Bitter Reality

First Hug

There are certain things which you want desperately but don't know how to say it out loud, but then there are things which you say out loud and don't regret saying them...

Naina's POV

For me this was important, I wanted to know how it would be like to have his arms around me. Whether I would feel awkward under his touch or not, how my body would react when his fingertips would touch my almost bare waist. I wanted to know and feel all of this from the moment I decided to give this a chance. This simple thing would have made a huge difference, my instinct would let me know whatever I am doing is right or not instantly. This is exactly what happened.

The moment those three words left my mouth Kabir grinned like a boy which distracted me for a moment until his fingertips touched my bare back. Firstly my body stiffened, but as he reduced the distance between our bodies, my body relaxed under his touch which was quite surprising.

I have never hugged anybody except my brother, parents, and Kia but of course, that doesn't count. I felt safe as he tightened his grip and my hands embraced his back. I closed my eyes to let myself soak in at this moment. I don't know for how many seconds, minutes or hours we stood by like this but it felt like an eternity. His arms around me pacified my nerves, it immediately became one of my favorite place to be I know how gibberish that sounds but that's me Naina we are talking about.

This weird situation of ours made me think about 'Rockstar' movie when Heer hugs Jordan for the first time she felt something unusual and I too felt my heart moving, my mind reeling and my nerves calming. Even his scent was intoxicating and made me weak in my legs. My heart seriously skipped a beat and for the first time, I felt something different in me...

Reluctantly I loosened my grip on Kabir's back. He instantly withdrew his hands from my back as well. My body instantly felt that void which was filled with this hands around me. I wish I could have held onto him a little longer but I knew I couldn't. I hesitated a bit before looking into his eyes. I was afraid to witness his deep, soulful eyes. I was scared knowing my eyes are way too expressive, he would know what I felt at that moment.

"I wish I could spend my whole life like this holding you close and let no harm come to you." He whispered in his mellifluous voice which tingled my ear and made the hair of my neck stand.

His words made me look into his eyes and I was stunned. He was smiling but behind that smile, I could feel his eyes piercing into mine looking for answers which I was too afraid to answer myself. I wish I could tell him what I felt at that moment, I wish I could tell him that no one has hugged me like this ever before, I have never felt safe in anyone's arms but I restrained myself from saying this out loud. There are certain things which are better left unsaid anyway.

"Penny for your thoughts," he asked me leaning towards me curiosity was evident by the tone of his voice.

"Nothing, why?" I said instantly and stopped toying with my hands. He shooked his head and said nothing for a while.

"Whenever I feel low or extremely happy, I look at this infinite sky and feel grateful for what I have. It just takes away all of my tensions and soothes me from inside. It is like a balm on my wounded confidence. It repairs me, it makes me ponder about things which I never thought were important. It makes me realize what I have and today I couldn't have asked for anything else. When I first saw your photo, I knew it in my heart that you are the one. I just knew it. Now, here we are together standing under this spectacular sky. I don't believe there is anything more sacred then this and today I want to promise you something." He said and extended his towards me, for the first since I got here without hesitating or without thinking this any further, I placed my hands in his.

"Naina, I don't know what our life has stored in for us in the future but at this moment, I want to share my life with you. It won't be easy though but I would try my level best to keep you as comfortable as I can. I won't stop you from doing what you want to do and give you all the space you want in your life. I would be patient enough to let time bring us close, close enough that you could trust me with yourself, with your thoughts and with your feelings. I would give us enough time to know each other well. Our responsibilities at home would be equal, I want to be a part of your life, a part of you the way you have become mine. I don't know what it is, but when I talk to you or think about you it feels so unusually normal. It feels as if we know each other from years. I know marriage seems like a burden but in our situation, it won't be if we communicate with each other before jumping onto conclusions. I want you to trust me Naina with this, I want you to never give up and never let me give up. I would work on this till.." before he could say further I jumped in.

"Until we feel there is there is nothing else we can do. We won't force ourselves to live together, we would leave each other before love, trust and understanding leave us. I don't believe in forever so let's not make this about forever, please. I won't give up Kabir, I won't. I want to give this a chance." I completed and my eyes soften when his words registered in my brain and seep in what I end up saying.

He just chuckled the way I completed his words and I blushed profusely.

Our Little bubble was soon broken by Sanaya knocking the door and asking the permission to come in. We both said in unison," Come in" and she laughed at this.

We both were standing a little to close which made her smile wide. I quickly freed my hands from Kabir's hold And distanced myself a little bit. Thankfully Kabir didn't notice all this.

"Umm Bhai it is time that we should leave. It is already past twelve and also we have some rituals to do tomorrow early morning, " she said sadly.

"Ooh okay let's go then, " I said feeling sad too. But Kabir turned to me and said," okay go we are coming in just a Minute. "

She nodded and left.

"So okay now that we know a few things about each other and also I am also not going anywhere till our marriage isn't over. I will call you every day. And remember one thing Naina" he said coming closer to me making my heartbeat quick and whispered in my ears giving me goosebumps.

"YOU ARE MINE AND I DON'T SHARE WHAT IS MINE," he said winking at me and my cheeks heated up immediately.

I mean nobody has ever said these kind of things for me. But knowing that Kabir is saying this makes my cheeks burn and I was all red by then.

He just smirked at my reaction and took my hand in his and literally dragged me outside!

At this moment I don't care what will happen when I will be married. What are the possibilities of me falling for Kabir! How all of this would work out in the end? All these are not meant to be answered today. With time everything will become clear! There is one thing which I know for sure that if Kabir continues to be this sweet I will definitely fall for him sooner than later decided!