Finding herself

Chapter 8: Meaning of life

We walked outside and the cold air surrounded us but didn't slow us down. He turned left and we started walking on a sidewalk.

"Where are we going?" I asked him. I'm not about to walk 10 miles just for some fun.

"That building there," he pointed to a white tall apartment building about a hundred feet in front of us. "I live here. Come on." He smiled at me and eased my nerves. We walked the rest of the way in silence and when we reached the building, he opened the door and stepped inside, holding the door open for me.

As I stepped inside, he closed the door and pulled me in for a kiss, leaning on the door. We kissed like that for a while, our tongues in sync. His hands were on my sides, pushing me slightly into the door, my hands behind his head, pulling him to me.

He suddenly pulled away, much to my dismay. He put his forehead on mine and looked into my eyes. His eyes were flicking between

their normal hazel color and bright blue. It was so sexy on him and I smiled at him, putting my hand on his stubble and gently stroking it.

"We're not doing this here." He said while taking my hand in his again and showing me the way to his apartment. We walked up five flights of stairs and he stopped, unlocked the door, and pushed it open. He gestured for me to go inside first and I didn't complain.

I walked past him, swaying my hips more than normal, just in case he was looking. And I guess he was because the next thing I heard was the door pushed closed and he hugged me from the back again, pushing my back to his front, so that I could feel every muscle of his body and something else too.

He moved the hair from the side of my neck and started kissing it up and down, his hands found my t**s and gently massaged them. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling he gave me. His hands then left my t**s and took off my jacket. He threw it on the floor and turned me to him.

He kissed me passionately and my need for him grew stronger and stronger. I found my way to the buttons on his shirt and started to undo them, while still kissing him. I undid all of them and took off his shirt. His tongue was now dancing with mine with more need than before and he unzipped my dress while simultaneously walking backward and tugging me with him.

His hands pulled my dress from my shoulders, touching every inch of my skin while doing so. The dress fell to the floor and I broke the kiss, only to find out, we were now in his room. I stepped over the dress and undid the button and zipper on his pants.

He kissed me again briefly and pushed me gently onto the bed. He took off his pants and laid on top of me. His hands found the strap of my bra and trailed it down my shoulder and arm. He kissed my shoulder and made his way to my t**s, kissing every few seconds.

He removed one of my t**s from the cage of the bra and began kissing it, making me moan in pleasure. At the same time, he found the clasp of my bra, opened it, and took it off of me. He kissed my n****e, licked it, and sucked it lightly from time to time. The action was making me roll my eyes and I pushed my hips into him, wanting more.

He obliged and his hand found its way to my panties, pulling them down my legs and he threw them on the floor. I pulled him in for another kiss, while he parted my legs and was now laying between them.

I felt his fingers gliding from my knee up. They reached my p***y and stroked it lightly. I needed him more than that and pushed my hips higher while tugging on his hair. He growled and started to play with my c**t, gently rubbing it in a circular motion.

I broke the kiss and moaned loudly from the pleasure I have never felt before. This man knew what he was doing.

"You like that, huh?" His raspy voice asked me, the pleasure intensifying. I nodded and he leaned to my ear.

"I'm gonna f**k you until you scream." I held my breath for a second from anticipation and I knew he heard it.

I opened my eyes just to see him smile and one of his fingers found its way inside me. I gasped at the unexpected motion and pulled him for a kiss again. If he wouldn't be kissing me, I would start to think and the mood will be ruined. I needed him to make me focus all my senses on him.

He slowly moved his finger in and out, while his thumb was still rubbing my c**t at the same pace. After a while, he added another finger and the pleasure intensified. He then pushed his fingers in as far as he could and curved them. With that, he found a spot that made my ears ring from need.

He quickened his pace and my breathing got louder and quicker. I didn't know how much more I could handle and then he sucked on my n****e unexpectedly. Something in me felt like it exploded and I felt like a pleasure bomb went off. I couldn't breathe, I could only close my eyes and pushed my hips into his hand to extend the orgasm.

He didn't stop f*****g me with his fingers and the explosion lasted quite a while. When it was over, I felt like I was floating, my legs felt numb and I was exhausted.

"We're not done yet." He said seductively and the need for him was there again. He pulled his fingers out. With a quick motion, he pulled his boxers down and I could see his d**k spring out. I read about what it looks like, but this was so much more than I anticipated. I turned my eyes away, suddenly feeling self-conscious.

"You don't need to look away. Watch as I enter you for the best f**k of your life." I didn't know why, but his dirty talk turned me on a lot. I looked into his eyes, which were now pure blue.

He pulled a condom from his nightstand and opened the package with his teeth. I watched how he put it on with one quick move and my p***y was tingling from the need.

He positioned himself between my legs and kissed my lips, his tongue dancing with mine.

I felt his d**k touch my aching p***y and he slowly pushed it in, stopping a couple of times for me to adjust to his size. Every time he pushed deeper, it hurt a little, but the pain was subdued when he waited and kissed me, distracting me.

When he pushed himself deep enough, he began thrusting in and out, slowly. One of his hands found my hip and held me in place while another massaged my t**s. He broke the kiss and moved to my neck, kissing and nibbling it, from my shoulder to my ear and back.

His movements made me throw my head back in pleasure and I pushed my t**s toward him. He quickened the pace a little and I felt a ball of pleasure growing in my stomach. Then his hand left my hip and found my c**t, rubbing it in a circular motion, and the sensation made my orgasm explode again. He kept thrusting in me, while I rode the orgasm out, thinking it was over.

He pulled himself out of me slowly and sat on his legs.

"Turn around, elbows on the bed." His command was as sexy as he was and I happily obliged. I turned around, and put my elbows on the bed. I felt him position himself behind me. His hands found my hips and pulled my butt back more so that it was sticking in the air and my head was almost touching the mattress.

He entered me again, slowly, but soon quickened the pace, using my hips to bring me more into him. He kept shoving himself in and out of me, the force of need growing with each thrust. The tip of his d**k kept hitting my most sensitive spot and I came undone again, this time even more intensively and I couldn't help but scream in pleasure I have never felt before.

He kept thrusting in me, but suddenly more slowly, but with even more force and I heard him grunt. When I was finished, he pulled himself out of me and laid on the bed next to me, while I just face-planted into the bed.

My breathing was hitched and I heard he was as well. I felt like he drained my energy and it felt so good. I felt like I was in heaven.

"I told you you were going to scream." I heard him say and I turned to face him. He was smiling at me and I couldn't help but laugh. "You were right. It was amazing. This is the meaning of life right here." I said to him and turned around to face the ceiling, smiling.

"Was this your first time?" He asked me all of a sudden. I faced him again and I felt my cheeks heat up. I nodded at him and asked, "how did you know?"

"I could smell the blood when we started. I thought I hurt you somehow." I suddenly felt guilty.

"Sorry, I should have told you. But I didn't know if you would want to do it with a virgin."

He turned to face me.

"Nonsense. I'm flattered to be your first. At least you got an amazing first experience." He winked at me and I laughed. "You're not wrong there. Definitely worth remembering. I feel stupid to ask you this now, but I never got your name."

It was his turn to laugh now. "It's Sebastian. And you are?"

"Anya."

He stuck his hand out to me and I shook it. "Nice to meet you." We started laughing then and I faced the ceiling again.

Sebastian stood up from the bed and I watched him walk to the door. He had perfectly formed muscles, a nice toned body, and tanned skin. But what intrigued me the most was his perfectly round butt that a lot of girls would be jealous of. Hell, I'm jealous of it.

He walked out and I stood up from the bed to look for my bra and panties. I was dressed when he came back, while he was still naked.

My cheeks heated up and I looked away.

'You just f****d him and you're embarrassed to look at his junk now?' Onyx said, startling me.

'Welcome back from the land of the dead. And yes, I don't want him to see me ogling him. He'll think I'm a pervert.' I replied to her while fixing my hair.

'Well, you are. And so am I. So can we admire this gorgeous man some more?'

'No, I don't want him seeing me looking at him. I can still feel the sensation of his d**k, it's enough for me.' I said and that was the end of the conversation. I could feel her having a tantrum but there have to be some boundaries.

I turned back around and saw he has dressed in his boxers again and leaning on the wall, probably waiting for me.

I smiled at him and I remembered what Maya said to me.

"Hey, can you call Maya? She said she will come to get me. I don't know how to get home."

"She knows and is on her way. Should be here soon." I saw he held my shoes in his hands and handed them to me. When did he call her? I didn't hear anything.

I put the shoes on and stood back upright. I saw Sebastian stand closer to me and pulled me into him. He kissed me passionately, but slowly and it felt like the perfect way to end the night.

There was a knock on the door and we broke apart. Sebastian held my hand and guided me to the front door. He let go of me and opened it. On the other side stood Maya, with a c****d eyebrow and a grin on her face.

"Damn, you guys, you sure took your time. I have been waiting for hours. We have to go now if we want to get some sleep before work." She crossed her arms in front of her chest and only then did I realize it was already sunny out.

"Well, time flies when you have fun," Sebastian said and winked at me. I shook my head and smiled at him.

"See you, Sebastian," I told him and walked towards Maya. I heard her laugh quickly and I turned back around to look at Sebastian again. He smiled at me, winked again, and closed the door.