Love or money

Getting Drunk .

He drove for what seems like hours and I must say I felt at peace, a lot has been going on and the breeze blowing my hair and giving me all that rush made me feel at peace, this is the first time I felt at peace with Mr Avian and I love this feeling. He came to stop the car on the high way and we just sat looking at each other, hope you feel better now and why did you leave the party? Nothing I said, do you love that guy that much that it hurt to see him dancing with another? I just smiled at his comment. Don’t worry he will come back to you, no one in his right senses will leave a girl like you, I hope so!

For the first time we spoke and it feels great to finally get to know him just a bit and I discovered he is not as bad as I thought, but nothing can happen between us, I won’t leave Jake because of another man, when my dad left I know how hard it was for my mom to finally get over him, I won’t bother you again Heaven! Just be happy with him and you don’t have to worry about me or anyone just make sure you are happy Mr Avian said . It felt like my world just shattered before me. I am suppose to be delighted that he is finally leaving me but why do I feel sad, I want to open my mouth to tell him not to leave me but I can’t, I like his company but I’m too committed to Jake to go with another man, even tho I saw him dancing with another girl, I know it’s just the alcohol, he will come back to me. It’s time to get you home, he drove me back home and I stayed silent all the way, I don’t want him to leave me but I can’t ask him to stay, I weaved him Good bye. I brought out my phone and I was eager because I thought I would have had messages from Jake but Nothing. I called my mom and I was happy to hear her say my Grandmother is getting better but she will be staying longer than expected, and the good news is that they were able to settle their differences, my mom sounded so happy that I felt her happiness, this is what she has always wanted and I’m happy she is having the opportunity to be that daughter and support her parent once again.

I have to prepare for my audition, I hope I get into the agency, it will be great for my career and since I don’t have to get any extra job I can now focus on becoming a super model.

I thought about my life and that was all I did through the night, hoping to get a call from Jake but he never did. I woke up and the first thing I did was to check my phone but nothing, I won’t call him, I went for the Audition and I was picked, I met models that had better walk and great height but I was picked, I felt intimidated at first but I had to give my best and that was what I did. I’m going out to celebrate with Vivian tonight and my mom was so happy that I got in, she is my number one fan, Jake has never liked the ideal of me modeling because he believe models go naked just for the pay, but modeling is more than that and it’s just like any other job or more. Hey bad b***h! Vivian call me that each time I decide to slay, I decided to slay tonight by wearing a red body suit that huge tight to my skin, made my hair into weaves. Vivian look extra herself as she wore a mini gown that highlighted her figures, if you didn’t know us you will think we are out for boys hunting. Vivian is in a long distance relationship and I don’t know how she cope but it has been working well for them and she won’t dare look at another man. We got to the club and hit the dance floor, I don’t want to think about anything else, not Jake or Mr Avian, tonight is about me, we stuck with each other, dance and drink like we didn’t give a f**k, I will say I’m drunk right now. There were lots of guys making moves on us but we didn’t go there for them.

The night was over and we indeed had too much to drink, we managed to call a taxi, I got home and trying to search for my keys as I was too drunk, where have you been and why are you dress like that?? Jake ? I turned and there he was, scolding me after leaving me for two day without calling . Why do you care and why are you here! You left me alone at the party to dance with another girl and you didn’t even bother to call, did you even know how I got home?? I lost my phone baby ! I came here hoping to meet you at home but this is what I met, he looked at me like he hated the way I was dress, I kept quite looking at him and I saw that look of guilt in him. I’m sorry I should have come to you earlier. Jake apologized and I did too, I miss you baby! I miss you more, we hugged, he came closer and he know how to get to me, he held my face in his palm and staring at me like that, all the dirty thoughts in the world came to me, I couldn’t control it, I grabbed him and crushed my lips against his, he matched my energy and I can’t believe we are actually making out in front of my house, I don’t know if it’s the alcohol but this need for him just flushed over me, we made out till he reach for my zipper and that brought me back to reality. Babe we can’t do this here, let’s go to my apartment baby he replied. No we can’t, I’m not ready yet, remember my 21st birthday promise, he nodded and we kissed again and said Good nights.