ARIANA'S POV
The clock on my desk read six fifteen.
I'd been staring at the same page of the manuscript for twenty minutes. The words blurred together. Ancient Greek symbols that usually came easy to me now looked like meaningless scratches.
I rubbed my eyes and leaned back in my chair. The office was quiet. Too quiet. Everyone else had gone home hours ago.
This was normal for me. Staying late. Avoiding going back to my empty apartment for as long as possible.
The museum closed at five. Visitors left. Staff packed up and headed out. But I had permission to work after hours. My boss didn't mind as long as I locked up properly.
I looked around my small office. More like a closet really. Just big enough for a desk, a chair, and floor-to-ceiling shelves crammed with books and boxes of artifacts waiting to be cataloged.
This was my life now. Twelve years after that night. Twelve years of building something small and safe and far from anything that reminded me of fire and blood and my parents' faces in that terrible chamber.
I worked as an archivist. Organizing ancient texts. Recording files most people ignore.
It was a quiet work, peaceful work. The kind of job where I could disappear into research and not think about the past.
Most days it worked. Most days I could lose myself in manuscripts and pottery shards and pretend I was just a normal twenty-four-year-old woman with a normal boring job.
But today wasn't most days.
I'd had the nightmare again last night. The same one that had been haunting me for twelve years. Fire, screaming, masked figures. My parents' cold eyes as they stood over that altar.
I'd woken up at three in the morning drenched in sweat and shaking. Couldn't fall back asleep. I spent the rest of the night staring at the ceiling and trying not to think about things I'd spent years trying to forget.
Now I was exhausted and unable to focus on the work that usually kept my mind occupied.
I should go home, make dinner, take my medication. Try to get some actual sleep tonight.
But the thought of walking into that tiny studio apartment alone made my chest tight. The walls always felt like they were closing in when I was tired. When the nightmares were fresh.
My phone buzzed. A text from my therapist reminding me about our appointment tomorrow. I sent back a quick confirmation and shoved the phone in my bag.
I have gone to therapy twice a month for the past six years. We usually talk about my anxiety, insomnia and trust issues. Never talking about the real reason for any of it because Dr. Morrison thought my trauma came from being abandoned by my parents in a tragic accident.
I'd learned early on that telling the truth about what I really saw got me labeled as delusional. Got me pitying looks and concerned suggestions about psychiatric evaluations.
So I lied. Told a story about abandonment and loss that people could understand and accept. I kept the nightmares about rituals and serpent symbols to myself.
I packed up my things. Locked the manuscript in the secure cabinet. Turned off my desk lamp.
Time to face the world outside my safe quiet office.
The museum was dark as I walked through the main gallery.
I locked the main door behind me and stepped out into the Brooklyn evening. The air was warm. Summer was coming. People were out on the streets. Walking dogs, pushing strollers, living normal lives.
I headed toward my apartment building three blocks away. I kept my head down. Avoided eye contact. The usual routine.
My building was old. Cheap. The kind of place where the heat barely worked in winter and the AC never worked in summer. But the rent was affordable and it was close to work.
I'd lived there for two years. Longer than I'd stayed anywhere since aging out of foster care. That felt like an accomplishment even if it was a small one.
As I approached the front steps, I saw Mrs. Chen from apartment 2B sitting outside with her grandson. And Marcus from apartment 3A watering the sad little plants in the window boxes he'd installed last month.
I should just walk past. Give a quick nod and keep going. That's what I usually did.
But something made me stop. Maybe exhaustion or loneliness or maybe just the desperate need to feel normal for five minutes.