The rejected wolf

chapter 9

Aces Pov (Claire’s ex mate)

   She was here I couldn’t believe it I hadn’t seen her in about a year and my wolf hardly talked to me it has been a very bad year 

  1 year ago…….

   She left. I was going Down to the kitchen to eat and when I walked in I saw her talking to her brother when she was done she walked right passed me and she had the emotionless face and it kinda hurt.my wilf let out a growl he didn’t like that his mate was looking at him like that but what can you do 

“Accept her as your mate

“You know that you can't do that plus I love maya” 

“Yea but I don’t plz I’m beginning you plz accept her before we completely mother and we can’t do nothing about it” 

“ I won’t”and he growls and blocked our mindlink

I went for a run I just had to clear my head and I couldn’t in the pa I house were her scent was everywhere driving me insane 

2 weeks have gone by and I can’t get her out of my head I haven’t even had s*x with maya because she’s always in my head and my wolf won’t let me , but today i am going to i dont care wht my wolf says or does. 

2 hours later……

I have been catching up on pack work when maya came in and she looked so f*****g sexy i  was thinking of all the things that i could do but my wolf had to say something

“Clarie would look way better at….. Just imaging…..”

“Stop it” and i blocked the mindlink he had put images of me and claire doing some crazy stuff and i cant believe that from all of that i got a hard on. I looked up and saw maya walking over here very seductively and I knew today i was gonna get laid. I don't care what my wolf said.

 A few hours go by and I am done. I couldnt the more I did it, the more I thought of Claire. I couldn't it waset even my wolf that put her in my mind this time and I was angry with myself for it. I couldn sta hard without thinking about her. I had to stop myself a few times from yelling her name out. I just couldn't help it. I just hate myself for that. I can't believe that I caught feelings for someone like her. I feel disgusted with myself for liking her. I can't. I just can't help it and the more I think about it the more I start to like her. I am tempted to just bring her here again but i won't

6 weeks later……..

I hate life so much right now and I can't blame anyone except myself for doing this to me. I thought that i could live without her but i was wrong i can't. I tried to get over her but i just couldnt so i tried to f**k her out of my system but it didnt work. I just couldn't believe that i was starting to like her and then one night i started feeling this pain in  my abdomen it wasn't that much but as time went on the pain got to be too much i could not handle it. I tried to walk to the pack hospital but it was hard. I had never experienced pain like this before. I don't think anyone could deal with this pain. When i did get to the hospital doctor delaila got me a room she looked like she knew what was happening and it kinda looked like she was angry for a second but it was gone in  a split second. The pain must have made me see something that I thought I passed out not long after. The next day doctor delila told me that the pain was from my mate having s*x with someone. I got mad how could she do this to me. I'm supposed to be her mate.

“This is what I was afraid of. I told you but you wouldn't listen and know it's too late” my wolf said i knew he was right i had done the same thing to her and i put her through the same pain but i never saw how much it affected someone. She never showed any signs of weakness andi was starting to regret what I have done.

It's been a year since that happened and life has been hell after that my wolf hasn't talked to me at all. I tried to get her back i really tried but they wouldn't let me first it was because she was in the middle of her training and she couldn't leave before that.after that it was that she couldn't leave until she wanted to go back , and then the last time i tried they said i had no right to her because she joined another pack, and something is off sometimes i could feel her emotions not that great but they were there and now it feels like there is this wall that is preventing me from feeling her emotions why i feel so helpless and the pack is barely holding it together. Today christian is talking to me at a mall . it was being renovated and they just finished and christian said that i need a break from everything. I still haven't told him that his sister isn't in the pack anymore. 

 2 hours have passed since we got here and I'm ready to go. We were on our way to go when I smelt her she was here. I followed her scent and it led me to forever 21. When i got in there i saw this woman waiting for someone she smelt like my mate so i went up to her and started to smell her and see if i could find my mate or if she could tell me where she was. I think that she thought I was trying to get with her and I get it looks bad and she kept telling me to get away from her and that she had a mate. I was trying to tell her that i wasn't trying to get with her but i think she was freaking out too much and wasn't really listening to what i was saying.  I was trying to see where her scent was stopping when someone called her over to the dressing room. 

then i thought that she could be there so i waited till they got out. I know it sounds like i'm a big creep but I just wanted to see her again. When the girl got out this beautiful woman came out she looked nothing like my mate. Sure there were some similarities to her but that couldn't be her and when she walked past me she didn't smell like my mate but it had to be her i was standing there dumbfounded that I didn't notice them leaving. Either i had gone crazy and just thought i smelled my mate or i was just crazy. After they left I tried looking everywhere for her but it was all a dead end. Yup i was definitely crazy. I decided to go home. I just couldn't believe that i was so close to my mate and I couldn't even find her.but i promise i will find her and bring her here i dont care what i have to do but she will be mine