I don't know how we both got here, or what got us to this point in our life. Things have changed a lot in our lives and I get that, I do but what really affects me Is that how do things taking such a drastic change and how can it get so f****d up. This is all so new and a first for me, everything is. And I am sure it is for Lucas as well which only makes me feel horrible that he has to go through all of this because of me.
Things were going smoothly and for sure that can get boring sometimes when things are too smooth. But this much adventure in life is not something I wanted ever or want now. I hate this stupid feeling I am having right now, still sitting in the car and looking out at the road. While Lucas was still resting on the bench all alone. Even though I wanted to be with him righ
