Cold Rose

Chapter Four

We all have a past. It's either our own personal prison,our excuse or our stepping stone to the future.

But one thing is certain until we break the chain that binds us to our past we will never be able to move on in life.

Or in my case a barrier to my relationship life. For so long I have been a victim of an abusive relationship all in the name of love.

And the chain binding me to my past is forgiveness. I can't bring myself to forgive him and myself for all the pain he has cost me and for me being so stupid that I didn't know the difference between love, lust and abuse.

I was so in love that I did everything in my power to keep him,I went against all my values, my beliefs and my upbringing to keep him.

I was head over heels for him and he was my everything,he was my own little secret that I hid from my entire family, something I have never done before.

As the last born and the only girl in the house my brothers and my parents treat me with so much love and care that I sometimes feel like I'm a priceless and fragile jewel. So they tend to meddle in my personal matters all the damn time.

I'm sure that if my brothers could they will carry me on their shoulders and take me wherever I want to go, all it takes for my brothers to turn down the entire house and the whole of L.A is for me to shed a single tear or simply scream.

But having three over protective brothers is not always fun.

They always chase away any guy that shows interest in me,I mean come on a girl needs a guy that isn't her brother around.

And that was one of the reasons I kept him and our relationship a secret.

Okay now I'm going off the main topic. But what can I do i have alot on my mind.

Back to the topic I was so desperate to keep him that I didn't even tell my other half, the only person who knows everything about me, my source of joy and comfort, my twin.

Even if I don't tell my parents or my two elder brothers about something that I'm doing or something along the lines of that I always tell my twin brother everything.

Ken is my partner in crime since we were in the womb and he still is.

He sometimes even knows exactly what I'm thinking about without me telling him. I think it has something to do with the twins telepathic s**t.

It's very useful at times cause I'm not that good at expressing my emotions but it's also annoying at times.

"Hey doll" Ken shouted and jumped on my bed.

"Are you trying to give me a heart attack or something" I said with my hand on my chest.

"Sorry little sis" he smiled

"We are twins" I fired back

"Yes but I'm still older than you" he smirked

"By five minutes" I shouted

"Whatever i just came to tell you that I want your annoying ass to get ready cause we are going out" he said

"Where are we going to?" I asked while giving him a look over, he is about five ft nine,Ken is slim and Abit muscular, his eyes are a bright blue color like the ocean, his hair and eyebrows are black , he has an oval shaped face like me with luscious pink lips. And he is wearing a black polo shirt, white jean trousers and black combat boots.

If he wasn't my twin I will totally do him,but I won't tell him he is good looking, it will only boost his already massive ego.

"In case you need a reminder school starts tomorrow and I want to spend the day with my twin. Unless you don't want to" he suddenly stands and starts heading out of my room

"Of course I want to go out with you frog face and school has already started" I ran to him and jumped on his back.

"Yesterday was like a welcome ceremony, so dhur, now go get dressed"

"I'm already dressed now start walking"

Ken walks down the stairs with me on his back. I love piggyback rides *laughs*

"Stop moving fatso" Ken tauted

"Please you are fatter than me maybe that's why you don't have a girlfriend" I shot back.

Before I could even shout I feel my ass on the cold kitchen floor.

"Why did you do that" I whined

"Cause you called me fat"

"But you called me fat first" I retorted

"Stop fighting you guys" Derek shouted and came into the room, he picked me from the floor like a doll and put me on his shoulders.

which causes Ken to start laughing.

"Put me down D" I shouted at my hunk of a brother. He is the first child while Daniel his twin brother is the second born of the family they are both identical twins and they are both 21 years old and in their final year in college.

Daniel is studying to be a medical doctor while Derek is studying bussiness, as the first child he will be the one to take over our fathers bussiness.

Derek is your typical jock who loves and plays all types of sports, he loves parties and has a million friends and girls flocking around him while Daniel is the nerdy twin who loves to be on his own either reading, playing the piano or spending time with his family.

They are both so different yet the same, just like Ken and I they are also each other's best friends.

"Why would I do that" the cocky bastard asks.

"Cause Daniel is eating your sweet delicious pizza" I laugh

"What" he turns and sees Daniel sitting at the dinning table and eating his delicious pizza. This is going to be fun

"Daniel" he shouted and lunged for the dining table.

"Now that's how you do it" I laughed and fist bumped Ken

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Ken I spent the entire day going from one place to another. First we went to the mall and bought some school supplies and Ken forcefully made me try out some clothes that aren't exactly my style but he said I looked 'like a model' in them.

We ended up buying more stuff than planned and now we are at the ice cream parlor.

I follow behind Ken as he leads us through the small parlor and stops in front of one of the booths. The table as a red and white checked tablecloths.

The whole place is decorated with different deserts and ice cream posters, it has a homey and warm feel.

"I'll go order for us" Ken says and walks to the counter, I look around and see families and couples having delicious deserts together but a particular table catches my eyes.

A blonde girl is feeding ice cream to a boy sitting across from her, they are both smiling a million dollars smile, like the sun has been handed to them.

"Here is your delicious vanilla and strawberry ice cream with sprinkles" Ken sets my ice cream before me and sat opposite me.

After we finished our delicious treats Ken drove us home and upon arrival I head straight to my room. I didn't even bother to bring up my shopping bags but hey that's what brother are for right.