A Second Chance at Love

Unwanted Advances

Chapter 6

Parker’s POV

Trigger Warning: Unconsensual Sex

I woke up slowly, but something was wrong. I liked to sleep on my side, but I’m on my back. I was cold; my covers had been swept off me. Nolan was between my legs, touching me. This was a new experience, and for a moment I allowed it. It felt great, but then I remembered what I found out last night. I felt bile rise in my throat. I don't want to have s*x with him. He deceived me for years. How could he even try to have s*x with me after what he's done? I don’t want his disgusting hands on me, and I attempted to close my legs, but his shoulders made it impossible.

“Nolan, I don’t want to do this. I’m not feeling well,” I pleaded. I hoped that he would listen to me and stop, but he didn’t.

“Relax, Parker. You're being uptight. I’ve been wanting to do this with you for a while. Don't worry, baby. I promise you that you're going to enjoy it,” he replied, going right back to what he was doing.

I tugged on his hair to try to pull his mouth away from me, but he just kept going. I didn’t want this, but he ignored my wishes. Another glaring red flag waving right in front of my face. He should get consent. Even if we're married, he shouldn’t just assume that I was willing. I don’t know what he was thinking, but I knew I didn’t want this. I tried to focus on something else so he would give up, but Nolan was skilled. I could feel the o****m building inside, and knew I couldn’t stop it.

I was stunned at how hard I came, despite not wanting Nolan to touch me. I still loved him. You can't just turn the love you have off like turning a switch. If it had only been an affair, and he cut her loose, I hate admitting that I would have stayed. But he was behind my parents’ deaths. He was a murderer. I clearly never knew him at all. I knew what he wanted me to know about him. I didn’t know if anything between us had ever been real, or if it was just my wishful thinking.

Nolan confidently slid into me while I was still coming down from my c****x. His quick thrust into me caused my o****m to continue to wash over me. He started thrusting into me with abandon. This wasn’t the tempo he normally kept; it was much quicker and more forceful, and I hated to admit it, but it felt great. What didn’t feel great was remembering how he had done the same thing just last night with Brandie. The bile returned, and I could barely hold it back.

He was focused on watching himself as he slid in and out of me, groaning as if he could barely hold back. He hadn’t made that sound last night, but it didn’t matter. I was past this, but at half his size, there was no way to stop him. I tried to ignore the pleasure I was feeling. We started having s*x my junior year of college after a year of dating. I’ve always enjoyed having s*x with him. I thought we were in love, and that made it even more special to me.

Now that I know I was just a tool for him, I feel used. He only needed me to get his business up and running. I was so enamored of him that I wasn’t smart enough to realize he hadn’t really tried with me before. Which made this all the more insulting. No wonder they were gone so long last night. He had clearly done the same thing with Brandie, yet now he wanted to be with me all of a sudden. I don’t know why this change occurred, but this was the last time I was going to be with Nolan. I wish I had known what he had been planning, so I could have woken up early and left. I hated that Nolan was taking advantage of me like this.

I felt the buildup coming again, but I stayed silent. I wasn’t Brandie, and I don’t have any so-called ‘rules’ to abide by. The days of him controlling me were over as of today; he just didn’t know it yet. I was already planning to see my doctor for a full STD panel. We had s*x just the day before yesterday. Not knowing what a cheating bastard he was didn’t mean he hadn’t already given me something. I wish I could stop the wave of pleasure that enveloped me.

I’ve never felt s*x feel so good before, and I cried out, “Oh, God! Yes, right there, Nolan.”

Hearing me cry out, Nolan pounded into me even harder a few more times as I clenched around him, riding out my o****m. “Baby, I love you," he roared out, before grunting as he finished.

After I came down, I felt a regret so strong that I couldn’t hold back the sob that ripped out of me. How could I have allowed my parents' murderer to do this to me? I couldn’t stop him, but I’ve always been able to control my emotions. Nolan pulled out of me, but he didn’t understand why I was crying.

“Are you crying because you're so overcome?” Nolan asked with a smug look on his face. He gently wiped my tears away with his thumb.

I could tell he was patting himself on the back right now. He thought I was crying about our beautiful moment together. He didn’t understand that I was crying because I was disgusted with myself. Sick that I couldn’t stop my body from still responding to him. I allowed him to think what he wanted. I stared up at him, trying hard to hide the anger and frustration building insode of me. Nolan leaned down to kiss me on my temple like he always did. As usual, he saw what he wanted to see.

I knew I needed to speed up this timeline. I went into the guest bathroom and took a hot shower, trying to remove his touch from my body. I was getting tested today. I was going to call my uncle the minute I got into my car. I couldn’t take the risk of Nolan overhearing my conversation. I allowed myself to cry in the shower until the tears wouldn't come anymore. I wasn't going to cry when I told my uncle what I had learned. I don’t know if that's even possible, but I’m going to try.

I was just getting dressed when Nolan pulled me into his chest and kissed my shoulder. He ran his nose up the side of my neck, inhaling deeply before saying. “You smell delicious, babe.”

I twisted away from him and said, “You don’t want to be late for work, Nolan. I’m sure Ms. Talbert would have an issue with it.”

I was glad that I was looking up at him as I watched his expression change. I was glad that he was still angry with her. I’m going to remind him of what her actions caused.

“The party last night was too much. So much food was wasted, and the whole point was to make sure you got the contracts signed so their homes could be built. But I'm not worried. I’m sure you can get your clients back. You have a talent for giving your clients exactly what they want. I have faith you can get everything straightened out. Don’t worry about me today. I just have a few errands to run. I will throw a roast in the crockpot so dinner will be ready when you get home,” I told him before he could speak.

He needed to be reminded that Brandie had caused him a great deal of trouble. I'm grateful for it. If not for her behavior, I would still be under the impression that Nolan loved me. I would still believe that he wanted to build a family with me. I almost scoffed at the thought. I just maintained my innocent expression, and he gave me what I wanted.

“I never should have listened to her. She caused the whole issue last night by moving the design plans. I couldn’t find them until she came up to help me. She had put them in the wrong place. If her actions cost me those two sales, she’s fired. I can’t keep incompetent people around; this can't happen again. When she mentioned throwing the party, I thought it was a great idea, but she didn’t do what I asked. I would have asked you to do it, but you were still in mourning. You do everything with class. The party was garish and over-the-top. The only positive thing that happened last night was that you seem to be happier today. I’m glad that you're going out today, but don't overdo it. You take sure good care of me, Parker. I hope I never find out how tough life would be without you,” Nolan responded before turning me around and kissing the top of my head.

He left the house on time to stop and grab something. I used to make breakfast for him every day. I just hadn’t done so since I lost my parents. I didn’t have a response to what he said, but he didn’t wait around for one either. He still thinks he has me wrapped around his finger. He is stringing Brandie and me along, but he will soon find out that I’m no longer his naïve little wife.

I knew I couldn’t stay here for much longer. I faked being asleep last night. I just didn’t want to talk to him or allow him to touch me. I never expected him to engage me while I was asleep. I originally thought I could get everything I needed to get done in two weeks’ time. But after this morning, I was going to get everything set up or completed in the next two days. I know where his hands have been, and my stomach rolled in protest. I might have enjoyed it unwillingly, but there wouldn't be a repeat. Which means I need to quickly get all the pieces in place so I can go into hiding.

Despite what he said to Brandie last night, he was intending to knock me up in order to keep me by his side. I’m not going to play along. Once he realizes that I’m gone, it won’t be a stretch for him to figure out why I left. Especially when the forensic accountant arrives to conduct the audit. I own the majority of the company's shares. I can order the audit even without his approval. I silently thanked my father for doing that when we first invested in Nolan's company. Dad saw Nolan for who he was from the very beginning. He insisted that my investments be acknowledged as the primary stockholder. Nolan agreed, as he was starting out. He needed the capital, and thought he had me under his thumb.

He will never see what's coming until it’s too late. He will try to find me. He will need to get rid of me, but I plan to stay hidden until the police complete their investigation. Once they're arrested, I’ll return to testify against them at the trial. I know that Nolan’s mad at Brandie at the moment, but they’re in this together. My leaving will alert them that I know what they've done. They targeted me to get access to my money. There is no way that I will allow either of them to escape the justice they deserve.