I can't believe that I admitted to Bou that I can't live without him. He just kept yelling at me and while I could understand his anger I couldn't not defend myself. The words just tumbled from my lips in my state of anger. I knew Bou was furious with me the whole walk here. When he tried to leave without talking to me, panic surged through me. I kept thinking he was going to leave and come back to reject me. As mean as I have been to him, as much as I've been pushing him away, I needed him. I hated admitting it but I need him. I was still not willing to jump into things all willy nilly but I do want to try. I just need a bit of time to take a big step with him.
When tears started to spill out of my eyes I wasn't sure what to do. I never cry in front of people, yet this is was what, the
