Dark Secrets Untold

Susan\'s Fears

A few hours later Julie made her way back downstairs but as she started to descend down the stairs she could hear her mum talking about her and it made her stop on the stairway and listen.

"I just can"t understand what has happened to my daughter. It seems that this whole pregnancy thing as changed Julie"s whole personality." Her mother"s voice sounded so lost.

"It could just be mood swings, I know I had a lot of them when I had my two girls; Carlos was close to strangling me." Now that was Gabrielle"s voice.

This was so tropical of her mother and the rest of the housewives on this street... anytime they had gossip or at a loose end, they always called on each other.

"I swear it"s the guy that got her pregnant that has changed her. Julie must have felt quite close to him, expressly to have s*x with him. He must have truly broken my poor girl"s heart leaving her like this," Susan continued to say.

Julie slowly sat down on one of the steps and looked up at the ceiling and slowly closed her eyes. That was one thing with her mother, she truly always knew people"s hearts without even realising it.

"Yes, that must have been really hard on her. Anyhow skip to the important part. Who was it? Who are we talking about? Is he good looking?" That was so tropical of Gabby, always wanted the gossip, more than anything else.

"That"s the thing... Julie won"t tell me anything about him. I have no idea who he is." Her mother added.

"Julie must have said something," Gabby said with concern in her voice, that was one thing with her, she may act like she doesn"t care, but deep down she did have a heart of gold.

"Nothing at all, except warning me not to go near him. How can I even do that if I don"t know anything about him?" Her mother sounded distant as if she was in deep thought at the same time as listening to Gabrielle.

"What about the school? I"m sure someone there must know who Julie was seeing," Gabby answered as if reading her mother"s thoughts.

Julie quickly opened her eyes and a tear slid down over her cheeks... Her mother was hurt over this, but Julie should have realised that Susan wouldn"t give up until she had all the answers she wanted.

"Of course... Julie"s roommate. Why didn"t I think of that?" Susan suddenly added.

Julie wrapped her tears away with the back of her hand and stood back up again, she knew her mother was getting too close to the truth... not that Rosie knew the truth, but her mother could easily put two and two together if her roommate mentioned anything about their conversations.

"There you go. I"m sure her roommate could tell you a secret or two about Julie," Gabby added.

"You"re right. I"ll do that right now."

Julie slowly continues to walk the rest of the way down the stairs and saw her mother walk over to the phone "Don"t do that!" Julie quickly said.

Susan and Gabby both look over at Julie who was now standing at the bottom of the stairs with a different set of clothes on and her hair was slightly damp.

"Then tell me who he is?" Susan demanded.

"What does it matter who the father is; I"m having it adopted anyway," Julie answered in an annoyed tone. Her mother continued to stare at her as if not quite believing what she was saying. "Then I can get back on with my life again," Julie added as an afterthought.

Susan looked away from Julie to stared at the banner that was still up as if that would reveal all her answers, but Susan knew it wouldn"t... only memories were the past and that was where they would have to stay. Susan wondered how Gabby was taking this, so Susan turned her head to face her friend, to find her staring at Julie the same way she felt... shock! "See what I mean?" Susan stated.

Gabrielle continues to look at Julie and slowly started nodded her head like she understood everything Susan had been saying "Your mother is worried about you sweetheart," Gabby said to Julie with a slight smile, that only just lifted the corners of her lips.

Julie looks over at Gabby and slowly approached her "There is nothing for her to worry about," Julie answered with a quieter voice. Julie turns around to face her mother and tried to think of a way to get her off this subject once and for all, which Julie knew was a hard thing to do, especially when it concerned one certain person... Susan Meyer! "Mum, I can sort this all out on my own… Now, can we just get off this subject?"

Susan walked up closer to Julie. "You use to be able to tell me everything," Susan said while her mind remembered the past.

Julie looks down at her feet and Susan reached out and placed both her hands on each side of Julie"s arms which made Julie look back up at her. "Please talk to me; I want to understand what going on."

"You know very well what"s going on."

"I"m your mother; I have a right to know who left you pregnant."

"Why Mother, tell me why it"s so important that you should know who the father is?"

Susan opened her mouth and then slowly closed it again, for some reason no answer came to her.

"There is nothing you need to know, except I fall for… I fall for the wrong guy." Julie realised that she almost revealed his name and quickly corrected herself. She could feel herself losing control again, just thinking about him.

A few tears started to escape down Julie"s cheeks which made her look back down at her feet again and then it clicked in Susan"s mind, why her daughter was acting this way! "Oh my, this is worse than I thought," Susan said very quietly as she could to stare at Julie.

"Oh, Honey. You still care about this guy, don"t you?" Gabby voiced Susan"s thoughts.

Julie looks up at Susan in fear and quickly turns to stare back at Gabby, now in shock; how could Gabby say that? She didn"t feel anything anymore, especially after what he did... Or did she? No of course not!

"Even after what he has done to you, you still can"t help wanting him," Gabby continued to say.

"No way! I hate him; he almost tore this family apart, when he…" Julie quickly stopped herself from speaking; she was getting too emotional, which was making the truth come out and she couldn"t do that.

Julie took that moment to look back at Susan and she lowered her hands and took a couple of steps back when she realised where her daughter was going with this. "When he what?" Susan stated angrily.

"It doesn"t matter," Julie added very quietly... this conversation was getting too much, she was starting to remember the past when this guy was so nice to her.

Susan saw a few tears escape down her daughter"s cheeks and Julie quickly tries to wrap them away. Susan could never stay mad at her when she got so upset, like this. "It does matter to you though, doesn"t it?" Susan stated the truth out loud.

Julie knew she had to put her mother straight, "Look, mum, I may have cared for him once but not anymore."

"And what about this baby?" Susan added before she looked down at Julie"s bump... This was the main issue here!

"What about it?" Julie added with an annoying tone, why couldn"t her mother let that part go? Even though Julie did know the answer.

"Doesn"t this baby mean anything to you?" Susan asked, she knew her daughter had a good heart in her, she was just trying to block it... She truly didn"t blame her daughter after she had been hurt like this, but somehow had to get her to realise what she was doing.

Julie followed her mothers look towards her bump. "No, I just want it gone, like its father!" Julie added, trying to get everyone to understand her reasons.

"You might regret it later in life if you do this." Gabrielle deep in though, with what was going on in front of her.

Julie looks up at Gabby "No, it will just ruin my life if I keep it. I want nothing more to do with the father…" Julie quickly added while she looked back down at her bump again. "And to make sure he stays gone, I have to make sure I get rid of this thing!" Julie continued to add. She wanted the image of the baby"s father out of her mind.

Susan watched in horror as Julie started banging her fists against her bump. This made her jump into action and grabbed a hold of Julie"s wrists. "Stop that! Susan tried to her best to pull them away from her bump, but it wasn"t easy. "Don"t do that, you could harm the baby," Susan added hoping it would knock sense into her daughter.

"I don"t care." Julie continued to see the image of his cocky grin on her bump and somehow had to get rid of it.

Julie tries to get her hands free but Susan continued to keep a tight hold of them. "The baby doesn"t deserve to be beaten like that... It"s not the baby"s fault that you got yourself pregnant." Susan added as an after thought.

"I just want to give birth now and finally have this thing gone, " Julie added, knowing it would be the only way to get rid of his face forever.

From just the way Julie that. Susan could this had happened before. "How many times have you done this to the baby?" Susan quickly added.

"A few times," Julie said very quietly, now realising what she was doing and stopped trying to struggle with her mother.

"Right, we"re going to see the doctor first thing tomorrow."

"I have already seen a doctor; the baby is healthy enough." Julie quickly added, there was no way she was going to the family doctor; she couldn"t risk them founding anything out.

Susan wondered if that was even true, but it didn"t seem like her daughter was lying. "Not if you keep doing this," Susan said in a hash tone.

Julie quickly pulled her hands away from Susan. "Oh leave me alone, Mother," Julie added while she shoved her away.

Susan somehow kept her balance, she stared at Julie in shock... for some reason Susan"s mind had gone blank.

Julie did realise what she had just done... it truly frightened her, but it seemed something was eating away at her and she had to get it out. "I"m in my 20"s now…" She quickly moves away from her mother. "I can do what I want when I want and there is nothing you can do about it." Julie continued to go on as she makes her way to the front door... Determined to get out there, before she made things even worse.

Susan felt fear building up inside her. "And where do you think you"re going?" Susan very quickly... What was wrong with her voice, it didn"t sound like her at all.

"Away from you," Julie said before she could stop herself... This wasn"t like her; it felt like someone else had taken over her body completely. She stormed out the house, slamming the door behind her.

Susan just stood staring at the closed door watching the lace curtains flow side to side from the force... She could believe that moment had just happened. What was her daughter turning into? Susan felt something roll down her cheek, she slowly wiped it away as the same thing now rolled on her finger. Susan realised she was crying.

Susan slowly turns around to see Gabrielle looking back at her with a concerned look on her face. She had forgotten for a moment that someone was still here. "What should I do, Gabby?" Susan asked very quickly, not sure if Gabby even heard her.

"I think you need to give her time to calm down," Gabby answered.

Susan looks out the kitchen window staring at Julie, who was slowly walking down the pathway. With the way Julie was looking now, it was truly hurting her. "I feel like I"m losing her to this person she is turning into, and I so desperately need to stop this, and get my daughter back before it"s too late and I lose her forever." Susan finally voiced her fears out loud.