The email arrived before dinner.
By seven twelve the next morning I had decided no.
By seven nineteen I had read the project description twice.
At seven thirty-one I called Adrian.
He answered on the second ring.
“Good morning.”
“Absolutely not.”
A pause.
Then, “Good morning, Nina.”
“You’re one of the terms.”
“Usually people ask about compensation before rejecting me
personally.”
“The compensation is obscene.”
“So your objection is philosophical.”
“My objection is you.”
There was a low sound that might have been a laugh.
The Meridian Review concerned a chain of intelligence-sharing
failures across several European institutions. The access was. extraordinary. The questions were exactly the ones I cared about: what
happens when organizations possess pieces of the truth but fail to
assemble them? How do hierarchy, culture, incentives and professional
identity distort what moves upward?
The project would take four months.
Brussels. Copenhagen. Vienna. Stockholm.
It was academic catnip wrapped in Adrian Varen.
“I want independence,” I said.
“You’ll have it.”
“I choose my methodology.”
“Yes.”
“You don’t edit my conclusions.”
“No.”
“And if I decide your company is part of the problem?”
“Then I expect footnotes.”
I hated how much I liked that answer.
“Seven,” I said.
“What?”
“There were seven studies yesterday.”
“I know.”
“You said six.”
“I wanted to see if you’d correct me.”
“You’re insufferable.” “I’ve been told.”
“On six languages?”
Silence.
Then he laughed.
It was the first time I heard him laugh properly.
It did something inconvenient to my stomach.
Three days later I signed.