After I stormed away from Ahkari I felt guilty. Why did I act that way? I wasn't even sure if I wanted to be with her in the first place but I get mad that she isn't openly gay? What is wrong with me?
Part of me wonders if she isn't actually gay. She did tell me that she would be disappointed if I was a male. I should have stayed and asked her about it. Maybe I was just scared to hear what she has to say. What if she tells me that she wants us to have a third mate? No way could I do that.
Rushing back to my room I shut the door behind me and leaned against it. Maybe I was getting in too deep. I mean, Ahkari is my mate but this is all a bit much. I never wanted a mate in the first place. I let myself go with Ahkari because it felt right, it felt good. I should have kept my distance and at
