Bitter Reality

Very Special

You cannot explain certain feelings, words are not enough to convey what is in your heart or maybe you are just scared to confront them to yourself...

Naina's POV

At times you don't have any Idea what you should feel and Kabir is someone who is totally unknown to me yet day by day I am coming closer to him. My heart wants to trust him but my mind warns me every time when I am just about to confess this trust to him. From inside it is all so complicated and if he did anything wrong or played with my emotions then I will be shattered to an extent from where I can never come back. Even if I want I cannot give him this power to dominate my emotions, cannot give him permission to play with my emotions, it is going to break me and this time I wouldn't be able to mend myself again ever.

When my Mehendi function was over as Kabir said everyone retired to their respected rooms, leaving me and Kia in the main hall.

"Hurry up, change this dress and get ready!" Kia clapped her hands flashing me a megawatt smile!

"Relax Kia, stop making all of this a big deal," I said rolling my eyes and she gave me her death glare look.

"Naina, stop being so mean all the time yaar. Stop pretending like you don't care, stop pretending like Kabir means nothing to you. You have to let your guard down Naina, you have to him in! He is sweet, handsome, funloving, loveable and let's not forget he is a sweetheart! If I would have been in place of you, I would have fallen for him till now!" She said looking straight into my eyes. Her words pierced my soul and every word was ringing in my ears making me feel guilty.

I had nothing to say. I couldn't utter a single word just nodded and made my way upstairs to my room. As soon as I reached my room I locked it and let a lone tear fall.

"I wish I was as sorted as you are Kia, I wish my parents were like yours, I wish I hadn't seen my parents hating each other yet living under the same roof making me hate this relationship called marriage," I whispered to myself and closed my eyes for a moment before getting ready.

I decided to wear a beige color Kurta paired it with a plain same color palazzo and on top of that, I draped a black pashmina shawl over me to keep myself warm enough. I kept my hair down and did not apply any make-up.

Just when I was done my phone vibrated. It was a message from Kabir which I opened quickly, "I am here come down quickly".

Until now I was doing okay but when I read his message my heart started beating wildly, I was nervous Like hell. I came downstairs as quietly as it was possible for me and made my way towards the hall. I was about to exit when I heard somebody calling my name holy crap.

I slowly turned around and when I saw that was it my own brother I visibly relaxed.

"So he is here? "Aditya bhai asked me raising his eyebrows at me.

My hands were sweaty and as usual, because I was nervous I couldn't utter anything so I just shook my head in affirmative. He came towards me and said," it is okay Naina, I trust him and you will also trust him one day. Just give it some time. "He Kissed my forehead and signaled me to go by giving me a reassuring smile.

The moment I left my home my eyes were only searching for him. When my eyes catch the sight of him I paralyzed seeing this Adonis in front of me. I mean how can anybody look this much devilishly handsome in just simple blue jeans and black button-up shirt. I was gawking at him shamefully and unabashedly to which he just smirked.

He came to me dangerously closed and whispered into my ears, "If you are done checking me out then we should leave otherwise we both will do something that we will regret." He took my hands in his and opened the car door for me. I was not able to look into his eyes I was embarrassed as hell and was blushing already.

The moment he started the car I asked him where we were going but he has to annoyed me by not telling me. I groaned from inside feeling defeated. I sighed and huffed.

Finally, after half an hour of driving in silence, Kabir stopped the car. It was so dark outside that it was difficult for me to know where we were.

"Wait for me," Kabir said to me looking nervous. The tension was visible on his forehead, I don't know what his plan was but looking at his countenance he looked quite serious.

"Where are we? Is everything okay?" I asked but he didn't respond instead opened my side of the door and held my hand before I could protest. The moment I stepped out of the car, the cold air hit my cheeks making me shiver I immediately covered myself with the shawl.

He led me to a park which was eerily quiet. Well obviously at this point of time hardly anybody visits. He stopped abruptly and looked at me with some emotion that I couldn't read.

"You must be thinking that why are we here and that too at this point of time when today officially we will be married. But I wanted you to come to this place with me. This place holds a very special place in my life." He said smiling to himself thinking of something which is still not clear to me.

Okay, where is he going with all this? Since I didn't want to assume stupid things which I know my mind is capable of. So putting all my stupid thoughts aside I turned to him and gave him a reassuring smile so that he can continue.

"This is where my mom and dad first met. Also, this is the same spot where my dad proposed my mother. I wanted you to know that maybe we are not in love right now but I wanted to be with you here. You have become a huge part of my life Naina that too at such a short span of time and I never had this urge of protecting someone in my life, but the moment I saw you I knew I would want to protect you to no matter what." He said with so much fondness as he reminisced about his parents, my eyes brimmed with tears but I controlled my emotions. I cannot spoil this moment, I cannot fall apart like this. The way he was looking straight into my eyes as if seeing straight into my soul made me wanted to hug him so hard as to never let him go.

I don't what came over me at that moment but I reduced the gap between us and moved closer to him and cupped his cheeks. He relaxed under my touch which made my heart swell.

"I am a lucky girl Kabir that I am marrying you. I feel blessed at this moment, just thinking of what you said, it is just amazing. When I first saw your parents I could feel it even after so many years I have noticed the way your father looks at your mother. It is pure love and yes you are right, right now we are not in love but I am glad that I am here with Because I also want our relationship just to be like your parents. This sweet gesture of yours has proved that you do care for me. " I said and smiled thinking about the two of them. They really are the most lovable couple I have ever seen. Seeing them made me realize that true love does exist in this world it is just we have to wait for the right time and for the right person.

Kabir pulled me to his side and hugged me, my head was on his chest and his hands were on my waist. It was so sudden and so needed, it felt as if he sensed that I wanted this as much as him. I have been waiting for this moment to come, I was waiting to be back in his arms since that night. How crazy this sounds I know but there are certain people with whom you feel complete and with Kabir, I feel exactly this. I feel complete.

"I have something special for you. Hope you like it." He said excitedly taking out a small box which was wrapped in a baby pink paper from his back pocket.

Hesitantly I took that box from his hand and my fingers brushed with his setting my whole body on fire. I opened the box carefully and I could feel his eyes on me! I gasped when I opened the box what I saw was something beyond beautiful. It was a simple chain with an oval shaped silver cut solitaire diamond. It was classy and elegant.

"Did you like it?" He asked and curiosity was clear in his eyes.

"Are you kidding me? This is the same pendant I saw when I went shopping with Sanaya. At that time, I couldn't purchase it because it was already late and we had to leave all of a sudden. One minute, did she tell you about this?" I asked him and he smiled sheepishly.

Fuck!

"Kabir, this pendant was limited edition, it cost 3 lacs! You really didn't have to do this Kabir. I don't know what to say!" I said and regretted them as soon as I saw Kabir's face fell.

He recovered quickly and giving my hands a squeeze said, "Trust me I can afford it".

And with that, he took it from my hands and signaled me to turn. Gently he scooped all of my hairs to one side and put the pendant on my neck repeatedly brushing his fingers on my neck purposely. I swear but at that moment I shut my eyes closed and never wanted him to stop. Suddenly I felt his hands leave my neck and I immediately felt the coldness and wanted his hands to be there.

What has gotten into me? I thought and to my surprise, before I could think any further, he came close to my ears and said huskily, "now it is looking more beautiful. "

I just blushed and changed the subject. I am very bad when it comes to taking compliments!