WOULD HAVE A HEART ATTACK IF SHE SAW ALL THESE LUXURIOUSE BUBBLES I WAS INDULDGING MYSELF INTO. BEST I GO SAY GOOD NIGHT FIRST BEFORE GETTING INTO THE BATH HAVING A JOINT, LYING  THERE SOAKING UP THE WARMTH AND SMOKE THANK GOD MY ROOM WAS SO HIDDEN UPSTAIRS NO ONE EVER REALLY WONDERS AROUND HERE IN THE ATTICK, MY JOINT AND BUBBLES STARTING TO DISSAPEAR NOT KNOWING FOR HOW LONG I ENJOYED THIS RIDE, LEAVING MY NAKED BODY APPEARING UNDERNEATH THE WATER, ME NOT WANTING TO SEE IT AGAIN TONIGHT AS PREVIOUSE NIGHTS, THE CUTTS ON MY WRIST ARMS LEGS STOMACH CHEST AND NECK, WHY I SAID OUT LOUD SITTING STRAIGHT UP WITH MY HEAD BETWEEN MY KNIEES TRYING TO HIDE MY FACE NOT TO SEE, SEEING THE CUTT CLOSE TO MY PRIVATE PART, TEARS FILLED MY EYES, f**k THAT f**k THEM.QUICKLY GETTING OU T OFF THE BATH JUST TO GET A BATHROBE AROUND ME SO I CAN HIDE MY BODY, STILL CRYING I OPEND MY WINDOW SITTING ON THE WINDOWCELL LIGHTNING MY LAST JOINT FEELING VERY SORRY FOR MYSELF, f**k I MUST GET TO SEAN TOMORROW ORELSE I WILL DIE, WHY WAIT I THOUGHT TO MYSELF LET ME QUICKLLY ARRANGE AS MY POWER PACK IS ALMOST DONE THEN I M IN s**t,

TESXTING SEAN: HI, ITS ME, I NEED SOME, I LL GET YOU INFRONT OFF SCHOOL TOMORROW MORING, ALSO I NEED TO BORROW YOUR POWER PACK, ALMOST INSTANTLLY AS HE WAS WAITING FOR MY TEXT I GOT A REPLY.

SEAN: SURE THING MY WITCH I LL BE THERE BRING POWER PACK YOU CAN BORROW MINE MEANWHILE, REMEMBER YOU OWE ME? AND THERE MY PHONE DIED, f**k DOES HE HAVE TO REMIND ME OFF OWING HIM, STUPID ME HAS THIS ARRANGEMENT WITH HIM WHEN EVER I BUY ON THE BOOK I OWE HIM s*x AS I CALL IT A f**k ITS EMOTIONLESS MEANINGLESS s*x AS LONG AS I KEEP ON GETTING MY SUPPLY, A USSAUAL NIGHT AS ALWAYS FILLED WITH NIGHTMARES AND f*****g VOICES WAKEING ME UP. YEEEEESSSSS IIII AAAMMM UP I ATTURED ONCE AGAIN AT SARAH HEARING HER SIGH AS I AM SURE SHES JUST AS ENOYED AS I AM HAVING TO MAKE SURE I AM UP. REMEMBERING MY APPPINTMENT THIS MORNING I QUICKLLY RUSHED OUT OFF BED, STANDING INFRONT OFF MY CUPBAORD WHAT AM I WEARING TODAY BETTER QUESTION HOW WAS I GONNE GET OUT EARLIER THAN THE REST THIS MORNING, QUICKLLY DRESSING IN MY NORMAL BLACK DOXS BLACK STOCKINGS BLACK LEATHER MINI SHIRT AND LONG SLEEVED HOODIE AND HAIR LOOSE TODAY REACHING MY ASS NOT EVEN BOTHERED BRUSHING IT I NEED TO RUSH, SAME PALE BLACK FACE, COMING FOR BREAKFAST I HEARD BRENDA CALLING, ON OPENING THE DOOR I COULD SEE THE DISSAPPOINTMENT ON HER FACE, BRENDA I HAVE NO DUTIES THIS MORNING AND I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO PAST THE LIBRARY YESTERDAY WHICH I NEVER DID, IS THERE A WAY I CAN SKIP BREAKFAST AND HEAD STRAIGHT TO SCHOOL, I HATED LYING TO HER AND LOOKING HER INTO HER EYES, AS I KNOW WE SHARE MOST THINGS BUT THIS I WOULD RATHER KEEP TO MYSELF, ITS FINE ZENA I WILL COVER FOR YOU, GRABBING MY BAG AND HEADED TO SCHOOL.