Regrets Part I

Savannah Grace - The Aftermath

I'm having a hard time taking all of this in. I can't believe Jackson just asked me on a date. And now he's kissing me. I'll admit, it's not a bad kiss, not like Brayden's but still not bad. I kiss him back for another few seconds before we pull away. We just look at each other for a minute kind of surprised at what just happened. By the look on his face I can tell that he wasn't actually planning on doing that. We exit the mall parking lot and head towards my house, both silently going over what just happened and what it meant. By the time we get to my house, I'm even more confused than before. I tell Jackson goodnight and head into my house.

"Hey sweetie" my mom greets me "how was your evening?"

"It was ok" I respond as I start pulling things out of my bags to show her what I got.

"Looks like you got some great deals! I know you were saying you needed some more clothes to wear to school, I'm glad today was a successful trip. How was it with Jackson being there?"

"It was fine" I simply respond. I couldn't tell her what happened. Not yet. I needed time to process it first before I could tell my mom. I put everything back in my bags and head back upstairs.

"Goodnight Savannah Grace" my mom calls after me as I head up the stairs.

"Goodnight, I'll see you tomorrow" I reply.

Once I'm upstairs I start thinking, I have got to tell someone about this but who? The girls are too close to this situation so I'm not sure they could have a biased opinion as the personally know Brayden and Jackson. They knew I got my heart broken once by Brayden and they can get a little overprotective at times. I got it! Jessica! We don't talk nearly as much as we used to but it seems like we can always pick up right where we left off. I think the last time I talked to her was when Brayden and I broke up.

I pull out my phone, find her contact and press "send". It rings a few times then I hear her cheery voice on the other end.

"Savannah Grace!" She says "It's so good to hear from you!"

"Hey Jessica, how are you? Anything new lately?"

"Not really, since Brad and I broke up, I've just been focusing on school and hanging out with some friends. What about you, anything new with you? Are you still trying to get over Brayden?"

"Funny you should ask..." I trail off "... I don't think I'll ever totally get over Brayden but remember Jackson"

"Of course, isn't he Brayden's best friend"

"Yes but ever since Brayden has basically left our group, Jackson and I have been hanging out a lot more" she gasps "and get this... tonight he kissed me"

"You're kidding?? How was it?" we continue our conversation, I fill her all in on what happened before we talk about other things going on in life. Before we know it, an hour has passed!

"Well, I guess we should hang up" Jessica says "It's getting kind of late".

"Yeah but you still haven't told me what you think I should do about the whole Jackson situation"

"What does your heart tell you to do?"

"Well, if there was any chance at all of Brayden coming back, I'd say definitely not but since he seems to not care about anything or anyone, I'm not so sure. I never saw Jackson like that or thought he felt that way about me. It's just going to take me a bit to process everything and sort my feelings out. But do you think it's wrong? I mean, Jackson and Brayden were best friends since they were kids."

"I don't think it's wrong. I think it's wrong how Brayden treated you, and Jackson too, really. I think if the two of you found your way to each other because of that shared hurt, I don't think it's a bad thing. You never know, this may just be the best thing for both of you. Give it a thought, you have time to decide. Maybe just go on that date with him, take it slow. No more heavy make out sessions in his car just yet!"

"Jessica! It was NOT like that at all, it was one kiss" I tell her, we are both laughing, I know she's just joking around. That's just the kind of relationship we have and I wouldn't change it for anything. We say our goodnights and hang up.

I start getting ready for bed still thinking about the events that unfolded tonight and what Jessica told me. I think she's right, maybe I will give this a try. It's just one date, what could it hurt. Just as I'm slipping into bed, I heard my phone ding. I pick it up and see a goodnight text from Jackson. I text him goodnight and drift off into a dreamless sleep.