Problems
1687 Words
DENNY
It's Febuary going on month 9 for Maliki and I things are great with us. Mal has been gone a lot lately helping my dad out of town we video chat every night but I really miss him sometimes. It is Valentines I woke up to a sweet note and really beautiful flowers.
" I miss you baby see you tonight wear jeans"
I smile and lay back in bed Brandon knocks on the door and then comes in.
" Those are pretty"
" Thanks I know"
" DenDen I need to ask you a serious question"
I sit up and look at him
" Anything DonDon whats up?"
He pulls a box out of his pocket and my hands fly over my mouth.
" Do you think he will say yes?"
I nod
" Hell yes I do, you guys have been together for 3 years DonDon that man loves you"
" I love him two Den I am scared though"
" Why?"
" We got in an argument the other day, he wants to adopt a kid Den I don't think I am ready for that"
" I never saw myself having a family or kids or any of it"
" Just take it one step at a time Don you don't have to rush things, Nate will understand and I am sure he is willing to wait till you are ready."
" It has taken you three years for that"
He nods
" Have you ever thought about having kids DenDen?"
I nod
" Sometimes esecially when I spend time with Francis. But I would need to be in a s****l relationship for that."
" You and Ki have still never?"
I shake my head
" No, I don't think I can go down that road with Mal"
" Do you love him Den?"
I nod
" Never thought I would, but yeah DonDon I do. It started out as just a contract and getting my dad's company but he makes me happy Don like really really happy. I feel like I don't have to put on the perfect daughter act around him and he likes me for me."
" I think he loves you Den"
I shake my head
" I doubt that, I know in the end I am just going to be heart broken. But I feel like it is worth it."
He nods
" I love you Den and I will always be here for you."
I smile and nod
" I love you two Don and I know"
He hugs me and walks out I lay back on my bed and think about it. Would Maliki ever want kids or even stay with me after the next 15 months is over I definently want him but does he feel the same? I know things have changed between us but what if it is all one sided.
I get up and go help Rosie in the kitchen with my parents dinner then head upstairs getting ready. Maliki is meeting me downstairs tonight he said he had something important to do. I walk down the stairs in Jeans and A fitted top to see Maliki in Jeans and an old rockband tee I smile and he grabs my my waist kissing me.
" You look Beautiful baby but you might want to put your hair up"
" Why?"
" It's a suprise Denny go put your hair up so we can go"
I nod and walk back up the stairs and put my hair in a bun then we head out. He pulls up to forest green park and we get out.
" What are we doing Mal?"
" I told you, it's a suprise come on"
He grabs my hand and we start walking he takes me to the top of the hill where th Gazebo is decorated and a small dinner table is set in the middle with food on it.
" This is Beautiful"
" You are Beautiful Ardenia"
I spin around into his chest and he reaches down kissing me and picking me up.
He walks us to the table and sits me down then pulls out my chair I smile and take a seat. We start eating in silence and it feels awkward. I decide to fill the silence with the question that has been flooding my mind all day.
" Do you want kids Mal?"
He chokes on a piece of his steak then clears his throat.
" I'm sorry what?"
" Do you want kids?"
" What kind of question is that Denny?"
" Just a simple Question Maliki"
" Hell no I don't want kids Ardenia"
" Why not"
" I have reasons Denny it doesn't matter what they are"
" It matters to me Maliki"
" Why?"
" This isn't a forever thing here Denny once the contract is over we go our seperate ways. I don't want kids and I don't talk about families for a reason."
" So you don't want me either?"
" All of this it is just a contract to you nothing more right?"
" Denny please I...."
" Don't Maliki, you have said enough" I get up and throw my napkin on the table
" Go screw yourself Maliki, don't f**king come near me anymore"
I walk away tears filling my eyes, I sit down on a tree and start sobbing.
MALIKI
What the hell was I thinking, I want to be with her but why would she even ask that question we have never even had s*x. not that I don't want it but I can't give myself to her more it is just a contract it isn't real.
I have already fallen into the rabbit hole way too far. I was going to tell her I love her tonight. I do love her I want her for as long as I can get her even though it is only 14 months I still want her.
F**k I'm an idiot
My phone rings distracting my thoughts
" Hello?"
" Boss it's Mike sorry to bug you but you and Mrs. Carson need to get to the hospital"
" Why what happened?"
" The Madame she collapsed"
" We are on our way"
I hang up and get up to go find Denny, She is sitting by a tree sobbing. I walk up and wipe her tears.
" I don't want kids because if something happens to me they will grow up without a father. I don't get attached to women because of that Denny."
She looks up at me
" I am attached to you Ardenia and it scares the s**t out of me"
" I love you Ardenia Rose Carson and I am f**king scared okay"
She grabs my head pulling me into a kiss then leaning her forehead against mine.
" I love you Maliki Daniel Owens, And I am scared shitless because of it"
I kiss her again and pick her up she leans against my chest.
" Your mom is in the hospital we need to go"
She nods against me as I carry her to the car. We get to the hospital and she hugs her dad.
" What is going on daddy?"
" Not sure she just collapsed when we where dancing"
" They are running a bunch of tests she hasn't woke up yet'
She nods and gets him to sit down, I walk over and sit next to her as she leans her head on her dads shoulder. I put my hand on her thigh and lay back in my chair.
The doctor comes in a few hours lateramd they jump to their feet.
" Mr. Carson I am very sorry we did all we could but your wife's heart has failed"
My boss drops to his knees and Denny follows him hugging her dad and sobbing frantically. I bend down wrapping my arms around her while tears eacape my eyes.
We finally get up off the floor and I look around at my men who have been crying with us. We carry Denny and Mr. Carson out of the hospital and into the Limo. Denny climbs in my lap and keeps crying as I run my fingers through her hair until she falls asleep.
" I know this is just a job to you Maliki but please take care of my little girl she is all I have left now"
I nod
" This has never been just a job to me sir, I married your daughter as a favor to you. But I do truly love your little girl and I will take care of her as long as she allows me to."
He nods
" Just guard her heart Ki she is fragile"
I smile looking at the sleeping woman in my arms
" I know she is sir, I promise to take care of her."
I carry Denny up to our room and strip myself down cuddling up next to her.
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2 Weeks Later
MALIKI
The last two weeks have been hell after the funeral my boss and Denny both withdrew from everyone. Denny has been going through her daily routine as a shell not showing any emotion or care.
I have just been supporting her and my boss not pushing them. Denny and I are watching a movie and she moves off my chest and grabbing something out of her nighstand.
" Remeber when your mom passed and Daniella and I where in the restraunt laughing about something"
I nod and she hands me a note
" Your mom kept this from when you got shot"
" Sorry I can't play nurse Denny get well soon Mal"
I lean over and kiss her
" I love you Ardenia"
She pulls me back in a kiss
" I love you Maliki, please don't leave me"
I lean my forehead to hers
" I'm not going anywhere baby I promise"
I kiss her again and we lay there locked in eachothers kisses. She finally lays down on my chest and falls asleep.
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